how do i fight the constant overwhelming urge to get hooked on some drug that will ruin my lifei'm already a pretty severe alcoholic but i don't know sometimes it deosn't feel like enough
No healthy or sane individual has the desire to ruin their life with drugs, you probably have issues in your personal life and are suffering from some sort of void that is making your life seem boring or not worth living.
>>950097412i mean yeah obviously, my life is awful, but therapy sucks shit and alcohol doesn't cut it anymore
>>950097340that's really weird anon. I think I know what you mean. I chase danger in a reckless way, so I understand from that perspective at least.Still, that's pretty extreme man.I wonder if you could find a way to enjoy life as you already know it?I hope you find a way to change your life for the better, anon.
>>950097499I know it sounds cliche, but have you considered taking up some sort of hobby? Sometimes going out of your comfort zone can help expand your mind. Spending a month or two out in the woods without any technology, living in a tent, and subsisting solely off of the food and equipment you carried on your back, all whilst writing down your experience in a journal will definitely give you a new perspective.
>>950097621i don't know, i've tried for a while, i experienced wonderful times, but it doesn't really kill the overwhelming sense of dread and pointlessness>>950097632i have hobbiesi love travelling, i love just walking around places and discovering every little building and it's historyi love caring for animals, especially catsbut it just doesn't kill the urge
>>950097710Have you tried psychedelics? Good ones from a reliable source are relatively safe and they could perhaps give you some good insights, ironically, doing a drug could maybe help you not want to do drugs.
>>950097791i've thought about it a loti'm rather spiritual but at the same time, i'm terrified of learning what's inside of mei feel like there's something very bad at my core and i don't wanna see it
>>950097853I think it could probably help you, facing yourself is without a doubt an overwhelming and frightening experience, but it can change you for the better. I think that preparing yourself beforehand is useful, physically and mentally. You could undergo a symbolic ritual of initiation to prepare yourself, perhaps set a physically demanding goal for yourself and do not take the drugs until you have achieved that goal.
>>950097950it may helpbut it may noti had a strange phase back in late 2021 where i had constant sleepless nightsafter over 70 hours without sleep i felt like i could see inside my sould but it didn't look nice so i'm scared to look again
>>950097710Where you rest your figurative heart determines your state of mind. Rest your heart on positive things. Let-go of your pain and your bad habits, if at all possible.
>>950098625i suppose that's the issuehow do i let go of my pain?it's omni present in my daily lifei'm physically disabled, i have an ex that haunts me and i'm seeing my mother's health decline a little more every daymy cats are a nice thought i guess but even then i am filled with guilt because i don't know if i can take care of themif i take shrooms or mdma or lsd, will i think of my mother, of my catswill i think of *her*?i know i won't if i take, say, an opioid, that's the appeal
>>950098796>how do i let go of my pain?You must face it. Determine its source, and then try to make peace with it <3>i'm physically disabledOh, that makes it more difficult. Still, I hope you find new activities, and maybe a reason to find friends or other people to chat with irl at least. A lot of us are deprived of human contact too, and that is a major source of pain in many anons' lives. If you seek you will find more often than not just what you're looking for in life.>my cats are a niceOh, that's nice, and I hope you find a way to take care of them well . it' sdifficult to take care like that sometimes, but maybe you can get help?>if i take shrooms or mdma or lsdYou'll likely confront your pain, because that's usually how it works, but it's not bad either. I mean it is during, but it can help you to face your demons, if it doesn't drive you literally mad/insane/.I hope you find just what you need. I hope you find a good life,a non. You deserve it :)
>>950099650i genuinely appreciate iti do need to face what's haunting me, mainly my exshe likely got put in an arranged marriage and left me because of it, that shit is not easy to get overi hope you too find the good in life
>>950097340Just seek therapy bro. That simple.
>>950101081tried, never trying again, that shit made me attempt sucide lol
>>950097340choose your addiction wisely
>>950097340Nah. If you have something that makes you feel good you'll want it all the time form the rest of your life.
