A thread to talk about your kinks, where they came from, and other kinds of conversation you can't find anywhere but /d/. Images requested!Previous Thread >>11543760
seeing girls tied up in movies/tv shows as a kid made me feel funny
Role reversal and trap/tomboy pairingsRole reversal itself is pretty straightforward I think. Through most of elementary school and college, for whatever reason I made friends with and mostly hung out with a group of 5 girls that were all 2 or 3 years older than me. I didn't have any friends when I moved, and was getting bullied, and for whatever reason they took me in, and I was just always with them after that. So, I got really used to bigger girls around ke and following their lead. It wasn't ever like, any actual domination or anything, they were really nice and chill. But, it absolutely made me just really comfortable around that. Especially in middle/high school, where when I started and ran into some of them again, whatever teenage growth spurts had hit them and not me yet. Also got worse then 'cuz some people started trying to bully me for hanging out with them, and they were very protective. Sometimes thinking about it makes me a little teary, actually, I don't know what the fuck I did to deserve such amazing friends.But, so just being around older, larger, more confident women is just natural to me. It's comfortable.None of them were really tomboys though. One was BIG though. Like, 6"4' big as a senior. She had a head on most of our teachers. Unfortunately I'm pretty tall now, 6 feet flat. I never realized how astonishingly rare she was until later. My interest in tomboys, I think I've just always had. There's a little bit of overlap with my affinity for role reversal/whatever you'd say the previous thing is, where women being buff makes me feel smaller and more comfy. But, I just like the aestheric and vibe. While there's definitely some synergy, it's more just my two favorite things together.I don't know where my interest in traps came from, but at some point I found myself fapping to them. I don't think I was ever particularly feminine or anything, but, for whatever reason I like that arrangement. Trap being doted on by big lady.
>>11565933Feminzation/Sissification, Femdom, and raceplay. It's no secret where it came from. I was raised in a very conservative, male dominated, immigrant community. Ever since I was a kid I would hear stories from relatives about how much better we were than the "white people" similarly people would talk about the "fags" and how "they are all going to be sent to hell". So all of that stuff was taboo from an early age and I remember stumbling upon feminization and sissy porn at a young age unsupervised on the Internet and instantly connecting. As soon as I went off too college I entered the hook-up scene and never looked back. To my family I am the good obedient son who is studying engineering. Which I am. But I also enjoy dancing at fetish clubs wearing a belly dancer outfit, and getting railed by white dudes afterwards.
I only have one real fetish and that's for feet. My fucking mom is the original story of it because as a child she never left mine alone. Kissing them, biting them, tickling them. Then one time I was sucking on my gf toes and was really getting her big toe good and she started laughing so hard that she peed and begged that I let her to me and it was one of the most insane and intense feelings I've ever experienced. After that we would 69 toe suck a lot. The rest of my things are kinks. I got into doing anal to myself because I found way too much anal porn in a dumpster when I was way too young to understand what I was seeing. I'm into degradation and feminization because I went to a ghetto ass school where I was constantly picked on for my small size and pink features, because everyone there was black or Mexican. I'm into bondage as well, but I'm not certain where that came from but I've been locking myself up for a lot of years. Probably the porn mags there too. I remember not being able to do what any of the males were doing in the magazines, but I could mimic the women easily, and since they were so anal focused, I don't doubt there was bondage too. I'm only ashamed of my beastiality kink that I've never indulged, but was cultivated online, and again I was more interested in getting dicked by a horse that dicking one down. I get very aroused when I see animals have sex, or when they get aroused, and it's embarrassing. I definitely shouldn't have subjected my young brain to such insane shit. The rest of my kinks I'm pretty loud about but not that last one.
I sat behind my big titty goth bestfriend for years in highschool and she always wore stockings, sometimes lace stockings. I would always stare at her legs. She started shoe dangling and it eventually turned into a feet fetish.After we graduated we would hang out twice a month. I would pick her up directly from work and her feet would smell so good. She eventually got self concious of it, so I would lend her a pair of socks to wear while we hung out.Best believe I huffed the shit out of those every time
My biggest fetish is traps wearing really short skirts. On youtube there was a video of a girl dancing in a really short skirt with her ass showing. You couldn't see her face. But I remember thinking she was hot but also that I wanted to wear her clothes and dance and be looked at the same way. Fast forward and I've been a trap since and dress up at kinky parties in short skirts.
