day 12
>>24445691Hi
some things are best left unlearned and some bears best left unpoked. my lesson has been learnt today.
>>24445704hey brazilanon, how's life treating you?
>>>/wsg/6164322>>24445704haai
>>24445709iOS ID lmao itoddler alert itoddler alert!>that pic>that webmIs it LFG time? We in the clear? DID IT PASS?
my dog has decided he wants to lie on my pillows now but he doesnt want me to lie my head on him even though he's the perfect size what a dumb fucking bitch i shouldve clicker trained him instead of being clicker trained myself
>>24445732>iOS ID lmao itoddler alert itoddler alert!linux tranners win yet again>Is it LFG time?not yet. only when it actually arrives and isn't rendered unusable in some way we can declare a happening. there is a chance that its just one vial and not three but i would be very happy to just have *something* at this point.>We in the clear? DID IT PASS?according to the tracking, yes, but it's weird. it was cleared yesterday morning shortly after it arrived but tracking only showed it at 3AM this night. it also says that a facility from poland that teleported to germany did it. still i trust the plan
>>24445761semi-related
oh wai tthere was no "BTFO"and to call myself a /g/entooman..
why is everyone trolling our resident commie today? i mean im not innocent either but it feels kinda silly at this point but y'know... i used to tell everyone to fuck off to >>>/pol/ too so i get it.>>24445793>not yetWell... only 2 days to go, it seems. At least the worst of it's over for now, right?...that was the worst of it, wasn't it?>happy to just have *something*yeah absolutely. do you have a source of needles too? also how the heck are u supposed to dispose of sharps like that? you cant just throw them in the trash, right?ok sorry yes. i got very little sleep and i have yet to take my meds so my attention span is everywhere and nowhere and thin vertically and narrow horizontally and round n round it goes.HRT! Yes. u need da estrogens... or else... u will have no boobs and be mentally ill! at least with E u can get some boobers>yes, but it's weird>it also says that a facility from poland that teleported to germany did ityou have no idea how funny the mental image of that was for me. like i know it should be mildly concerning but god that's funny. maybe they just wrote the wrong thing, or... outsourced customs to... a... place in poland, i guess??? who knows.>>24445799i really wish petplay wasnt such a drug because i started out hesitant too and now i willingly wear a shock collar around my thigh for my partner. what a fucked up life.thankfully though? not clicker trained!>>24445881there was no need to, you did it to yourself!
>>24445981>why is everyone trolling our resident commie today?don't worry, he's a professional :3>...that was the worst of it, wasn't it?i already got two vials from them but both were from a bad batch so that could happen again (all following reships were/are free btw) although they said that they fixed the problem. or they somehow broke during shipping idk. a lot can go wrong and there's a reason i am waiting for over two months now. however being this unlucky is sort of rare and i never read anyone get cucked so hard. to pass customs, which is sorta scary, just to get fucked some other way..>do you have a source of needles too?yep. 100 pieces are 20 euro. these are rlly tiny insulin ones that, unlike most other ones, actually don't hurt one bit. already took a shot with them before i noticed the issue with the second vial.. well, i hope the dust becomes great friends with the lead that is already in me ^^>also how the heck are u supposed to dispose of sharps like that?usually u put them in a sharps container or some similar container and then throw that away once its full but i just put the cap back over the needle and chuck it as is. can't rlly hide a sharps container in my living situation.>ok sorry yes.don't be i get it. my brain also need regulated substances to work properly but those kill me so i'm not prescribed them anymore.. but i still get it, ur good!!>or... outsourced customs to... a... place in poland, i guess???not that unlikely actually. i think most of the times they just check if the paperwork looks fine and then let ur stuff through without properly inspecting it, which customs either does remotely or the shipping company does it in-house. but either way it could just be remote work from poland if the german workers are overworked. i think >not clicker trained!..not yet >:)charging my camera's batteries and then im off cycling but fr this time
>>24446105>remote work from polandbut still funny how they name the polish city/facility and then clarify it with "germany". uhm sorry but Poznań is Polish territory again xD
>>24445799This is awesome
>>24445707Sad>>24445709I love you
>>24446143
>>24446105>he's a professionalwell yes but also looking at it again it's just one guy and maybe anzumark, assuming basedmark is still here. stalin bless that man...>a lot can go wrongit's unfortunate that this is the route you've gotta take but also it's good that it's an option. as unreliable as it can be, at least it's there.>two monthsso were you on it for a while before then or is this your first rodeo, so to speak? because if this is your first time, then oh lord that's almost comically unlucky.>insulin shotsoh, that's goo->i hope the dust becomes great friends with the lead that is already in meh-huh..? do i even want to ask? will u be okay?>customsoh, interesting! i only really knew about companies having in-house customs, i didnt know that you could get some things outsourced like that. that's honestly pretty cool since it let ur stuff slip by >:3>not yet...wh-what do you mean?>>24446143>Sadwhy's that? what's got you down?
