i asked a girl out successfully but i couldn't manage to get her to agree on a time and date for it in our textsi hate getting my hopes up
is this an emotional ambush
>>24749892what other way could i put it, i could just complain about women or try to make a point about how lonely society is but that doesnt really improve anything, theres no spite i have toward that girl. i just want to love, to really care about somebody and be cared for, i've experienced little bits of it here and there and it just makes me more frustrated, for how much i've thought and cared about other people they've never put in the same, and i cant find it in me to love myself
>>24749949evola talked about participating in the world but not being inwardly touched by it, which i guess means stoicism and amor fati.putting that into practice is something else entirely, i have failed to not let certain things touch me deeply and what is more i don't want to 'get over it' but i know full well there's nothing i can do to change the situation.this don't mean a fuck me telling you this but it is the truth as i know it. be careful what you let in, i guess. idk.
try 'the metaphysics of sex' by evola, maybe you will get more out of it than i did. probably because i should have read that book earlier in my life than i did, it maybe would have helped me respect my body more and maybe i wouldn't think so little of my self now.i don't know anything about you beyond this current situation and thinking on how i handled similar ones when i used to interact with people beyond 4chan or at the checkout register.read about solitary confinement too, there are ways to deal with that without loosing your mind if that's something you're having to deal with. it can really fuck up your head.
