ITT: Uninteresting and usual stuff that's happening on the boards you visit (occasionally AKA as the blog thread)Real happenings go on>>>/bant/happeningsPrevious thread: >>24975481https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/24975481/#24975481
total espeon death
hello would you like to purchase my wares or sell me your used items
>>25085910>>25085919Pawn ID
ID check
>>25085919hehe
>>25085910youβre my pawn, little boy. the id was prophetic
>>25085910Impressive. Very nice. Not let's see Prawn ID.
people imc have been making extremely low quality posts lately
>>25087055you've got to be talking about another board
good morning/nah/
taking subissions for spaghetti tuesday op pic.ill make the thread in about an hour
>25089780>/>25089966no
>>25090002why do this thing to avoid notifying mybthread watcher but still replying to posts?seems cowardly
>>25090268
>/>25090258You deserve a broken reply, made man.
>>25090258 (You)
I wanted to draw a glaceon eating sketty
>>25090308cute!
no happenings thread?
>>25091502You're the happenings man now dogehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1o3RP0ez7tc
>>25091517true for about five minutes>>25091552
>>>/r9k/85670144
good night
>>25093753sweet dreams
wakey wakey
no lemme sleep
Well, I pulled the trigger. I have the body and I have the spirit. I just need to practise make-up. All for Halloween btw. The dress isnt all that great; however, it is only a trial before I go full-send. I wore a mask and I looked so good. I dont know. I really have the lips and eyes. I just do not know if I am passable....I need to work on it more. I have so much to say. That is prolly why people tend to have an orbit towards. I always have something to say and share. I love listening to people more than I do talking. I just wish I could escape that reclusive attitude of mine. I just dont know why I isolate and detach myself from people. So paranoid that I will be caught....my Mother will never approve and it will really cause a scandal on my Fathers end. I mean, I think and really hope they are accepting of my sexuality. I have always been the rebellious and non-conformist type. I go my own way to No Mans Land whether people approve of my enterprises. If you live in fear, are you really alive?
GAAAAAAAAY
I will accept what comes my way. Bad Luck means interesting day. You never know...I just might die. But the Jews hate me and do not want to be happy. >>>/s4s/13210965
>>25097402Extremely important detail I missed. I like small, modest and fair breast. I got B34 cup, but I find it too big. Lucking, it doesnt look all that bad not using padding. Maybe I can just stuff a little bit for definition. The main goal is to have structure. I am very deliberate and fastidious with all the items I procured. >>25097411Lately, I want to explore men more than girls. I lied when I say I have never had a relationship. I had one with a girl and I memory holed it as much as possible. God, it was the worst time of my life.
shut up
>>25097431>>>/s4s/13210665
I just noticed the noose. Somethin' you wanna talk about Matteo? Not very cash monies and festive. At like, draw little spiders on the noose. Hey , that sounds like an intersting idea. Cobs webs everywhere and the rope is made of silk. Idk. Hmmm.....I guess it is faily insolent and impertinent to ask but....it would be nice if you drew my husbando >>25097402 in Halloween get up. I would love you 3000 forever.
Something like Lambda, but a little more gothic.
Pumpkin, inverted crosses, brooding, haughty glare. All that is edge.
Dont know how good you are at background design. A lot of your drawing feel pretty empty. Like, all your characters reside in a white, blank slate void that is your mind. Little creations that manifest from nothing.Ask and you shall receive and alldat.
even = warriorodd = mage
The ghost lady is back for spooky season
>>25097402post le masque
Happy Birthday!
>>25100254you too dude
>>25096944you miss the pointbetween suggestionsand things i make real
Good night. Don't.
I love Halloween. I want this one to finally be the one to set me free from the curse. I want everyone to be themselves during the night. It shouldnt be one night. It should be all. I want to be the House Mother of an Orphanage of Children. I want to be the source of the Haunt. All the children are to be under my protection. They can do as they please as long as the children are not hurt. I care only for my children. I could careless about the outsiders. My own are all that matters. I want them to be loved and accepted. I want to be a Mother.
BRAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPP
Omg.....I think I was hit by a truck last night....i sure feels like it!!! cant believe i feel off the bed last night. like, idk, i was just feeling so nice and then......THE DROP!!! I havent fallen off the bed in so long like....when i was younger it would happen so much. Ugh..... >>25100769 I dont remember writing this. wtf. who wrote this malarchy? ugh.....oh, right, the hat thing. dunno if i should care. i mean, i can just edit that shit at any time. whatevs.
Why am I even back here? I hate each and one of you except for Matteo and his soft anorexic suicidal tummy. Speaking of witch...*heh*C'mere Matte, I'm feeling kinna angry. But I wont be able to punch you as hard cuz i punched a brick wall yesterday and im feeling it now....
you hate Matt too, be quiet
>>25100769This is giving off Michael Jackson in Neverland Ranch vibes. You /nah/cord people are some weird motherfuckers.
>>25100769Are you a good Mother?>>25102001>i punched a brick wall yesterdayStop hurting yourself.
I'm deeply disappointed and frustrated by the lack of a response. I've decided to delete /qa/doge's account.
>>25102810i know it's a foundational site to the internetbut how is newgrounds still a thing after the death of flash?
>>25102810https://youtu.be/MJ_aPtt4U8M?si=GW9xh5rdEMxHmYAv
Right now, on the other end of my locked door, there stands my Father and Siblings while I am fully dressed as a female with make-up. From Panties to Eyelashes. Think I am getting the hang of this make-up stuff but I see why a sponge is needed. Fingers smear too much and dont evenly distribute the stuff. I really need to work on it, rn, it looks as if i had been in mourning. To be honest, I am questioning a lot....i dont think i will ever go out like this. >stop hurting yourself>are you a good mother?i am not even a good person to myself.