https://bdsmtest.org/
every day is exactly the same
>>24446386fine, jewels... here.i skipped all the questions aimed at dominants because i'm not one & i've never scored higher than like 15% on any of those categories>>24446391there's definitely some comfort to be had in a stable routine, but when things get too samey and repetitive then it can feel like torture. what's got you thinking about that, if i may ask?
>>24446319>well yes but-He's a professional :DHe knows what he is doing if you understand what i mean. He's funny like that>as unreliable as it can be, at least it's there.it used to be a lot better and quite reliable a year back. esp here in germany we had one of the, if not THE, best home brewers around. But they quit earlier this year and roughly a month ago another bigshot on the same level shut down. Then the only brewer in the EU got a bit overwhelmed and the french mail was fucked for a couple of months which rendered them even more inoperable as they are french, and there might be sum glowie breach at their place but i haven't looked into it much. You used to be able to order one day and get your stuff two weeks later at most within most of the EU.Its slowly getting better with international brewers getting better at smuggling stuff and we have two new EU brewers popping up already. One of them is german again, and the more promising of the two :3>is this your first rodeo, so to speak?yep :Dordered while i was back in the pych ward (lol) and i still dun have nuthin really usable>will u be okay?probably~its just one shot, and its in fat, and its just dust and not micro plastics which are already literately everywhere in your body. Can't do much about the lead i ate as kid though.... Oh, and that shot gave me a bunch of hope-fuel too. My chest is STILL somehow changing and i have full on buds now. what comes now is actual fat under there and then it'll grow hehehehebut by then i will need more E and i rlly need to take it weekly and not like this to suppress stuff, and stuff.i rlly hope that its three vials and not one but you know how it went until now so lol.>customsthat's just a guess though. don't think that doing stuff like that would be an issue for them but idk for sure. the first time it was proper german customs that let it through>...wh-what do you mean?oh you know.. what follows now is only natural
also no bike. its raining all week :<
>>24446446>what's got you thinking about thattrent reznor
>>24446193Do you love me?
https://youtu.be/p0PFiDBxoy0
>>24446446Seems accurate(?) Meanwhile, I think I lost some degeneracy points over the years.
>>24446449>He's a professionalWell, yeah, but like y'know I can't help but worry that he might not be letting the true experts handle it.>used to be reliableOhh, yeahhh. Ok it's not entirely related but a similar thing happened with LSD here in the midwest. There was like 1 guy making all of it and he'd been doing it for decades, but the DEA busted him a decade or two ago and seized a whole water tower's worth of LSD.I know this has little to no relation to E but the consequences for druggies was similar.>two new brewersOh good! I hope they're able to figure their stuff out soon so you don't have to go through this awfulness again.>yepO fug :DAt least you weren't mid transition though so the physical and mental effects aren't as bad as they'd otherwise be. Still, what an introduction.>you'll probably be okayI'm gonna do the joke aga->lead i ate as a kidits ok i ate mercury from a broken thermometer on accident. how much lead did u eat? were you okay? ARE you okay? dunt go mad hatter on me pl0x>>24446453>no bikeNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!>>24446492Oh the song! Fuck, I really gotta listen to NIN again. What's ur favorite thing about them (im being vague on purpose)>>24446525yeah it's accurate lole.
>>24446525oops i forgot to finish my post i got too caught up in selecting the image and writing the name fieldto finish my thought...yes it is accurate, and i've noticed similar things happen to me after getting a bf. i used to be much worse, but then i quickly figured out what i did n didn't like after actually experiencing it. plus like ur mind just gradually shifts to liking softer things like a nice hug or a warm body to share ur bed with, and there's less desire for kink.
>>24446525ALSO YOU'RE A BRAT?! I can totally see it oh my god. I used to be one too.Emphasis on "used to be."
