This is the official Betty from fishtank thread.I love and care for her very much but people are mean to me and bully me about it.So I will keep my posts about her here and blog how my life is going.I miss her very much. We havnt talked like friends in almost 2 years. She's still angry with me. I don't blame her.. I guess I deserved it.
These are pics I took this morning I think it's from a space x launch thing
>>25167975>>25167977Looks awesome :)
the sky is cutting for Betty
It's so hard to see the brightside of things ever since she got mad at me.I'm on all these meds.. they keep me from being able to get angry but I still want to die. I hate my life so much. She was the only thing that cheered me up.
I don't want to die homeless alone and addicted to drugs but I think she's right..This is all I have in life and it's nothing.Purely pathetic just barely clinging onto life. I miss feeling happy. Even though it was only for months.
https://youtu.be/FR285dVkoPk?is=bW-6qR-abC_ZzeTNI post songs for her here too
Hi Glad to see this thread is back.Stay in it.And dont leave it.
Betty is saving herself for austin. he just has to make the first move
so, its an ambush..
>>25167973I'm glad you're still alive and disappointed you're still obsessed
>>25168348he got worse
I decided to go back to work today but I still feeling really depressed about Betty hating me
Actually I change my mind I'm not going I hate my life
>>25168182This will be used as a base to attack the main thread from until it is destroyed as intended by the prick when we set out on a mission to destroy Jets life for past wrongs done against a shared love one: our mom.Jet. I told you that you would learn one day. And you laughed.
>>25167975>>25167977That's actually really cool thanks for sharing those ones. We don't get spaceships flying overhead much out this way, not human spaceships anyways>>25169195>>25169396You're not an irredeemable person, but you have put yourself through some shit. When you go through the kind of swings that you do, it fucks you right up. The mind can turn on a dime, from an external perspective. Like how you react to a ball being thrown your way. It doesn't take any real effort, and in your case it actually doesn't take any effort at all because this is a condition that is inflicted onto you. You aren't choosing to be this way, in the macro sense. What's going on here is that while you externally pivot, internally your brain is still adjusting to that shit. It's still absorbing and processing that information.So when you shift, and you pivot, and you allow yourself to be stirred that way, to the external and unaware observer it just looks like you're making bad choices. In reality it's that your brain and emotions are so fucked up and twisted up behind the scenes, because of the constant, internally driven, obsessive external pivoting.You, your personality, and the way you interact with the world is like the tires on the road. Your brain and your cognitive processing, that shit is the axles, rods and other machines parts that ultimately hook those wheels up to the engine, the steering wheel, all that shit.You can think of making those external pivots like wrenching on the steering wheel back and forth. When you do it enough, and violently enough, it fucks those connections up. The wheels and the steering wheel aren't in tact in the manner they are supposed to be, you don't get the feedback you need to drive properly, and when you try to drive how you normally might, you find yourself unable to do so, because those internal controls are all fucked up as a result of the external pivoting.
I might joke around, but I genuinely like you and I hope that you do find some peace in life brother cuz u don't deserve to suffer the way you are suffering regardless of things you may have said, or that others say about you. You've never done any kind of harm that time couldn't heal. You're just a tortured soul, and to anyone who hasn't been in that kind of state it can look like madness and malice but it's really just a man being torn apart in such a way it appears as such.You're not out there violently harming other people because of your misgivings with the world and your life circumstances. You may say things that offend people and insult others, but that's your engine being all fucked up. That's not the actual you. I have had conversations with the actual you, and that's why I choose to look past all the negativity. Because you aren't a bad person at the core, you are just a tortured soul and a lonely person and I'm sorry that's how shit went for you. Just recognize some folks out there see past the bullshit and recognize you for the individual you are, past all that bullshit. You should try to do the same for yourself. Forgive yourself for things you have done wrong, forgive others and give grace for what they may have done wrong to you. Move on with your life and accept the chips have fallen where they have. You can try this, you can continue living life the way you do, or you can kill yourself. Those are your 3 options. If you choose the 2nd, the 3rd is an inevitability. I'm not being cruel here, just being honest. I hope you find your way bud.
OHHH HHHEEEELLLLLL YEAAAAH a Betty thread