I was into diapers from a really young age. Like one of my first memories was me wishing I was a baby in a diaper commercial. Apparently years later my parents told me my potty training was really horrific, but I don't remember that.
>FeetNo ideaAs far as I know I've always had it. I remember being a toddler, no older than 4, and wanting to look at them.
I'm not sure how to describe it. Femboy sluttery? Maybe AGP behaviors? I dunno. I got Fire Emblem Fates when I was like 15, it had been out for a few years at that point. I looked up some of the porn, and tripped over the glut of femboy corrin art that exists.I got obsessed with the idea of playing as this complete free use slut, flirting with literally everyone, and taking cock on the regular. There's a level of separation from it, I feel. I don't want to do these things myself, but the idea of a guy who does turns me on so much. But, not from the perspective of wanting to be someone fucking him, either. I don't know exactly how to put it. Like, a masturbation exclusive kink?
>>11567499Samsara's Corrin is so fucking hot, looking up Fates porn and finding this image was the nail in the coffin on finally accepting I was bi / pan. The artwork Sam does of Corrin crossdressing (alongside my GF and her gay friends showing me Rocky Horror around the same time) also awakened my love of dressing up in slutty little lingerie around the house for her. She loves it but doesn't know I'm bi yet. There was also a Canadian web comic series called Menage a 3 I discovered as a horny "straight" teen that involves a ton of bi storylines that I couldn't get enough of but kept repressing past.
When I was a young boy I was watching cartoons on the family tv while everyone else was busy. During this time an old Porky Pig cartoon that I remember being black and white began playing. In it Porky goes to the lake to go fishing. However soon after a large fish sees his line and sends his own with a donut attached. Porky then grabs the donut and after biting it he's pulled down into the lake. The large fish then brings Porky to his home, removes his clothing with a knife and places him in the oven. After escaping, Porky the swims naked through the town and is seen by other large fish. Eventually he is caught by an octopus and spanked repeatedly. Nearly every fetish I have can be traced back to this one cartoon and I hate myself for it sometimes.
As a kid my older brother once had his girlfriend over, and I happened to walk by while she was in the bathroom and saw her peeing with the door open, her ass fully exposed. That caused a lifelong fixation with seeing girls pee for me.
>>11565933There was a girl at my middle school with a split tongue who cut herself and would show me her cut scars then try to bite me.Did lasting damage to my psyche and I turned into a weird bdsm person I regret not dating her to this day.
>>11567692I love this art so much. I just love how eager he is, and it's how i want to be more like. >She loves it but doesn't know I'm bi yetI'm sure she knows it anon. My wife encourages me to be more "bi" and to dress up cute. She assumed i was gay when I met her.
I started liking panty shots or up skirts by reading about starfires in teen titans episode sisters on the tv tropes radar page
>>11565943This exactly. Made me feel funny as a kid and then, as a teen, sprung forth as a damsel in distress, bondage, dominance fetish.Sailor Moon, Inuyasha, and Totally Spies were big offenders.
>>11567766I often wonder if this is a chicken or egg scenario. The creators had to have had these fetishes too, right? Just no one talked about them until the 90s?
>>11566356What is it about white guys that turns you on?
>>11568766I think so.There's probably at least a degree that was accidental, but overwhelmingly I assume most shows with kinks present were very deliberate. It's just nowadays, the average person is significantly more educated in kink, so more people are aware of it when it happens.
>>11567728She's also bi and a good portion of ourfriend group ended up being queer by complete chance out of nowhere after college so I'm sure she'd be okay with it but we'll get there someday I suppose. I also love to dress up slutty but don't have any real desire to *be* the feminine one in a scenario. I would love for her to bring in one of her friends like pic related though, something about forced bi content from the receiving end is insanely hot
>>11567692>Samsara's Corrin is so fucking hotAgreeI was already pretty certain I was some level of gay/bi/whatever, so it didn't help that particular case.But the obsession, man.