They are calling for me.
>>25103905what is this gay image?i learned how to human beating 2 rocks together behind my house in an open rock quarry and me+friends beating each other with sticks pretending to be knights.
>>25103928are you a neanderthal
>>25103905How fancy is your dress?
>>25103940yesthe information age was a mistake access to the internet in everyone's pockets was a mistakethings were better when i brought 2 fistfuls of asparagus back to mom and she called me a good boy.
>>25104060we used to grow asparagus, and raise chickens
Need a dress like this. I have fairly broad shoulders, but nothing to off putting. I am already enough of an insufferable faggot so I wont gush too much about the male figure. I like masculine more than those fucking vile """femboys""" abusing hormones. Makes me sick. What is wrong with looking a little masculine? Of course, nothing too ummm...what is the word? Nothing too burly, I guess? Soft, toned figures that lend itself well in looking pretty. Although I do like the more rugged type. I have just as much to say about women as I do with men. Honestly, I just like who I like. I follow my heart, stomach, and mind. All that comprises instinct. But, will anyone ever like me? And for who I am? Sometimes, I really do think I will die alone.
Oh, this is a guy btw. Doesnt seem like he defiles his body and biology. He is just so good at make-up and contouring. But it looks pretty disturbing at times, like, he looks so damn out of place as if he came straight out of a cellshaded game or something. ε ηγγγεγ«ζγγ¦γγ γγγγγ
>>25105387I like you for who you are: a mysterious lady.
>>25105387>But, will anyone ever like me?this guy >>25105535 has been sending you signals for like three threads. he wants you like hunter biden wants his next crack hit. give him a chance.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IyO-vdsgq1s
Good night.>>25105657!!!
>>25105657foul
>>25104063good stuff
Fair is foul, and foul is fair.Hover through the fog and filthy air.Double, double toil and trouble.Fire burn and cauldron bubble.Man, I should seriously reread Macbeth. There is this Silent Hill 3 puzzle, but, it kinna sucks cuz it isnt really much of a puzzle. Too ez. Oh, yeah. Time for that Coin Toss 'n Flip. Part of a programme and I need to clock in set hours. I dont have much this week, just like....30 minutes? Because I passed out in the facilites. The best thing about having no friends or anyone that cares about you is that you get to disappear from the face of this Earth for a bit and return with no questions or concerned looks. Just bringing this up cuz last semester I was doing that and for weeks I wasnt putting in the hours. I mean, guess they let it slip because I have a really commendable record. Whatevs. Odd: GoEven: Detachment
Grrrrr....stupid ass Zero. I should add it as a third option. Can you imagine the coin landing on its rim? I want this to be known. I was shaving my body hair and I made a few gnarly nicks. Enough to leave the most marvelous languid rivulets of crimson joy. Idk...I just couldnt stop marveling at it. I let it sit and descent until it dried enough. I didnt wash it off or wipe. I let it hardened for an extra layer of personality. Well, if I do go out, I will walk around with blood coated on my legs. Who is gonna know? [Ow the edge.]
I am gnarly
>>2510818125108150 is an even number. Zero is an even number.Don't forget to taste your blood, edgy.
If you want to make your coin tosses more interesting, make repeating digits the third option.
>>>/mlp/43556927>>>/mlp/43556936
......RRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADONT YOU FUCKING START!!!!!!!! I WILL FUCKING IMPLOAD!!!!!.....fuck....*inhale, exhale**box breathing**walking around then spin it around*Alright, whatevs. Categorically it is but....ITS MY COIN TOSS AND I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT!!!!During the Crusades, the Church resisted the adoption of the number β0,β largely because it had no place in the traditional Roman numeral system. Of course, how was the average person to know that zero originated in Hindu mathematics rather than being an βArabicβ invention (except for the scholars who gathered and disseminated the knowledge)? Reasonably, Zero was viewed with skepticism and treated cautiously as an unfamiliar mathematical concept created by the enemy. Therefore, it was a work of the Devil. What I am trying to say is....ALΓJATE, ABERRACIΓN DE SATANΓS!!!!!!! TE RECHAZO EN EL NOMBRE DE CRISTO!!!!!! GET AWAY FROM ME YOU SPAWN OF SATAN!!!>>25108362I've jerked off to the Equestrian Pony Human girls. I just cannot clop the honse, bro.
I will clop the spic
>>25108448>I've jerked off to the Equestrian Pony Human girls. I just cannot clop the honse, bro.degenerate
I will clop the beaner in the espeon costume with a noose around his neck
Bite the stick Matty ICE
extreme beaner cloppage
>pony expert is here/nah/ is being influenced.>>25108448What coin do you have where you get a third option? No, the edge doesn't count as the third side of the coin.>An even number is an integer that can be divided by two and remain an integer or has no not real remainder>0 Γ· 2 = 0>no remainderzero is even
The Demons (Jews) want me to go postal. But I WILL RESIST! How dare you have the gall to question my words and deconstruct established order by implanting the seeds to disorder and fertilising with Demonic, impertinent thoughts in the House. Keep your peace. Or else live the rest of your life mortified by excommunication from /nah/.
>>25108635ZERO IS EVENYOU ARE ODDCOME AT ME, GHOST
bumped
https://youtu.be/xwwvFOandeE
>>25111954I thought this was a naked moot cat.
I dont even know what he wants from me anymore. Why am I so forgiving and willing to hear people out? It just drags me into trouble every time. I dont think I have the weird "Mother Teresa" complex do I? I do not know how to identify this behaviour. I guess...I just treat and interact with people how I desperately wish someone would care for me. What is this even called? Clearly, I do not let myself get pushed over anyways; I'll bite a off a chunk of their neck if I could. But why am I so willing to just talk and "emotionally negotiate?" I'll watch from the distance. See how it responds to silence (again). No, last time it did not go so well. And I did that whole "emotional negotiation" that I had hoped would have quashed this weird dynamic. I should pull the trigger. Aim for the head this time. One more chance. Half-measures. I hate every single breathing human being. Sometimes, I don't see them as people. What are they?
