never thought i'd say this, but thank you janny for importing some threads and opening up the space for day 8.

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>>24368038
>meds
no shame, if they work for you thats great
i had to break free from the side effects and i've learned to deal with being a literal schizo, the voices and i are friends now which is an interesting development...

>homo as FUCK dreams.
I'm kinda jealous
normally i have really traumatizing dreams and this is the first time in a while that was actually pleasant
not to rub it in...but i've been reminiscing on it all freaking day
gosh i need a bf....

>ur dream
very random it seems? kinda spontaneous and random feeling?
do you have any idea what it might mean?
if i had to interpret, I would say you probably feel like maybe you have a sense of obligation to be doing more with yourself?

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>>24369615
hello again. i have procured food and am indulging. already feel more awake.
>literal schizo
o wow, i didn't know that. well, as long as the voices are nice to you then i wont need to beat them with a hammer.
>traumatizing dreams
i've had a few like that... the one that immediately comes to mind was one where i worked at a daycare and was watching the kids outside, then a cop pulled up, shot one in the face, then left.
it was fucked up.
>need a bf
bfs can be very nice yeah, but i dunno if they're a cure all. you reminisce about that dream as much as you want!
>dream interpreting
i stopped interpreting dreams when i told a slovenian friend of mine about one where i was driving a monster truck over a gas station, randomly stopped to get out, saw a bald police officer and screamed "HOLY SHIT HE'S BALD!" before running away & the slovenian guy said i was subconsciously scared of black dicks.
...i'm not lying. i still keep a dream journal but trying to get something more than face value out of it isn't in my priorities anymore

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>>24369984
yaaay for eating!! i just did that too :D
>nice voices
at times it feels benevolant and other times they are certainly fucking with me and test my patience >.< but it used to be a lot worse, especially when the paranoia was at its peak

woah thats a sudden an unexpected thing to happen in a dream @__@
>bf
they arent but...i just have this nagging feeling i should at least try, its been a long time and im just like hiding but want something (so flip floppy)
> the slovenian guy said i was subconsciously scared of black dicks.
lmao what, thats an odd thing to say
to me it feels like they are a reflection of the subconcious and emotional state...some an have deeper meaning and others no depth
but ya know, i am a bit loony :p hehe

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>>24370295
>just did that too
What'd you end up having? I just made some quick quesadillas with the chicken I had left in the fridge and called it that.
>used to be worse
Yeah a lot of people, including myself at times, seem to forget that it's paranoid schizophrenia for a reason. Paranoia can really ruin a person, so I'm glad things are better for you now.
>at least try
Well of course you should try if you're able! However, that feeling of wanting something but wanting it to happen to you instead of it happening on its own is something I really resonate with. But yese, if ur ever able to try then do it, having one is nice.
>some have meaning
Some definitely do. One of the coolest dreams I ever had was a dream where I was watching a youtube video, right. Now okay, some backstory cuz I wanna ramble at chu, for years I'd occasionally agonize over the name of this one game I remember seeing in my childhood that had zombies, basebuilding, scavenging, and disease, but finding the name of that game was IMPOSSIBLE because that's every zombie game ever. Well, following this dream, I quickly looked up the title of the video before I could forget it (it was something like "Worst game I've ever played") and there it was. A fort zombie video on youtube.
A fucking dream is what jogged my memory there. Crazy, right?

>>24369192
adaptation to eat food is a blue from plant you have to touch
on top of an ayleid lookin shine for god knows what reason
why?

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>>24370314
super yummers cauliflaur pesto cheese mash thing i made with chicken and avocado...so super yummers!
>quesadillas with the chicken
tasty for u!! :D
>paranoia
yeah now that i dont let them dictate my feelings and trick me into thinking people/things are out to get me and its a lot better
there is a lot of nuance to it...cuz sometimes they will try very very VERY hard to get my attention and it can be disruptive :X
>But yese, if ur ever able to try then do it
im just so conflicted, dont want an overly thirsty guy...but at the same time....ugghhh, im weak to sayiing no to things i should say no to BLEH
but maybe i will....gosh i wanna snuggle so bad

>dream
no way!! thats so rad idk that i've ever had anything like that happen, hah so cool :)
do you still play it? lolol

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Finally get to play Armored Core 3 again. I know he's from Nexus but holy fuck I want Evangel to top me so badly.
>>24370364
>why?
I'm just making conversation, or at least trying to. I mean, what else are these threads for? I guess you could post some shit, and preferably not the Yonkers kind.
>>24370367
Just by the sound of it, it sounds like you had a great dinner. That's awesome Ears.
>nuance
I can imagine so, and it's one of those things I'll never fully understand even if explained to me. Not for lack of comprehension, no, but because I simply don't have it and can never live that experience, so any nuance will always be lost.
I'd imagine it's a little hard to keep your head above water though, especially on an imageboard like this. Even I get paranoid on here.
>conflicted
Avoid apps like Grindr and you'll probably cut out a good 70% of the thirstiest guys out there.
>weak to say no
Oof, I can really empathize with that. It's easy to get swept up...
>fort zombie
Oh, no, I ended up buying it again but it needs more patching up than Matthew Shepard's body so I've just never been able to launch it.

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>>24370455
i think aeris said he was gonna play that too :0

there are so many crazy details i could ramble about it forever but i try to keep it concise lol
fortunately my technical literacy is very high so using 4ch is w/e to me now (its what i do for work)
but before when i was schizo posting on /b/ i was certain the people who were following me were also replying to my threads (lol...)

>apps
yeah no grindr lol
>It's easy to get swept up...
i fall and get hurt really easy too when the right person comes around and i am so worried about that
everything is peaceful right now...but gosh i am really considering risking it >.<

>more patching up than Matthew Shepard's body
grim

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>>24370534
>aeris
He's playing Armored Core 6, which is vastly different from any other Armored Core game. I won't send gameplay to demonstrate it, instead I'll send 1 track from either game to show how it's different on every level.
Here are garage & mission select tracks for some different AC games
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWksqXzkvbk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UCLzxoPI0zo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LmMnrh4yHIQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2m3Gzm0zsN0

>technical literacy is high
Oh! Very good then. Mine only extends to making very simple tax calculators in C++ so I'm not as good as some other anons.
>people following me
Yeah on a board like /b/ it's hard to tell so u got a ton of room for that kinda assumption work. Less so here on /bant/ thankfully.
>fall and get hurt
Urgh, yeah, me too... Being emotionally fragile is nice but it can also feel like a damn curse at times.
>grim
I'm sorry for that bad taste joke but it's really that bad...

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>>24370598
Man World Navigation always got me boppin around in my chair.

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goodnight r/banter. as it is no longer day 8 and is instead day 9, i implore you to sage this thread if you, for whatever reason, wanna post.

>>24370972
sweet dreams
>>24370455
i meant subnautica 2
got the adaptation to eat fish, but it seemed there was a stapled on ocean monument thing that might have had religious vaule to something
felt a little stapled on/out of place

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>>24370598
since its no longer day 8 i will sage :3

>amored core music
ookay yeah verryy VERY different holy heck haha
>tax calculators in C++
hey thats cool, im terriable at programming tb.h
im super awesome le hacker and do security work and pentesting
it really helps the paranoia understanidng how all that works

>Being emotionally fragile is nice but it can also feel like a damn curse at times.
i love being an emotional softie now its like one of my favorite things about myself i used to really hate
especially when i would cry in front of people ;__;
i am older and wiser and more resilient now though so maybe ....maybe its time
>I'm sorry for that bad taste joke but it's really that bad...
this is the 4chan tho and i love dark humor lol :3