>>11568828>and a good portion of ourfriend group ended up being queer by complete chanceSameChuds say the world is like 30% gay or trans because of paranoia and fear of "them"I say the world is like 70% gay, queer, or trans because there is one straight, cis man remaining of the dozen or so people I have befriended between high school and college. And only like two were openly some level of queer at the start, and I'm not including them anyways.
>>11566356>As soon as I went off too collegeI had a twink roommate for my first year of college. No idea if he was on any level of hrt or anything, but was all into the fashion, crossdressed sometimes, ect. Osmosed a lot of femboy/trans memes through him. Watched porn with him a few times, but never did anything else. I was too shy. He was pretty hot, and years later I wish I had fucked him. I'm like 80% sure he was flirting with me and asking for it. But, alas.
>>11568828Aww that's really awesome anon! In my relationship my wife and I go out, myself dressed up, and she's the more conservative one. Though I have encouraged her to dress more as well, I don't think she even owned a skirt when I met her. Both of us are exhibitionists now in that extent. Though I don't think we'd ever do bi stuff with a third so much as tease it at clubs, the thrill is in the moment.
>>11568837Nah that's a very western viewpoint.I'm bi and I chose to be because I was lonely. In countries where men are allowed to be men and take wives, it's much lower.
>E3>Just got 3DS>https://youtu.be/eO8xe2AUY4c>"Oh boy, another installment of New Super Mario Bros" (actually enthused, not jaded or sarcasm)>0:35-0:46>"Huh. He's wearing a block like a mask. That's weird.">Time passes. Can't stop thinking about that item.>Wonder if I'll see it in other Mario games where Peach is playable>Find out in an Iwata Asks that Miyamoto didn't like the idea of the item, but Tezuka pushed to leave it in in the name of fostering younger talent>Probably not likely to see it in that form for a future Mario game.>Push for drawfags to draw it and try to act sneaky about it.>Later push for commissions for it>Sometimes crudely draw some characters wearing it>Learn some basic techniques and attempt to recreate it in Blender >Train a model based on the concept using some fanart images and Blender captures, so "biblically accurate" versions and fanart liberty based ones can be doneI think there are other folks into this who are into Sanic and stuff, 'cause I remember someone wanted that Sonic X plant girl wearing/having their head transformed into one. Still pretty niche though
>>11568945I remember this. I never understood why but I remember seeing so much porn of this.
>>11568947Oh that was probably me.I think I had this thing about trying to qualify my fetishes by trying to have a sexual angle for it at at the time. These days I'm just fine with just seeing blockhead girls and just general sex stuff. The need to compete or up the ante with an explicitly sexual angle isn't needed anymore, but I still appreciated exploring that path.
>>11568950So it was just one person? Because this was fucking everywhere for a short period of time. And none of it was hot. I don't understand at all.
>>11568962>Mention finding out more than one person got into it >"So it was just one person?"Yes, I see...
>>11565933>Third grade probably>Randomly see freaky Friday one weekend>Start wondering just how WIERD it would be to swap bodies with some of my female classmates>Eventually stumble upon one of those anime tg caption blogs that use to exist..>Wind up her after finding out there was a thread on body swapping..
>>11568966The vector was one person ya dingus. No one is talking about this shit anymore.
>>11568947>>11568962>>11568972You're talking out of your ass. It was never a big thing to the point it was getting spammed. I would know i'm one of 3 or 4 dudes that actually drew this shit. I imagine anon you're quoting is probably one of the guys that used to commission block girl art but moved on, maybe one of the casual artsits that posted his art once or twice, if he's the same guy that posted the CG render then yeah, he's a former artist. Nobody was spamming this shit except rando's like some autist that took some of my art and made a lora and advertised it on the freakshow board on guro chan. Now I can't account for you're dog shit taste (you're on /d/ I can safely lump you in with diaper faggots and BBC cuck porn). Heaven forbid a strong and independent woman with fat tits has her head trapped in a golden block based off a power up from a children's game property instead of projectile farting while masturbating her hyper futa cock. I didn't know autism and whimsy where outlawed.
>>11568972I just like what I like.Didn't know I needed a license by committee for that.