>>25112622>I'll bite a off a chunk of their neck if I could.You can't be a vampire and a ghost lady at the same time.>I hate every single breathing human being. Sometimes, I don't see them as people.What do you see yourself as?
>>25112622
I used to go missing a lot. First time, I vanished for a week. Second time, I vanished for a week and a few days. Third time, 2 weeks. Amazing that I even graduated and still kept up with the rest of the class. Maybe I really can be the "Golden Child." I mean, who is even capable of just being so indolent and neglectful for days and just study 2 days before the exam and still get remarkable marks. Akrasia. It feels different this time around. I dont really have motivation or determination anymore. Last semester I would just show up to class then vanish. This semester, I have made myself loud and known as much as reasonably and socially acceptable possible. Heh. Yesterday, I decided to recede into the cold, dimly lit study room instead of being in the main room. It is normally so barren and isolated every single time I visit and study. Yesterday, I sat there like usual, but, I saw people passing by the doorway. It is so obvious they have social anxiety and fear entering alone without friends. So pathetic. Emmm...bit of a rant, I guess. Well, it was funny seeing the usual faces do a lil' cursory scan of the study room. They saw me and entered. One, then two, until there were about 6 people. Dammit, it is always empty. Why that day in particular?
Continued: The irony is that I felt even more isolated and detached. Rather than focus, i just sat there in a vortex of rumination cycles. So, i decided to go out and buy a Poke Bowl. God, fucking dammit. There i see a girl from the Public Speaking class, I think. I just say that because I did not recognise her at all but I felt an odd energy from her. I really felt a potent force of desire. Felt like she really wanted to talk to me. I mean, I sat next to the girls because I love making them shy and nervous. I just look into their eyes and some either look to the side, tilt their head down, and what I love most is start twirling their hair. I know I dont make them uncomfortable. You can see it around the lips and cheeks. Men are forward, but I love the subtle richness of girls. >>25112676You were right. Even in Kindergarden, and middle school, and ....highschool I really did see myself as a ghost. I used to look at the mirror and hope that my reflection would fade away. I once overdosed on an entire bottle of SSRIs. Serotonin Syndrome. I can never forget how I felt and thought.Just to make it brief. I fucking felt like what Diavolo from Part 5 went through. I would get off the couch, walk to the mirror, blackout, and wake up somewhere else. It felt like a new day and new world each time I regained conscious. I felt so accelerated, I felt so anxious and full of dread. I felt like there was someone ready to kill me. It was an endless loop of doing the same and same again each fucking day. Wake up, move there, then sleep. Wake up, move there, then sleep.The strangest thing of all....looking at the mirror. Looking at that dreaded mirror would dispel that hellacious stupor. I dont know. I would just snap back to reality for a brief moment and I felt anchored to the real world for a few seconds before blacking out again. Wake up, move there, look at mirror, then sleep.Wake up, move there, look at mirror, then sleep.
>>25112756Oh, yeah. Forgot the biggest clue that she was from the class. She literally talked about this project we have in the class. Isnt it odd that it happens to be the same topic. Isnt it even odder that she stated how relieved she was to have been given an addition week to prepare. Just like my class.
>>25112687>>25112756>>25112761I expected the lady of the house to haunt a manor, not a study room. So cute.
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>>25112940You should not stay quiet.
it's too quiet in here
IramqiNigga.....I never really got to make an official nickname for you.....I only give nicknames to people I like or catch my attention (disregard that mentally sick subhuman "booferwoofer" that thing only caught my eye cuz of that fucking faggot. y'know, i could never think of a name for him. neither did my mind register him as "sako." hate that fuckng name. i think...i think my mind finally came up with a nickname for him. but it doesnt matter anymore. it doesnt mean anything to me now). Doesnt matter. You hate this place now and I understand. Ugh, we were like the girly queens of that one place.....I visited it like months ago and it is so fucking gross. You will never know this but, I stuck around there just to talk to you. I wish i wasnt such a tsundere twit retard. I dont know why I would do that girly bully thing with you. And I really regret leading you on and ditching you when you sent me your [thing]. I think that was the last time we ever talked. What was wrong with me? Why would I do this to so many people....Whatever. I am a different person now. Things change, mistakes happen. https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/17301394/#17301394>>25111617DAMMIT!!! I thought I had that shrine picture of yours with a dinky photo of you tapped on the wall surrounded by a vigil of candles. Thought I had it saved and I dont know how to find it. Well....it was genuinely sad to see your descent...I hope you dont go finding another granny just like that lady. And I really hope you dont go releasing your grief and pain onto other grannies either. Was it you? Or that Akariman that found this board through Yonkers? Because fuck....I returned to /bant/ cuz of Yonkers too. I was actually around during the early days, but it didnt interest me. Plus....well....at the time there were better places to be....whatever....