>>24446386now i know where you got the phrase rope bunny fromidk if i agree with this but w/e not switch as in vers, but switch beteen dom/sub is fun depending on the moodwould have thought brat would be higher tooi suck at taking tests
>>24446501that's a question...>>24446747>I can't help but worry that he might not be letting the true experts handle it.oh come on. he only forgets to switch to his VPN *sometimes*.. he's basically as good as it gets already :)>Ok it's not entirely related but a similarits quite similar actaully. you'd think that there would be more people making this stuff in a more decentralized manner. i mean both E and drugs.>I hope they're able to figure their stuff out soon so you don't have to go through this awfulness again.the german ones have been on the offline game for a bit and already sold a small batch, seems to be fine. they are sending a larger one in for testing and then they'll sell that. they are also upgrading stuff for larger scale production already. if the vials on Friday are no good then i'll just wait for them to sell stuff again i think>Still, what an introduction.was still pretty fucked. i think all the high's and low's are what made the doctors give me a high score in being bpd in some assessment lol. if only they knew why that was.>its ok i ate mercury from a broken thermometer on accident.adding heavy metal poisoning to the list of similarities.. >how much lead did u eat?dunno remember what the ratio of swallowing to chewing was but uhhh i went through several packages of airgun pellets. we didn't even own one..>were you okay? ARE you okay? dunt go mad hatter on me pl0xi dunno actually. there is a chance that my ADHD is just that.. and it would explain the random flashes and dots i still sometimes see. plus my memory and near total inability to remember names and numbers and stuff. i dunno to be honest :<>NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!ACTUALLY A NEW STUDY PROVED THAT WEATHER IS FAKE AND GAY AND THAT TODAY MIGHT STILL BE FINE FOR A BIT BRBalso i was hesitant about posting picrel but a friend texted me >will boast bussy>will not post surveyso here we go >.
I love planting brain seeds.>>24446747>>24446760I wish I knew what that namefield is supposed to mean.Regardless of having a partner present or not, I feel like it's just as simple as getting to know yourself better over time.>>24446763I have no idea what you're talking about :^)>>24446790>rope bunnyIt's pretty self-explanatory without putting too much thought into it.Better luck next time(?)>>24446808Now that chart is pretty close to what I'd score half a decade ago.
>>24446747but waitare YOU going to be ok with the mercury?? ;~;
>>24446747do not reply to me or interact with me in any way
>>24446790>i suck at taking teststhe BDSM test in particular requires a whole lotta guesswork over things that can shift and change from day to day... plus as you get a better understanding of what questions relate to which kink it gets easier to answer>>24446808>only forgets to switch his VPN *sometimes*hey even if he forgets to switch his VPN he's still incredibly red(commie)pilled. i honestly kinda like picking his brains since my bf is a huge commie too so i already know a bit of what he talks about>you'd think that there would be more peopleI suppose you do need a good understanding of not just the recipe, but the creation process, the equipment, the chemistry, the logistics... there's a lot.>just wait for themsmart! "fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame in me, fool me thrice... and i need a new friend" or whatever it is they say.>if only they knewoh good lord yeah, i'm so glad i got an assessment AFTER i'd been on E for a few years because then it became a factor to consider and be cautious with when diagnosing.>adding heavy metal poisoning to our list of similaritiesoh dear god i almost forgot about me being a clone... NOT. Not a clone, just close to it!>lead stufffug xd that's rough... i don't really have anything like that besides the ADHD and memory issues. i guess all u can really do is cope with it huh?>survey results...oh my. that's both cute and a bit terrifying (in a good way)>>24446826>namefieldI'm literally just writing House of Leaves sentences in it lole. Actually the page these sentences are on got the book taken away from me when I was at inpatient and then they procured some broken part of a couch bent like a noose and asked me if I was planning something again.Wild times.>it's just as simple asOh yeah. I... I forgot that's a thing that happens to people. Whoops. Tired Nuker brain is... not ideal.>I have no ideaLook at that smug ass pic you just posted and tell me that isn't the brattiest thing ever
>>24446833ummm yeah i've been fine for like 20 years now i think>>24446891wh-what did i do? i know im an obnoxious tripfag but surely that can't be all.
>>24446929>I'm literally just writing House of Leaves sentences in it lole. Actually the page these sentences are on got the book taken away from me when I was at inpatient and then they procured some broken part of a couch bent like a noose and asked me if I was planning something again. Wild times.Now you tell me how I am supposed to process all that.>I forgot that's a thing that happens to peopleI smell sarcasm and fairly so. Maybe...>tell me that isn't the brattiest thing everIt's not, could be worse.
