This is what 17 years of weeed addiction looks like. I cant just smoke weed. I need the persy rosin. A gram of it a day, 80 bucks, i have no idea why i nees this at this point, other stuff doesnt get my rocks off and doesnt get my high at this point. At the end of the day I throw the dab straw away czu I dont want ot live like this anymore. Itd been 17 years of tbis. I make 120k and live paycheck to paycheck. Im about to go stream money from ym grandma. I tried every other drug including fet, meth, heroine, did xans for the past 3 days(ran out). Never had an incline of addiction. Weed has made me its bitch . My youth is gone, my soul is gone. I hate this poisen. It doesnt affect most people like this, meth makes most people addicted while i just smoke a 5 sack, jack off clean and dotn touch it again for a year or two. Addiction isnt black and white. I was heavily abused by my parents and have barely gotten through each day since I was 6 year old. Go ahead and judge. I have a masters in engineering btw and work for a cutting edge quantum computing company. I can succeed an but I cant function. My workers dont like me as every opinion I have on every single subject is beyond extreme. Even coworkers thst go to /pol/ think the shit i say id too far. Throughout my career my bosses has absolutr disease for me but cant fire me cuz I built this systems. I dont want to die. I just want the thought to stop. I want 10 mg xanax bars and a recliner and watch mid-late 90s cyberpunk movies and blow my brains out I can go make 200k tomorrow and I am about to and when I quit I will burn the bridge with my boss and make him expline how im supposed to afford a 4 bedroom house with a stay at home wife and 3.1 kids on a peasant salary of 120k a year. Why do I always get paid 30 percent less than I need to live a decent white mans life?!?!??!
>>62707169you let your pain turn you into a spiteful bitter faggot. that's your main issue to fix before anything else, you will never lead a decent life while feeling like that. up to you to figure out how
>>6270716980$ for a gram of dab? You are a stupid nigger. I can get pounds of it for $550 right now delivered to me.
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>>62707173Okay, how do I fix that? U realize the years wear u down and I wasnt always like this?
You are traumatized and have an attachment disorder as well. Your brain during adolescence shifted in a certain way to protect you from the psychological damage but this made you much more susceptible to developing addictions and just being a Trainwreck person, in general. Complex trauma = chronic shifts in behavior and thinking processes due to having to survive in a stressful or threatening environment, especially as a child/adolescent. The shifts get you through but then cripple you as you get older as they become trapped in your nerves and physiology, you essentially haven't *snapped out of it* after all this time, which is why you have needed to dope yourself up for years and are now facing the secondary effects of the weed/drugs as well as the trauma. Does it feel you have a curse upon you, or like you have a tiny shard of glass constantly rubbing somewhere in your mind/soul? That's trauma; you can poopoo it or tough-guy deny it all you want, it wont make your childhood issues go away. Look into somatic therapy and trauma-release exercises. You have been fucked up for so long that the tension is now trapped in your body, your posture, your nerves. Try to find a somatic / mind-body therapist in your area. Look into The Body Keeps the Score and Waking the Tiger. I would also recommend large dose of psilocybin in a ritualistic somatic context, but it sounds like you really need to just ground yourself and experience being sober right now. Get your shit together for your kids sake
Literally just stop smoking it lolWhen you are doing dabs daily you've gone too far. You have to just stop and deal with the 1-2 weeks of shitty feelings.
>>62707169You smoke weed because you have too much free time. I had the same problem, weed addiction, "boredom" because I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts for too long. The thing is there are other healthy activities that can get your mind off things too. You need to start figuring those out and lay out your days so you're exhausted at the end. You say you're so successful and important, but you're probably a cruiser, you're just cruising, you got locked into a nice little spot. You're stagnant water.
>>62707169Actually weed addiction is not real.
>>62707188This. Find anything to insert into your former weed time slot. After a month you won't really remember that you care about weed. And you won't feel that different, we just relaxes you and gives you a different perspective for a few minutes, that's it. I smoke weed everyday but have quit before for atleast over a year cant really remember because its not that big a deal. Plenty of people waste their money on other things in the same way you do with weed. Go to NA or something, do something, anything will work. Good luck.