Lemme see if I can recall as many consecrated nicknames that come to mind....LightningRodSuicuneEdipoleTankManSourKrautGoulashPole (I never outright called him this but in my mind I would see him as "Ghouly" cuz he liked goulash and yakuza and made blender models)Fuck...I know there is more......I have such a bad memory....FanboyNeedles (Belarus before whatever the fuck this plot devolved into)I mean...YoonkieDoodles.....shut up, i find him cute!Honestly, I always saw him as Zonz, and he wasnt the real one either. There is a reason why he used and stopped using that name. I still cannot help but call him that. UUUUghhhhh I know there is more.....OH!! The Netherlands guy. I call him Captain, CapitΓ‘n. The Captain from TinTin.Korbie. Such a perfect name. Korbs. Korbini. Faggot. Angel Devil. Deep Throater cuz he once send a vocaroo of him throat singing. FUCKNG LAMAOOOOOO!!!!!Uzzie.......................who else.........I guess the last person I came up with a sincere nickname is IdleAnon. Not this year actually, been holding it off since the winter. Hmmm.....Matteo and Matte doesnt really count. Honestly, that name is too perfect for him.....Hmmm..... lol, not much of a nickname but...THE DANE. Who can forget....THE DANE. Love it how people couldnt differentiate between me and him. Except I dont actually have autism and I get too emotional.Hmmmm..........................AHHHHH. Georgie. I talked to him a couple months back. I am really happy he is doing great, I hope....there was a little bit of ambivalence in his final message. I hope the best for him. I dunno, there are so many other personalities here from the past, but I didnt get to know them enough before giving them a nickname. There are a few that I just know absolutely no one remember. Man....why am I like this? Whatever.There is one that comes to mind....but.....that one emmm.....that one is best left private.....
I named him Suicune
>>25113247yeah you did. it was the best name. it was funny..."SWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNN"
Am I crazy? I could have sworn there used to be like a Dead Space Isaac avatarfag in that thread. Think he was trying to be a teacher or something.
Who wants an Espeon Razor Headset for Christmas?Would Matteo like that? >>25113247One for you too.
>>25113296>>16270166
Hey, whatever happened to Tomoki?"Tfw no boyfriend"Think they finally got one? >>25113302>I didnt wanna remember that.....
>>18839718weird
>>25113302OMG!!! GUSIC!!! Gusic Russian hecking nigger depressed heart broken dope. He hated my guts LAMAO
https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/13813197/#13813197
https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/19282963/#19282963Where is he now? I made some shitty silly throwaway thread and he walked up to me saying, "I think I am mentally ill."
https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/18535155/#18535155Grumpy SourKraut
https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/17370234/#17370234I cant find the one where he came all over his face.
Do you think he had a crush on me?https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/16595134/#16595134https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/16560496/#16560496https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/16543571/#16543571https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/16540603/#16540603https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/16436106/#16436106https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/16392255/#16392255This was me btw: https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/16476931/#16476931
To this fucking day, I have no fucking idea of who this "Ade" is.Is he the one that got the "ApePorn" id?
Fuck. I miss Korbo at his peak. https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/19711677/#19711677
speaking of schizophrenic meltdowns, can you guys get your gay furry ERP bot away from me, it keeps calling me "Nat" and insists that I will never be a woman (something I never claimed to be, mind you)
also I pissed on my balls and got shit everywhere... AGAIN!!!help
>>25113395yes
>>25113349pretty sure he became the koishi spammer then mived on to another site after that arcfor the most part
Ade is dead, give it up
>>25113443"if i pretend it will never happen, people will forget."
I swear the fucking god "Ade" was some sort of psyop perpetrated by that discord cabal.
Oh, Futonsharty... Your English and memory are failing...
Still, I dont know how to explain this, but it felt like such an impactful revelation learning that they were always part of a coordinated discord. Man....what did that make me? Some kinna heckin' /bant/ renegade? I think I understand what they meant by, "He just shows up outta nowhere."Glad this board is dead.
Did Ade use his grandmother's death as an excuse to throw out all of his friends? A kind, God-fearing man like him? If so, that's a disgusting shift in behavior. Otherwise, no living man would disappear for so long in this world. I don't believe he's alive, and if he is, he's dead to me.
FutureKike has a discord and seeing those "Exposed" drama threads that would pop up for like many of the personalities here was funny. But FutaDeepThroater was such a fucking treat. OMG was it so fucking funny. I wanna post a collage, but....I dont really care.
>>25113483This is so fucking funny. "Grannies dead. Why is GOd doing this to me? I was a hecking good little sheep!!!! NOOOOO time to hecking isolate and find myself again and cast out every sinner i know like a hecking big chungus full of heart kikestick worshipper! I fear god and these imageboard demons will stray me from the path of the lord" "We are good friends"Sickest shit you can tell anyone. Especially online.
news to mei was an outsider from day 1met a couple people through the normie rings before that explodedpretty sure none of them exist anymore
I forgot to take my meds again. It's true, I miss a dose and I go completely unstable and wacky. Mood stabilisers.......helped with anxiety, but not the depression. The moment I open my eyes, I already want to end my life. Each and every day. Wake up, go there, then go home. Wake up, go there, then go home. Wake up, go there, then go home. Wake up, go there, then go home.
>>25113558self work isn't easy but you need to meditate out that one self doubtif you're gonna make itgrit your teeth, say "living the dream" and push foward one step at a time.
you're talking to someone that hates you with a passion
>>25113629i don't care
if they still can't stop me then it's not my problem and try to help eveyone struggling with problems
help yourself, you seem to love being insulted a little too much
Jimininy Cricket! Cheese and Crackers! Great googly moogly! Heavens to Betsy! Holy moly! Land sakes alive! Holy cannoli! What the flapjack?!I actually feel much better after that swallow....I am so tired of that Ventillation Hanghover. But I just need to let it out sometimes. It never feels good....
