>be me, unemployed>on-off depression since high school>never medically treated>start having suicidal ideations during college>they have been slightly but steadily worsening overtime, plans are more and more precise>finished collegeShould I? I just want the pain to stop
stop watching little girl cartoons
>>25159599>>unemployedHow is that a bad thing?>Should I?You didn't give us enough context to give you any good advice. Why do you want to kill yourself?>>25159607You aren't real.
>muh because I'm depressedYes, but why are you depressed?
>>25159623>How is that a bad thingNo money, barely scratching by>Why do you want to kill yourself?I feel pain all the time, just breathing is painful and I truly hate this world as much as possibile. I think this hate is determined by something that happened, but I don't really know what could have caused such a violent distaste
>>25159625Because reality is painful and I am a disgusting corpse
>>25159630>>25159632>barely scratching byI assumed you lived with your parents, my bad.>I feel pain all the timeLiterally or metaphorically? I will suppose it's the latter.>I truly hate this world as much as possibile>reality is painfulCan't you just do as everyone else does and gaslight yourself into thinking about other things, like hobbies, career or maybe even a relationship?
>>25159661>Literally or metaphorically?Metaphorically speaking, but I do also have some painful physical flare-ups, they started appearing only recently tho>gaslight yourself into thinking about other things, like hobbies, career or maybe even a relationshipI try and do that, I've held a job for a while and I am in a relationship. Gaslighting doesn't work as much as it should, it does keep me in check due to the practical implications my death could have, honestly sometimes it all feels like a cage that doesn't allow me to stop this pain. It's a horrible thing to say, and I feel horribly guilty for that. It doesn't really stop the pain, and I'm worried my ideations will become too practical and actually viable one day
ending your one life on yahweh's earth sounds harder than asking your doctor for sertraline
>>25159683>some painful physical flare-upsAs long as it's nothing chronical I think you must be okay.>I try and do that, I've held a job for a while and I am in a relationship. Gaslighting doesn't work as much as it shouldDamn, I don't know what to tell you then. Usually just acknowledging how shit things really are isn't enough to make one want to kill oneself, wordly pleasures and survival instincts maintain us here almost as a bait. If you're still feeling bad every single day even without any tangible problem then your brain chemistry must be fucked, I think it's in cases like yours that meds can make some difference, so unironically seek help, I think?>>25159813You're just saying that because you're a gooner.
>>25159821>As long as it's nothing chronicalLuckily it's not, thank you for asking tho anon> I think it's in cases like yours that meds can make some difference, so unironically seek help, I think?Idk, there are several problems with this specific rote. I don't really have any money for therapy as of right now, and going into governemnt-paid therapy might actually make it harder for me to find a job later on, and my parents can't really sustain me on the long run. I'm just getting scared about the practical approach I started having to ending it all>>25159813It does, but at the same time I don't want to cause pain to people I love and care about. I just don't know for how long I can keep rawdogging this shit
Visual novels did this to him
>>25159861get infatuated with a bpdemon and let them use your rotting corpse you useless fag you know its all you're good for
>>25160180Visual novels suck they're everything bad about books and anime combined with none of what makes either good.
>>25159599I do this
>>25159683>I am in a relationshipYour ai girlfriend doesn't count, loser
>>25160214Dude its not korbo. Its probably some random girl. Korbo has a job and lives with his parents anyway.