>>62707187I used to eat so much shrooms I grew them, sent 10s of lbs across the country. They used to help but they dont allow me to trip anymore beacuse every trip the conclusion was that I had t quit weed and I still couldn't find the strength so now every time i trip I have a horrible phsycial reaction, namely my lungs get inflamed and the shroom gods tell me to fuck off and give me pain ul fractals.Therapy is bullshit. Ill try self therapy but im not going to some trust fund baby who grew up in a stable house for advice on how to overcome my pain
you posted this same drivel two weeks ago, you attention-seeking loser. you won't take anyone's advice, you just call everyone poor for suggesting you should stop smoking $80 grams everyday. you dont actually want to change, nigger!
>>62707182idk im going though it myself. basic meditation exercises and after that affirmations when your mind is in a more receptive state helps. also some kind of exercise just gotta find something that's not a chore for you even a walk with some music. i personally like cycling
>>62707217Im not calling people poor im calling myself weak. I am living in hell and dont know how I can escape and am desperate enough to even come to you losers for help
It’s like me with alcohol. Like people with mcdonalds. It isn’t the strongest drug but it makes you feel at home. It’s a comfy habit you’ve had since you were a teen. That’s the addiction. Nostalgia and feeling of home.
>>62707182waaah waaaah boohoo weeeeh weeeeehstop being fake and gay and ask Jesus to help you if you can manage to put your little baby ego on the side
>>6270716980 bucks gets me a 3 month supply of weed. I thought I was a degenerate faggot addict, but you are something else OP
>>62707169I used to smoke just like you, about a gram a day for ten years. Then I found myself stuck in a country house for two months with no way to get any. I suffered through withdrawal for two weeks: couldn't sleep, had the sweats and the jitters, and dark thoughts. Then one day, I realized I’d been sleeping well for a week; I wasn't thinking about smoking anymore, and I was free. Since then, I haven't smoked, except for brief relapses lasting a week at most, and it’s been over three years now since I last smoked anything. I don't spend money on that crap anymore; I have more energy and I'm less paranoid. It’s possible, but everyone has their own way of quitting.
>>62707169Just grow your own, lazy nigger
I'm on the achieve and drug use cycle it sucks. Grew mushrooms too at one point. There are no good answer besides developing new habits. The trauma you try to overload and prove yourself but nobody cares. Even if you make 8 figures it's just more comfortable but people are still shitty and it doesn't feel much better.
Just do the caffeine technique where you halve your intake and then halve it again and again over a period of time
Honestly, hit that rosin my nigga. Shit is so good, shit is so cash. Life without weed is a bore. Hit that rosin and goon and play that vidya. Vamp out, my nigga
>>62707169>waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
>>62707169You can't be addicted to weed it's not physically possible. You most likely just have an oral fixation, since you already made yourself gay smoking all that weed how about you just put your roommates cock in your mouth and see if that makes the cravings go away?
>>62707169>>62707295Jesus christ man. I dont think anyone here can help you. Fuck religion, that shit's a meme, the only religious position I accept is that life is hell. What helped me quit weed was replacing it with a less harmful addiction, like vidya, but almost all vidyas suck. The only thing I can say is that after you quit once, the next times are much easier. Try Slay the Spire, you can pump a few hundred hours into it, or games like Factorio.