>>25113693i dont fucking careyou're trying to teach algebra to a goldfishshit that sounds like a weakness anywho.
bro's a goldfish
>>25113754
>>25113754or maybe it's just the burnout level you already hitbut ima keep marchin'there's somewhat golden beyond the tourists and groundhog daythe freedom you don't get anywhere else.an actual randumb board.
if I were burnt out, I wouldn't be here
why are you here instead of drawing?
however you choose to look at the developmental disabilityit gives me an unfair handicap if these weak bitch internet slapfights.
oh, fupastank...
my nickerthe c3p0 to my roomba bun
I like you too
what an interesting way you type
making it interesting for you marks giving something up i cant take back so nowe will play this game forever
We like to get a lil' silly on /bant/. Gonna top it off before calling it a day.FUCK I AM SO FUCKING FRISKY LATELY!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!! All that sexual repression, and all that dead libido....fucking shit I need and want it. Its like....a dormant volcano awakening to erupt all that built up tension. And I want it for real this time. Not to appease anyone, not out of fear that they will leave me if I dont give it to them. Sometimes, I just wanna fuck and forget.....but that stupid fucking Catholic upbringing. I still have morals, values, and restrictions. I want to do it, but it has to be someone I am in a relationship with. I just do not like masturbating. I hate it. Cannot finish either before I just lose interest. Am I a freak that I just use my imagination? Porn makes me so fucking sick.....
not you, but yeah
>>25114118yeah bro here forever zonei see you
forever isn't a very long time
better luck than you
>>25114104Using your imagination is better than porn.
I don't know....I met a particular someone that I met what has been possibly a few months ago. One day...we just did not see each other again. Unlike all those fucking bafoons I have chatted with....this one in particular....I don't know, dammit! We have so much in common including our pains, philosophies, mother complex...FUCK WE ARE SO COMPATIBLE FUCKNG DAMIIT!!!NNOIFHJIL:ESJFILJ:ILESJFIOL:eajs oil;fjaolisweBNIOFGHJOIJHDF:ILAWejl;fjwil;esjafsdfasdfdsafFUCK NOOOOOTalking to him....i started feeling someting.....just the most faint little stir in my stomach....fuck....I dont need this. I can hgave this I dont want it. NOt again,.....What do I do? thsi one....i dont want to leave or distance....fuck...I don tknow. I hope...I hope I have the courage to leave him one day. I hate how much of a beatiful and synergetic dyna ic we have. I dont need this . I sdone eant thius. nooooooostoppp
>>25115809He mind broke people on 8/b/ or was it 8/b2/ cant remember. Prolly 8/b2/ cuz the other one was killed by some faggot tranny. Saw him on 8moe too. Although there just arent enough ppl to mindbreak over there to have any mirth.
>>25115912The worst of it, is that he really is not breaking any rules. Making people seethe, angry, and being fucking annoying (trolling) on a random board is not breaking the rules. Even I would not ban him if people complained about him cuz I follow that "freeze peach" general attitude as well.
good afternoon
Good afternoon suicidal purple eevee thread.
What's so "good" about the afternoon, hm? Mine fucking sucks. If I have a bad afternoon, then EVERYONE WILL have a bad afternoon. So, BAD AFTERNOON, I say.
>>25117712Have it your way.
>>25117712You are here to blog. That's the good part of the afternoon.
Fine. Whatever.Itβs actually been really pleasant. And I know I keep trying to brush it off like itβs no big deal, but... I am really glad I worked up the courage to secure contact with him. Thereβs nothing wrong with having a genuinely nice moment with someone. I know happiness ultimately has to come from within, and Iβm not trying to make someone else responsible for my happiness. But still... itβs been really nice having someone to share little moments with. Someone whose presence feels comforting instead of exhausting. Someone I can actually talk to and feel like Iβm being listened to.Iβm really glad we found our way back to each other. More than I would like to admit to him. And honestly, Iβm proud of myself for letting go of my ego long enough to reach out and make sure we stayed in contact. That took more courage than I want to admit. A part of me was so afraid of looking foolish or caring too much, and I almost let that stop me.Iβm glad I didnβt.Because I donβt think Iβve ever felt quite so understood by someone. Or, at least, not in a way that made me feel so much less alone. Thereβs something about talking to him that just feels... easy. I can be myself. I can ramble, be ridiculous, be vulnerable, and somehow I donβt feel like I have to apologise for any of it.
And, of course, I canβt seem to resist teasing him whenever I see an opening. I suppose thatβs just one of the ways I show affection, especially when Apparently thatβs just how I show affection when Iβm trying very hard not to admit that I actually care....I have a presentiment that he actually....enjoys it....I send images of Bern a lot. I am very deliberate with what images I select to best represent my expressions and current mental state. He started posting Lambda a lot. I have a feeling he practises the same discipline as I do. Although he really likes to post images of Bern and Lambda together....I hope I am not reading too much into it...Iβm just not entirely sure what that means yet, and Iβm still figuring out what I feel, what I want...But whatever it becomes... Iβm grateful we found each other again.And for now, Iβm really, really happy that I didnβt let my pride get in the way of something that feels this nice. I just fear....I really fear being left alone. I cannot stand it anymore. I don't want to be alone anymore, my heart, mind, and stomach can bear it no longer. I have to keep a distance, an emotional distance. I still need to exercise caution. Self-preservation. Maybe a lil' insult and shoulder smack will do the trick. I don't know him enough yet. I want to. I want to know as much about him. I want to know what shoe he puts on first. Left or right? I want to know how he likes his eggs. I want to know if he prefers sour, tart, or sweet candy. I want to know his favourite pastries and confections. I want to know how many hours of sleep he gets on a daily basis. I want to know what is the first thing he does when he wakes up. I want to know what his favourite sock is. I want to know what colour undergarments he is wearing at this very moment. Most of all, I want to learn more about his relationship with his mother.
A serene and leisurely afternoon to all....
/nah/ is the love blog now
my boyfriend has a meltdown whenever I mention /bant/
>>25118132>*BRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPP*>I- Err... Um......
>>25117935confused this for moot cat again
Does everyone on /bant/ have a boyfriend?
