I spent years looking forward to the day when I could finally escape brutal wageslavery and have more time to live my life and spread my wingsYet now that I have it, all I do with my days is ruminate and dwell on people from my past who were disrespectful to me and how powerless I felt
>>62657865If you didn't realize this would happen in all those years then I guess you really didn't think much about it. Anyways, get a hobby or an actual job. But something you want to do this time.
It seems like you haven't undergone any individuation. I would recommend reading Carl Jung and unironically some heavy doses of psilocybin in a ritual setting. The miasma of decades of social malfunction and possibly trauma are weighing your soul down and you need some drastic and unorthodox measures to snap out of it
>>62657865kinda the same happens to me, but not even because of NEETing, but because I WFH in a job I love (except for the people) and live in a shithole of a house.
>>62657932I also forgot to mention/ask:do you guys ever feel constantly paranoid and threatened? I feel this way ever since my mom tried to steal money from me. and whenever I interact with people who I have to pay to do something (a mechanic, architect, whatever) with whom I feel like they don't take me seriously, I start thinking that they might scam me, steal from me or whatever.
>>62657865Read The Count of Monte Cristo
>>62657865>all I do with my days is ruminate and dwell on people from my past who were disrespectful to me and how powerless I felttherapy
>>62657865you're letting those people continue to waste even more of your time. fuck 'em. also, give me money.
>>62657943>I feel this way ever since my mom tried to steal money from me.so you were not paranoid after all.we dont hate women enough. specially mothers.
>>62657865>>62658003forgot to mention: you have to take control of your thought process. it sounds like you are getting on loops in your head, ruminating like you said. can you stop at will? if you can not you have to learn. it is possible, ive done it myself. not saying im 100% in control, but im WAY better then i was say 2 or 3 years ago.
>>62657865It's the do drugs and lose it all chapter.
>>62658012she's single mother, I'm her younger son (though I'm old now). she tried to steal from me WHILE I WAS HELPING HER BUY A HOUSE FOR BOTH OF USbut you know what's funny? SHE warned me against women for a long time. she made me paranoid and scared of people and their tricks. and then she pulled the same shit she warned me of.you have no idea how enraged I was. she seemed to think she was entitled to my money, and that I wouldn't do shit about it. didn't even ask me to give it to her, she simply kept it. not only that, she then tried to "negotiate" a % of my part of the house. it was really stupid. clearly she thought this was a power dispute... dumb bitch.
>>62657988Why do people keep talking about this book?
>>62658039>she seemed to think she was entitled to my moneysame with my whore of a mother. when my parents sold the house after the divorce i was supposed to get a share of the money but never saw a penny, she kept it instead.
>>62657865Then you haven't actually made itFirst sign a person has made it is they stop worrying about what other people think.
>>62657865Read/watch Norman Vincent Peale