>>24446997>process all thatYou're supposed to blink and go "uhhh right" before moving on. Exactly like we are now!My apologies for oversharing again. Still working on that. Definitely have gotten better, but not all the way there.>I smell sarcasmNo I'm being serious. I... actually forgot that self-discovery extends to sexual taste. It's weird because I think about that kind of thing often, but I guess the dots never connected.>could be worseIt could be a lot worse yeah, it's just a little bit bratty tbdesu.
>>24447011No worries, just sounds like an intriguing but highly disturbing story lmao>I think about that kind of thing oftenSelf-discovery or sexual tastes? Heck.>just a littleYes.
It's raining I am 8 km away from home and it's dark as fuck, fuck why am I so retarded
>>24447111The whole story isn't interesting at all. My psychiatrist there had put me on a mood stabilizer and I reacted pretty poorly to it. I did some silly things to myself that resulted in me needing pretty much every extra precaution in the book, so just to be safe they double checked to make sure I wasn't the one who'd stashed that thing again. Picture a rigid but bendy strip of plastic about as thin as a belt, and that'll hopefully explain it fully.Eventually tho we figured out a good cocktail of meds and I've been fine ever since. My reeducation was a success!!!!>Self discovery or sexual tastes?Honestly both. I find myself reflecting on a lot, including ah... more deviant things. How such stuff forms in our minds kinda fascinates me.>>24447327I had a feeling that was gonna happen, but forgot to say something. Um, good luck getting home friend!
>>24447336>stashed that thing againstashed that thing away*i didn't even know where it was.
>>24446808:(
https://youtu.be/uv8QObpL2EY>>24447336I expected worse for some reason, still unusual but not too much. So it was another patient I have to guess, rip.Good to know it worked out in the end. I have poor experiences with psychotropic meds.>How such stuff forms in our minds kinda fascinates meNow that's a thinker for yee.I think something like that would have to include way too many factors though kek
>>24447363>pat patIt'll be okay Brazil...>>24447389>musicYou have no idea how fitting this track is as background music for cleaning spout covers & bottles.>expected worseI didn't exactly make it sound good to be fair... that's entirely on me.>another patientEh it might not've been. Could just be it broke off and someone had no idea what to do with it.>that's a thinkerA THINKER YOU SAY?!https://youtu.be/wBi6u1dmSm8I was torn between this or Sam O'Nella.>way too many factorsThat's what makes it fascinating though! No matter what you come up with there's always a possible answer.
>>24447435VGM in general is great for housechores.https://youtu.be/emUJ7c8-5ZE>that's entirely on meFunny story still.It would be the latter, based(?)>No matter what you come up with there's always a possible answerSometimes I question how "sex" became so complicated twisted over time.
>>24446929>because then it became a factor to consider and be cautious with when diagnosing.that could be mega retarded sometimes by causing a loop you kno. ur crazy cuz ur a dysphoric tranny that can't get treatment for dysphoria cuz ur crazy and then you're just fucked.DIY or DIE reeeeeeeeeeeeeeee>i guess all u can really do is cope with it huh?i could also just rope desubut actually now that i think of it its not that bad actually and could also be stress. yah the symptomes are 1:1 that of lead poising but in the ward where i was sorta relaxed i didn't notice them. and even when i came back "home" where it was/is rlly stressful sometimes, its only the dots sometimes. the flashing is gone. idk maybe it just lowered my stress tolerante for now or whatever.just another reason to apply for gibs and not work yeah>>24447336it wasn't that bad actually. after i complained the rain fucked off and from then on it was only light pussy rain and then it properly rained 3-5 minutes towards the end. the migrants were more of a threat/inconvenience fr>>24447363but what was i supposed to say you kno ;~;goode night im raped for today
>>24446934also that's rlly rlly nice to hear. heavy metals are scary..too raped to read the read sotrty GN!!!!!!!!!!!!
>>24447732sweet dreams
>>24447486>how "sex" became so complicatedWell there's definitely a history to it, that's for sure. Since we could write we were doing fetish things, though it wouldn't be until the Enlightenment that Europe at least started exploring different kinds of sadomasochism, bondage, power play, etc. Even licking boots & bootblacking really starts to become a thing in Victorian England. As Europe industrialized and people began doing more than just farming, so too did we have the knowledge and energy to explore sexuality. Fascinating really.>>24447732>i could also just ropeif you do that im hacking the rope and making it fail.>could also be stressIt could be exacerbated by stress too! Probably best not to think about it too hard :P>goode nightgoodnight dont let the rapists bite!>>24448160henlo brocke
>>24445691Why are you doing daily threads?
>>24449758because i'm an uncreative clown with nothing else to do! :D