>>25121009strong indepentant man don need no bitchesi have enough stalkers as it is
>>25121009Not anymore. Last one was a total clown show too.
>>25121009Reasoned it out earlier. I was happier before meeting anyone. I guess it takes one little change to realise you were much happier in that moment from the past. I am happier now. Why change that mingling with others. As much as I hate to say it, if it werent for all those events in the past and people I met. I would not be the person who I am today. Sometimes, I wonder if this is the best version or the lowest. I guess this is little innerworld of mine. I would have snapped at one point or another. It was a matter of waiting for a cataclysm. Maybe --that was the safest cataclysm I could have had. I want to die alone. It's safer that way. But I am greedy. I want it early. That is every well known. Right now, I am in the midst of actually throwing it all away. Egh, me and my tirades. It happened and it happened. Nothing, absolutely nothing will ever pull one forward but the self. I cant do that for myself. Survival of the fittest and all that. I just hope to be another statistic. It's amazing....god. To think....those days...just how determined I was....now -- I want to throw it all way. I am just too defective. More babble. More regret. I wish I never tried to "make friends." It hurt a lot all those years, but again, I didnt realise it then that I was much happier that I thought.
I am sorry. No one is a clown show. Absolutely now one I have ever met. All those people I have talked to, all those people I have interacted, every online person I have chatted with. The moment I give them a name and learn a lot about them, I never forget. Not even the bums I would see a lot and stumble upon in different areas of my bike route. I would even write them down on a notepad to never forget them. There are so many of them. I dont want people to be forgotten. I always think about other people. I want them to feel like I never have felt. I dont want people to feel alone. But i feel too much fear. So much fear. At the temple. I dont know if i share it with anyone the wish will dissolve but -- what I wished for....I wished for my spine to be stronger. I wished for my spine to be have greater form that ever. I want a spine that makes me feel bold and daring. I have been. I dont know if i even want it to grow stronger anymore. I have never talked to as many people as I have ever. I always leave them with smiles and laughter. But thenn....I just go away and reclude in to the cold. i sequest myself in my room and just do nothing all day. nothing. i dont care about doing my assignmets anyremore. i dont feel signisgcatn. not to myself anymore. i rememrbe doing an essay about venezuala during that period the country struck oil "Sistema Nerviosa" was the name of the exhibition of this one photographer. Tbhe image is chose was one of a dilapated wall that had graffita on it . It read, "Yo quiero ser."
>>25121884Scream at me until I cum and then vacuum me up inside your giant futa dog gock so you can ejaculate my limp and lifeless body back out into your dog bowl for a midnight snack.
I doesnt feel as isolative dumping it here. Penicl and paper? I started stabbing myself out of frustation. ipad and stylus, i just wanna fling that damn tablet acourss the room. word doc? ugh, looks pretty ughly honestly. i have a twitter journal and i am really consistent on there. i have it public so peole can find something to realte to. a few have. hope they feel better. i dont want to talke about it with peple anymore. not ever again. alwys goes wrong. i feel better afeter all that. i wan thinking of cutting mtyself a lot. god, i just cannot get that imagerssin of when i slashed it really wide and open. and those disturing vision to jsut let hell loose and stab mylsef. i had planned not to cut deep, but jus tenog to feel the blood trickle and imaging someone is touching me while i walk at night. i dont wanna do that aymore. it wont make me feel better. it is just gong to make me ugliers thatn i alrady am. i mean....yeah. whatever. coing flip cuz....its jsut fun. odd: i make idk make some kinna warm drink or go buy one.even: uhhhhh damn i want something fun.....even.....i .....idk...........i emmmmmm i guess i finish up those assingmesnts. thoyhgh, those two projest are fucking hard. jesus fuck, my perfect sttreak....gone! i had forgetoten ONE fucknig small detail. like the easiers shit and there are no resubminsion fuck!!!!!! hatre trhat nigga but i like how he has pushed me hard. sorry prof, but....gonna bite the bullet on this one. too hard. i could have figured it out had i not be so fucking useless and idolent. fuck what is wrong with me. Akrasia..............
>>25121946Oh fug....I forgot to add. ...I got an even so....but lemme such had for a lil gagI was gonna sayzero: IdleAnon gets a wallop on the noggin....HERESY DEMONS WORSHIPTTER ZErO IS A SCRFILIGEDL NUBERF!!!!!! GET OUT DFTGEWOT OUTOETJOLWSJFGT!!!!!
>>25121913Bruh.
>>25118559Uniformly lined up. Slash their throats under aluminum foil pans to collect all the blood. Season it, add lemon, let it congeal. A delicacy in Chile. At least feed a family of starving Mapuches.
>>25121978Not interested in reverse birthing Bring out the gock
A blade of grass among a million others, growing beneath a sky that will never remember a name. Brief, fragile things, passing through a world that keeps moving long after we are gone.The clouds pour rain. The grass keeps growing. The seasons keep changing. People keep moving. The sun rises again. To each their own.!Oyuki/8em : #s7NGnOjWw7!Nadir/sLAk : #1N.qIKC^b0Aeris : #yfq|`j2X !Apex/Low3g : #WQkVM7]2'9(I planned to use this one if one day I felt good or I felt....excellent. Maybe excelled at something. Felt proud. The time never came)!Brood/HPE. : #p3wwoE'a?\!Spook/beUM : #\T[6Y[ns\]!Blood/lkcY : #Qm3^ijt=8V(Idk. Trips I generated this morning and debated using them for the festivities this month. Got too depressed becase it'll just be me. Spending it here makes me want to slit my wrist. I dont want to come back and ever see any of you. Especially that one in particular. Horrible person? I dont know. But honestly, of all the people I met. He is the worst person I have ever had the disgrace of encountering.)
