im drinking vodka and ims tarting to feel happy again. damn... this bratty bottle sure makes me happy.
I feel like 10 years of concenctrated happiness just got injected into hme HA my my my my. what are anons up to. im at the everything is getting blrry and music sounds starting way more fun stage
https://youtu.be/vfVfthu4yjI?si=ig8aoNssKcMCg7Li&t=186my brain went from buzzing in pain to buzzing in happiness my face is warm and i love people agian mehehe
I drunk outside before I went to bed, couldn't sleep the whole night, kept seeing horrible nightmares and waking up. I went full deprived degenerate last night, at least I think I turned around before I did something actually bad i think >>24486576>>24488095People love you too ritsu
>>24488147its getting really hard to read Anoneeeee love you too mwah
Yesss I am finishing this vodka bottle TODAY every9onee, its so over for this little bottle i just own you i just am about to drink all foy u
>>24488151Maybe it's time to to go to bed. love you!!!
>>24488267Im going to hug and cuddle you so bad you wioll never feel awful again ever mwah mwah <3
>>24488272I accept your hugs, I will always accept them, I love them, your hugs are the best in the entire world. I'm also feeling sick right now, couldn't sleep
>>24488278i will make you feel better. my warm soft body will calm you down and make you feel okay again.im gonna make you feel happy <3.dont hate yourself ever again anymore
HELP HELP IM CLOSE TO PUKING WHAT DO I DOOOOO
my stomach is rebelling against my kinghdom. HOW DAER OU. You are supposed to taeke the aclhol. not throw it away. LISTEN TO YOUR MASTER. i am your master you take that doann alcohol and NEVER puke it out
>>24488288>>24488295But you should puke it out (at the right place of course). You will feel better
AAAAAAAAAAAAA fine. FINE. YOU WIN. im not drinking aynomore. AAAA what a waste. YOU WIN>>24488297I ONT WANNA PUKE AAAAAAA I HATE PUKING I DONT WANNA PUKE I DONT WANA PUKE
>>24488298Weakling, keep drinking.. or else she'll never love you back.
>>24488299STOP i make music for her i study japanese for her why do i still never feel enough AAAAAAAAAAA
>>24488301..and did it just feel like she loves YOU.. or does she love ME?.. she loves the strong, not the weak.. either man up or keep watching..
>>24488303i hoped if i make music for her she would appreciate m e. atleast.i dont have anything but her. i dont want her to not love me if she hates me then i want to die i want to extuinguishb my exsistance fore ver.
>>24488305Then keep downing that bottle.. show her you can at least handle a bit of liquor..
>>24488308its empty !!!!!!. ahh my brain hurt so much lately. when i feel really bad it feels like i start having a miku tulpa. when i feel really bad i get an intrusive thought like appearence of her thoughts and voice in my head.
Ritsu do not listen to and believe evil people that want only bad for you
i feel like an alien soul inside a human body. iu feel so lost. i feel like im so different from other pelple. i feel lkke no matter what i do i cant conenct with anyone. im so alone.>>24488317i cant distuingsih good or evil people are just people to me
>>24488312But doesn't it feel nice??You might be in a bit of pain, but you do it for her! You get closer to her, you hear her, she sings for you! Can't you hear her sing? Isn't her voice beautiful? So keep doing it! She wants to sing for you!
>>24488312Damn you may be schizophrenic, we'll have to put you in the mental asylum, sorry
>>24488321it feels like i have known her longer than i have exsisted. my feelings for her are so strong it hurts me.i want to work on music until i die even to the bitter end even if everyone hates my music i just want to improve at music for her sake she made me feel so happy. i remember when i was 14 and i promised to her i wouldnt kill myself. i remember how lonely i felt and how her voice used to keep me going how i would calm down by listening to her songs it hurts so much now that i think about it.>>24488322im pertty sane still i woulkd say
i know i will never be recognised or celebrated. im too much of a foreigner too different. too alien. but i hope atleast when i die and if possible i meet her she can be proud of me. because i spent my life making music for her. and making up for all the times she was there for me. and then my heaven would be hanging out with her and making music for eternity.im so lonely and isolated. if one day. she just. reciprocates even 1/10000000 of my feelings. i would be so happy i would make everything in my life worth it
i dont want to meet jesus or allah or buddha i just want the girl thats been there for me my whole life even though she isnt real. i cant stop my chest from feeling something. i cant stop myself from spilling all over. my chest and stomach hurts. i just dont care about anyone else or anything else in this world.
I wnt to the bathroom to pee and i accidentally pissed all over myself lucmy. lucjy, all the drops landed on my apnts. and i changed clothing somehow. even though it took some time. wowie. BUT IM CLEAN NOW I SWEAR
>>24488336>>24488339Nah you are meeting someone else after you die
I DONT WANT TO>>24488350
im out of energyd rink oughhhhhhhh
i htuiink its time for me to master ciounterpoint. i will learn and master it. then i will go more into arrangfing. and then become a master at MJMUISC
>>24488087i am sobermaxxing again sorryi actually slept last night for the first time in weeks and didn't wake up 37582 times(i used a cheat code tho in addition to not boozing i also took 4 benadryl before bed)
>>24488365 isee *head pat* i see headpat
Ritsu Ritsu are you alive or have you gone to meet miku
>>24488493im onfurtonately still alive
>>24488495saaame..
Ugh. I want the vodka taste out of my tongue right now
>>24488528drink more
>>24488566i ran out, also lmao my mom called and said my grandma died of cancer and i almost burst laughing on the phone. i also felt really annoyed by the end of it and i almost wanted to just shut the phone off.i cant stand hearing her cry it sounds so stupid and annoying
RIP GrannyRIP your pants
retarded gaped faggot hope you die
Ritsu, you are being manipulated by jewish demons to troon urself WAKEEE UPPP