Btw you need love not the fake conditional human love. Get an animal like a dog or a cat from a shelter with a known personality. (The last thing you want is a cat that hides away and hates humans, like my current cat. I want to kill that piece of unloving shit)Also get a hobby like classical guitar, and make it your goal to learn Sor variations https://youtube.com/watch?v=mcf2nC7z9S8Third, spend your money on cooking or eating lavishly. You only live once (hopefully), so you might as well spend it all eating good shit every day, before ww3 breaks out in full. Nuclear bombs are on the menu within 6-12 months anyway
>>62707449Jesus christ, what have I become
>>62707318>I am playing with comsuming low grade productLitteraly good for u, it doesnt get my rocks off. Flower doesnt even get me high at this point btw
>>62707322I got stuck in a country house also and after like like 5 days I was waking up in tears of joy from happiness. Then I went back to the concrete jungle and relpased instantly. How else am I supposed to cope with see beaner and niggers and preppy wiggers and no trees anywere
>>62707555I work put, my job is my hobby(I get to travel all across the world to cool places and create cool shit), i work out every day, i used to grow so much shrooms I had to give them away, I got into classical literature and even started reading three Bible recentlyNone of that is going to offset the 17 years of rewiring my brain.
>>62707534I try so hard, I dow loaded red desd repetition again and got bored 2 mineuts in the firt .mission, I was high also. Elden ring(and other dark souls, not swriko, faggot game) and armored core 6, everything else is so fucking boring and I already passed those two games
>>62707583Just take a tolerance break nigger. I've quit weed so many times by now. I'm completely sober. And lord knows I'm getting back on it again the first chance I get. Life is hell, drugs (in moderation) are totally fine. Especially if you are traumatized, which I am too. anything over a gram per day is a total waste. And either follow my advice or go to therapy. You can afford high roller therapy since yoh have a goos job. I am poor so I only have access to poorfag therapy which is useless.Dabs are poison, never do dabs. Mix flower with tobacco, its great, and you'll die faster. (Tobacco helps shave off the last 10 years which are the worst). When you get cancer, just request a suicide pod, they'll put you to sleep with nitrogen gas or something, you won't notice a thing. Until then enjoy the ride.
>>62707590Yeah well I know the feeling. Those games are shit. You need autistic maxxed high IQ games that resemble drugs, not triple A pieces of shit. Slay the Spire, factorio, roguelikes (cdda, tales of maj eyal, ...), Songs of Syx, shit like that.
>>62707169>A gram of it a day, 80 bucksstopped reading here
>>62707586>None of that is going to offset the 17 years of rewiring my brain.Excuse.
>>62707618fact rocket
>>62707586>reading three Bible recentlyIt's not gonna work for you. Been there done that. Only low IQ morons can believe that garbage. It falls apart when you start thinking critically. For me that happened on page 2. Yes the universe was created and there is a thing like 'god', but it doesn't give a fuck about you, and it might be closer to satan than god, because as I said earth is a hell realm. Dont fall for gnosticism too btw, it's just upside down christianity with more made up convoluted shit. The only thing theyre right about is that the kike god is a fag
>>62707639>earth is a hell realm.https://youtube.com/watch?v=RJENgsv-eA8This fag explains it well, but his channel is full of AI slop so don't bother with the rest
>>62707169Just take a break and your tolerance will reset
>>62707639>>62707645It is, but you chose to come here.First, there were only souls, and God.Then God created the world.Upon seeing it, 9/10 souls chose to come here.Then He created paradise.Upon seeing that, of the remaining souls, 9/10 chose to go there.Then He created Hell.Upon seeing THAT, of the remaining souls, 9/10 fled in terror.When God asked the remaining souls what they wanted, they all said, "We want only you, Lord".But you are one of the souls that chose the world. It's never too late to stop choosing the world and start choosing God.> SourceSufi lore
>>62707707Nice mudslime fairy tale. I'm not choosing a nigger who has never revealed himself kek
>>62707707>acksually you chose its... but its not actually you cause you cant remember shit ! XDDDD
>>62707639The bible is cryptic and im a kike so I can read through the lines. Its just rehashed sumerian and Egyptian stories which have truth to them. 12k years ago the Mediterranean was dry u til the stright of gilbraltet broke and filled it, that would have been a biblical flood. >>62707645Its lowwr middle class, u are supposed to reincarnate out of it
>>62707707Thats the bhagavad gita which is the supreme truth and was written by people with white skin, aryans..