>>25122182I love this lil' squish so much!!!! I miss those quarter machines. I havent seen one in years, I think a decade. I want another Mew from those machines, not from buying one online. I wanna have my little Mew again. I need him more than ever. I have a woven Humming Bird with beads for a tail. Such a strange knickknack. I found it set on my backpack back when I used to volunteer at the Adult School. Still have it on my bag. I want a Mew on my backpack too. "I want. I want. I want . I want . I want . I want . I want . I want . I want . I want . I want . I want . I want .v vI want .vI want I want I want "
>>25121948You should ask Matt if zero is an even number.
>>25121983Uh yeah. No. I'd rather not. The penis is exit only my guy. Mouth's open for intake however.
i ain't dead yeti will kill the jenova cells in youinvader that should have been angel
https://youtu.be/ceTgUezZIc0
>>25124287https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NXXyIYXmu_M
Why is the trippy formerly known as /qa/doge into transparent gifs and insulting Canadians?
>>25125844because transparent gifs are neat, and Canadians deserve insult for being Canadian. Never forget /qb/, because that is what Canadians deserve. *spits disrespectfully* Fuck Canada, it's Diet England, and fuck Quebec, it's Diet France. Fuck England, Fuck France, Fuck Canada. Manitoba can stay.
>>25125544you mistake me the defender of an old thinghttps://youtu.be/CCMkh8MRMNQ
i exist
>>25125844>>25125869For real though. You genuinely have no idea how much contempt I have for Canada, its citizens, its legal system, its government, and its pretty much everything. You genuinely have no idea how bad and clown world everything that isn't Yukon, Northern Territory, South Manitoba is. it's genuinely baffling that amount of dystopia leftism is tolerated, to the point where the average Canadian is being literally murdered by the the state because they stubbed a toe, meanwhile they openly force children who question their own gender once to undergo full sex reassignment. And God forbid if you criticize their shit ass system, because in real life they just shuffle and say "Sowwry" [inherited instinct from their British paternals] but online they act like the biggest fucking douchebags because they have to apologize for everything in real life, again, just like the British. The worst part is the Indian/Pakistan/Chinese aspect. There's so many yellows and browns in Canada where the "acts like an insufferable douchebag cunt online is genuinely because that is the real world culture that they extend online as well. Like holy fuck. Like, I'm not openly racist, but I have a sincere pity for anyone who lives in Canada and has to put up with that Clown World, same with the UK and Germany. I have no sympathy for the French. Like, Canada is legitimately the fucking queer douchebag cousin, Australia is at least a good sport cunt about it, but Canada is the insufferable tumblr nerd that troons out and you just want to fucking punch in their fucking nerd ass glasses and buck ass teeth. I truly despise Canada and her peoples, but I'd still take a Canadian or the entire Indian Subcontinent any day of the century, even though Canada is essentially just a territory of at this point. I don't care if that is politically incorrect, the Canadian Judicial System is genuinely, British and Swedish tier in actually dealing with its problems/
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>>25125951Imagine living in a country that is as Left oriented as fucking Sweden, and seeing your government kill your people, literally, and figuratively, and all you can do is say "Sowwry" about it, and then act like a douchebag online. That's Canada; the Tumblr Nation filled with Brit tier cuck citizens. But at least they have gripes unlike the Swedish who willingly slurp semen and take it up the ass. You genuinely have no idea how much I despise Sweden, a country so left, it's considered literal Communistic, but is so Progressive that no one complains and they've learned to enjoy eating semen and sodomy. There's a reason that Captain Sweden is a joke. Like fuck man, when did people starting being okay with Sweden fucking tier governance in their countries to the point where they shrug their shoulders and say "I'll just be a cunt online when the world around me burns?" Like fuck, you want a dystopian novel, write about Canada, England, Germany or Sweden. Every single political article or news event I read from those countries legit reads like Harrison Bergeron.
>>25125983and FUCK YOU SWITZERLAND. It didn't do anything, but I feel like being openly xenophobic towards other countries and its governance systems.
>>25125951first to be consumed in holy codmic fire?
angry little guy
maybe you're too harsh towards the canucks and the euros
>25126074>>25116020/ng/ in /bant/
>>25126220I am the nobody.
>>25126275promise i'll really go to bed after this one
>>25126190>>25126204I have to be angry about it, because too many people are placid and say "That's just how things are" about it. At the same time, I have to retain a xenophobic mindset specifically because not that I am racist or bigoted, but because I do not agree with the apparent universalist application of ultra left progressivism that feels and acts dystopian. Don't get me wrong, I am a liberal, and a socialist at that; however there is a very big different between social liberalism, and whatever the fuck Sweden, Europe and Sweden are doing. That's like, Hyper Progressivism that is as cancerous as Hyper American Current Stage Capitalism. I'm not actually racist, nor bigoted, that's a strong front to play up the whole "I really really really disagree with your application of the ideals your and I share." Personally, I think MAID is a good thing, for terminally ill patients who genuinely will not get better, like cancer, extremely painful diseases and the like. Not for being poor, having depression, or because "I don't feel good." Likewise, I believe in the agency of identity, but not to the point where the agencies of others need to be taken away in lieu of the other. And I beleive that said agency choice needs to be double checked and follow a common sense pathway, rather than a fast passway. Likewise my viewpoints on immigration are "Yes, I believe in it, however, it must be legal and the people must assimilate into the country, rather than demanding the host country cater to them. My xenophobia comes from the governing systems of other countries who take the worst possible avenue with my own beliefs, and looking at their citizens shrug and say "Meh" about it. There are very few countries I actually genuinely despise for their governance, of which, Iran, Pakistan, and Eritrea are high up on that list, however, Israel's current administration is outstandingly corrupt to the point of where one wonder why God hasn't been personally offended.
