injecting estrogen is so oddly comfy. everybody is scared of syringes at first but after a while everything from drawing air into the syringe to pulling it out after you just did your weekly dose is so calming and you start looking forwards to the formerly scary syringe. you feel mellow during it and even mellower afterwards. then there are the long-term effects afterwards that everybody looks forward to but nobody talks about how nice this weekly ritual feels.im so happy to be finally able to do this.ah almost forgot what i was doing earlier. back to looking for affordable lab suppliers. can't cook up diy paper developers without getting ingredients first
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>>24870326injecting heroin is so oddly comfy. everybody is scared of syringes at first but after a while everything from cooking up a shot and drawing it up into the syringe to pulling it back and seeing the flash of red before you slam your first hit of the day is so calming and you start looking forwards to the formerly scary syringe. you feel mellow during it and even mellower afterwards. then there are the long-term effects afterwards that nobody looks forward to but everybody talks about how nice this multiple times per day ritual feels.im so happy to be finally able to do this.
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>>24870466lol.unfortunately it is a path a LOT of trannies end up going down.I know I may not seem like the most supportive person due to my stance on hrt but if u ever feel urself tempted to do any retarded self destructive shit please know ill do whatever I can to help you not go down that path and u can talk to me about it without judgement.
>>24870480>do any retarded self destructive shiti think it isa little late for that
>>24870480i know that you always mean stuff nicely but pls dont worry so much sometimes its fine. the clinic i am going to is like 50% dedicated to help people manage their drug use so if i ever do something dump they'll notice that fast. thanks but you know that i know that you know etc.>>24870511whatever could you mean ;)but on a more serious note i stopped with the binge drinking completely and the meds they give me finally seem to help, albeit with some side-effects..
>>24870530I just mean that he'll have a hard time getting you to listen but maybe I'm wrong>i stopped with the binge drinking completelythat's some good news, I don't think there's a single benefit from drinking like that, it doesn't even feel good past a point.
>>24870511meh. he's not actively TRYING to do himself harm he's just been lied to and thinks its fine.there's not a damned thing me or anyone else can do to dissuade him at this point so best to just try help him not end up doing shit that's even worse.[hey germanon sorry for talking about u in the 3rd person in ur own thread it feels rude]
>>24870530I wasn't aware there was any official medical supervision going on, that's reassuring.if u find it easier to talk to someone at a clinic then that's probably for the best but I'm around if u need me :)are u on new meds now or were the old ones not working because u kept drinking?
>>24870555i listen to everyone and stuff and dont dismiss it immediately. just that i think what i am doing is fine so whatever. >>24870582there has been medical stuff going since forever. not with E specifically but there are regular blood tests and stuff. they dont know i am doing this though. not like its all thaaaat relevant anyways.>are u on new meds now or were the old ones not working because u kept drinking?im switching because the ones i used to take work a bit too well. one of the two is already gone and we'll taper the other soon enough. doesnt have anything to do with the alcohol. also have a new one now that is just there to help with sleep and for depression or whatever.thanks for like caring and stuff but its fine really..
>>24871210>not like its all thaaaat relevant anyways.bro its extremely fucking relevant ur deluding yourself.also if they dont know ur taking HRT how the fuck are they supposed to do the relevant blood tests???? lol.i thought u said u had it under control, you said you were getting blood testsbut rlly ur just going to ur normal mental health appointments and hoping if something is seriously wrong that itll show up on the panels they are doing for completely unrelated stuff??thats not how this shit fucking works dude they only check specific things they arent doing a full panel every time. if im understanding correctly this is highly highly concering.you need to tell the fucking clinic or another doctor what ur doing, they cant do anything to stop u so they will at least make sure ur not fucking yourself up too much.did u not tell them because you were worried theyd section you again? because thats not what would happenc they dont even section ppl for using hard drugs.>doesnt have anything to do with the alcoholeven psych meds ur told u can drink on generally dont work as well if you drink.also bupropin and booze really dont mix well it almost certainly was causing problems.
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>>24872076>how the fuck are they supposed to do the relevant blood tests????i dont expect to do that and i knew it from the get go. that's stuff i would have to pay for on my own and arrange too i know. a little bit before i would need one in that direction anyways. still if something were majorly wrong like if my live shuts down or something you'd see that. what i more mean is just that my head wont derail during this stuff which i am more worried about than any side-effects desu.dunno what the big deal is. many people dont do any tests at all n i still plan on doing those. they are not just for safety but to check if stuff is working out. ik that it would be stupid not to.sorry for skipping some stuff but its late right now and im doing some other stuff. probably worth mentioning that if i really cared about anything at all i wouldnt blindly use questionably sourced vials full of funny chinese juice in the first place
>>24872210>i dont expect to do ththem i mean. its like obvious that they wouldnt sceen for stuff they dont know know about.. everybody pays for those on their ownanyways good night and nice dreams or something and stuff
>>24872219Good night
>>24872210ok well u assured me it was all taken care of and it clearly isn't so I'm kinda disheartened but I had ready accepted theres fuck all I can do to stop u causing yourself at least some degree of harm.>dunno what the big deal isthe big deal is not wanting to see any harm come to you.you seem to severely undervalue ur own life and underestimate the impact you make on others.
