Electrical engineer here. Been working for like 11 years. I design products that work, i love what i do. Yet I keep getting laid off or fired for silly reasons(last one was a spelling error after I got put on a PIP over multiple superiors telling me to charge different hours, making them coordinate with each other didnt work, still got blamed).I started life at a hudge disadvantage, put myself through college beacuse my parents refused to sign the loan.. Went through hell and back while in school and while working. I officially give up. Im not blaming the companies, im the common denominator. I try my best to make people not hate me but my best doesnt work. Im not housebroken. Im probably a giant asshole and cant even see it. I cant navigate the boomer corporate minefield. Startups, medium size comapnies, big merchants of death contractors, i dont fit in with any of them. I have lost all hope and passion for what i do. No matter what, I piss people off. Im too weird and unashamed(i should be). I thought being an engineer I could just be judged on my output and not the content of my character. Maybe im just THAT repulsive. I'm really good at interviewing but the same open and ambitious personality doesnt translate into being tolerable long term, my resume is a scarlet letter at this point. I can already feel my time running short at my new job. I lost all the passion and hope I had for my career. They win. I dont even have it in me to try and justify my existance in the field anymore. They won. They are right, i am wrong. I dont know what im going to do. I dont want to go back to manual labor like before college. I was too feral even to be a technician, they didnt like me even when i was one of them. Im down to one friend thats already getting tired of my BS. I wish I could just make a living without interacting with people. There is no job that I can last at. I cant keep my stupid mouth shut, I tired.
And u know what? I probably deluded myself into thinking I have a good output. Im probably completely worthless. I failed at everything else i tried. Got fired for not making salads fast enough at a restaurant when I was a teen... Im just fucking good at interviewing, thats probably all there is to me still being employed and finding all these jobs. Ill probably find a higher paying job after this one and get fired even quicker and find a even higher paying job after that.... Im so fucking dead on the inside. How many 13 year olds figure out what they want to be and dont regret it in adulthood? Im one of the very few people that actually likes what they do, yet god hates me, so of course I suffer in the most sysphian type of way. Don't even know how to spell that Greek faggots name... I deserve worse than a firing. They should put me to a literal fucking firing squad next time. Im a drain to society. I white, but im worse than a jeet. I took all those job opportunities from people who deserved them more than me, which is every single person in this world.
>>62841134>>62841146Then start applying for remote jobs.
>>62841154I tried but as a hardware engineer there is no getting around having to show up to the lab to test the shit u built. I would fuck up a remote job anyways. U still have to go to meetings and answer emails.. All it will take is one night of bad sleep for me to reply something stupidAlso,like i said, I probably deluded myself into thinking im even good at desining shit or having any kind of significant output for what they pay me, which is not as much as it should be even if I was good.
Isn't EE one of the hardest degrees, use your studying skills to not be retarded socially or you will keep failing, being likeable will get you further than skill alone
>>62841188Half the students didnt graduate, its pretty hard, and I did it before AI.. Doesn't mean im not irredeemably asshole
What’s with the novel? But seriously your biggest mistake was picking EE. Hard degree and can it’s something that people might actually find interesting and thusly will try-hard at.
Okay I read it >” How many 13 year olds figure out what they want to be and dont regret it in adulthood”They don’t. They have a vague idea (like you) and they go with that, get trapped (with a kid and a fat wife) and spend the next 40 years wanting to jump into traffic. Middle age wagies are the more miserable than you can imagine. The reason why your co workers cannot talk about anything other than their kids is because there is nothing else going on in their lives that they don’t absolutely fucking hate including their spouses
>>62841201But I like what I do. Its dealing with people that makes me feel like im dead inside. I have a totally different problem than them
Humans (white people) were made to work for themselves…never gonna be happy working for someone else
Also the book “how to win friends and influence people” by dale carnegie…if you want to be liked you have to learn to remember peoples names and talk about what they are interested in….that or go live on a farm
>>62841205Most people hate some aspects of their job. For you, it’s having to deal with other people. Cherish the parts you like, and grind through the parts you don’t. I don’t really see any other option, and it’s what most people have to do anyway.
>>62841163Lol bro ur stupid. Just move to China and open a shop for repairing mobile phones. Or in those paki/indian bazaars>i tried my bestThat's where u fucked up
>>62841261>“how to win friends and influence people” by dale carnegieUnironically this.Also, if I were to graduate EE, I would get the attestation for low voltage or high voltage installations and become a tradesman or power utility employee. You are basically avoiding meetings, going alone or with a small team, and client interactions are short (you like interviewing). Tismproof.
>>62841134>I design products that work, i love what i doThis part is the difficulty in your life.You either design something that becomes obsolete in 6 months or ripped off by asian shops.Or you work with delusional people that don't understand their product will become obsolete in 6 months or ripped off by asian shops.
>>62841154>remote jobsHow is it living under a rock?