>>25126627i welcome the coming doomsday but know it will be lame as fuck12% as cool as we imagined itmore suffering on a rock in space as l8fe goes ongoodnight
Good night.>>25126627okay, sorry.>>25126275control your followers. Now
>several posts complaining about snca
>>25127629stuff /nah/ cares about
>>25127629why do you do all your blogging in the cirno threads and not here? there were hundreds of snca turds that could have gone to /nah/. guys, this nigga is holding out on you.
blog blog blog
Bloggity blog blog blog. *maxes out character limit*
g o o d n i g h t
/co/ is starting to take a chill pill at last after some Oney related hissy fit..
/nah/ themehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=24v3C37JLwA
>>25133443Okay but what does Chaco have to do with that?
>>25133088Does that mean they no longer care about the Oney thing or that the board is more relaxed in general?
the happenings thread is talking about cookies
>>>/x/43054067It's official.
>>25138054Passive reality manipulation by The Nobody to bring his flock into the promise land.
>>25138064This will be the new /ng/.
>>25138080Gangstalker paranoia will keep them from leaving their containment thread. /nah/ is safe for now.
>>25138122I want /nah/ to be unsafe.
>>25138158Focus hard enough and maybe you can will it into reality
>>25138172Calling your people right now.
>>25138178Ahh... Iβm afraid the lines are busy.
>>25137625/nah/ will get succs (whatever that is) before /bant/ng/good night>>25138216They will be open soon. You should be prepared to deal with your followers.
I got the Flu-shot today. Why bring this up? Dunno, I found it funny how at the very beginning I was suppose to provide an ID. But throughout the entire encounter, I just keep tossing witty quips and silly banter. I know I had the girls hooked because they kept giggling. One in particular stood out. I guess she liked me because her gaze kept redirecting towards me and she couldn't help be keep close to my radius even if she had to tend to the others. Ah, that is besides the point. Well, I was wearing a gray shirt with chest pockets and long sleeves. I wore grey pants and put on boots. Reminiscent of my Blue-Collar days when I would go out on Inspections. Well, I had to uncover my left arm so they cold poke at my Left Deltoid. Wonder if my row after row of self-harm scars set their minds into a tizzy. And my jocose, gregarious guise beguiled there minds into a wave of confusion. I mean, I could feel the energy change immediately. Well, suffice to say, as soon as they administered the vaccine, I just walked away without presenting my ID. Lol. I dunno. Social Engineering: Conversation Control. Humourous Deflection. Misleading Direction. Conversation Redirection. Those are the skills I had to learn at the Mental Hospital. Only one, just one person was perceptive enough to disable and disassemble my manipulation. "Hmm, and really intelligent too. You must be having fun." I was. It was fun. I want to clumsily segue to a new topic: Friends. I want to be a Friend to all. But a true Friend to none. My Father ones told me, "If I wanted to have Friends, they would line up for miles." It stunned my mind. One night, I was sitting on a chair under a stage of sparkling stars. I was scowling at the Moon as it Howled for blood behind the veil of clouds. My Father waltz up to me. We chatted, but before he dismissed himself. He...strangely held me by the cheeks for a moment. Then kissed my forehead. He said, "I have a feeling you are the only one that understands me.
I like Imageboards because I have never really gotten close to anyone. Even if we have chatted for like half a decade. Tragic that changed this year. Mistakes happen. Looking back makes me wonder if I am a good person. First Hospitalisation, I was put in a room alone while the rest had lil' bunk mates. I would always be the one first to wake up. Always. It was just to be the first to shower. Then I would go to the lounge and watch cartoons. I befriended the security guard. Guy was a bit of a nut. Talked about demonic Holywood and Illuminati conspiracies. Homosexual psyops in cartoons and alldat. Man, I blinked and then thing I know, each and one of them are dumping their problems on me as I listened. Ugh, the girls were so damn clingy. I liked the freaky lesbian and trans one cuz they backed the fuck off. I left with most of their numbers. Dumped them all. Second visit, that one was actually fun. The patients in their had fun and bone-chilling stories. Ugh, a constant among the girls was, "I broke up with my boyfriend." Fuck, and the ones that were molested....god those were heavy. Nurse called me a Lady Killer, but all I did was just look at them and note their distinct features and just keep the convo going. I put more effort with the boys than the girls. Got their numbers, and dumped it all. Third Looney Bin visit: That one was quick and graceful. I was in, then out. But that visit was fucking gross. The psychiatric prescribed me Lexapro. Told me the side effect, but for some reason, she was so fucking emphatic with sex. Se Sex Sex Sex. Fuck, I felt nauseous after that. "Your libido will decrease so you won't be able to have as much sex." "Lexapro tends to make achieving an erection really difficult for sex." "Some people like Lexapro because they say it helps them last longer during sex." "How often do you have sex." "Stay safe and use a condom when you have sex. "I have never told anyone this, but I used to be sexually abused by someone in High School.
Good-night, Cyber Elves. Got places to Haunt Tonight. One of these days, I will go out and walk around the neighborhood cross-dressed. Gonna feel like some kinna Haunting roaming the streets, traversing a thick fog of fear. https://youtu.be/6Z676IOGY7E
Of course, when I say "Good-night" it is simply a banal gesture. I tend to sleep at around 2 or 3 in the mourning. I totally forget this newly generated tripcode. Cannot seem to produce a silly combo of words after the "/." This one is good enough cuz it loogs kewl. #.~R.E1-0sJThis is the theme when I will Haunt the streets:https://youtu.be/691lmUKrCs0?list=PL5SMXYhIcZ5KdXzfrqqpjO0QzuZB65_cd