>>11565933I dont fucking know honestly.It just click with me. I like magical girls and tentacles for example,i'm pretty sure i can trace it back to me finding Card Captor Sakura cute when i was young but beyond that,i have no further explanation than "i was influenced by Internet porn in the late 2000s,more specifically Mahou Shoujo Erena as far as magical girls are concerned". I guess sometimes the explanation can be just boiled down to "Internet porn"
>>11569318Kind of a weird reverse one for me. I discovered tentacles early, super loved them, became a standard for a while. I think tentacles stopped me from realizing I was into bondage for a long time, since every time I saw bondage and got interested, I thought it was because it was reminding me of tentacles. Turns out I like bondage a lot more than I liked tentacles, I just didn't put 2 and 2 together because I'm a moron, until I was tied up years later.
>>11568851>>11568851The closest we got to that was a pop punk / alt party a friend hosted, my gf dressed me up in fish nets, black skinny jeans and a choker. She straddled me to apply guy liner and it took every ounce of strength to not fuck her there in front of our friends. Being dolled up both by and for her had me so lightheaded all night, especially when a bunch of our guy friends also got dressed up by their gfs.She's very protective and insecure so I doubt we'd ever add a third into the mix which is fine. I think adding a dildo out two into the mix while we play is more than enough but I can't lie that a few of her femboy/ trans friends are very tempting.I'm trying to open her up towards pegging and chastity / orgasm denial play but baby steps first. I used to read a ton of porn comics / hentai so a lot of these fetishes came straight from whatever I was reading at the time, mostly from InCase and Kinkymation
Futa ntr. My ex tranny girlbf kept cam performing for people online like a whore.
>>11569471Not gonna lieNon-femboys being dolled up in slutwear is so fucking hot
Willy Wonka because of what happened to Mike Teavee (have a fetish for being shrunk).Well on the personal side, I think it has to do with me watching both movies as a kid, and thinking, "Yeah, I'd have done the same thing as that boy." for both movies. Now, in the original movie, being shrunk to a couple inches tall, dangling in front of his giant mom's face before she stuffs him away in her purse? That already made me feel tingly at that age, even moreso when the film ended and we never saw him again, so I just assumed he stayed tiny forever (desu, I still kinda think that, because she fainted at the Taffy Puller idea so she clearly wasn't a fan of it). But then the 2005 version came out, I was still a kid when it did and I watched it, I still thought I would've done the same thing, and this time they sung lyrics that amounted to "You deserve this you little shit, and if you stay tiny forever, good, it serves you right." all the while squishing him. I watched both of these scenes, fully identifying with the kids and and thus feeling that the message was personally aimed at me. As if to say "Yes, you deserve to be shrunk and smacked around, I hope you stay tiny forever and humiliated you little brat."
>>11565933Probably watching Star Trek. The Borg scared the hell out of me as a kid and I guess that eventually morphed into a fascination with cyborgs, body mods and surgical scenarios.
>>11565933I'll come across something, often an image set, sometimes a lone image, doujin, animation, etc., and it just tickles something a certain way.I'll proceed to scour the web, searching for similar content that tickles me the same way, but usually without success. I'm not sure if it's because the scenario has to be very specific, or the art style has to be just right, or exactly why this is.
> be tween> love LEGO> seriously, I cannot stress how much kid me loved LEGO> always imagining building things and shrinking down and exploring/using them> puberty > Internet > Google just released Google images> search "lego"> look at pictures of LEGO> Google releases Google videos> search "lego"> lego animations > lego funny animations > funny animations > funny videos> funny commercials> No playlist, everyone just calls their commerical video "funny commercial"> watch third "funny commercial"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cWU_lATw1XQ> life changes forever. like so much forever. The pincer move of wanting to be small overlayed with a generic pretty lady absolutely fucked me. Now I'm about to make full time income make giantess art online.
>>11569603Same guy. I'd also add, I've never developed a LEGO kink, i.e., minifigs are unfuckable to me. They closest tingles I got in the playroom was maybe Roodaka, but that was entirely from how big she was compared to Matoran, and not that she's a gross, lizard-faced cyborg in heels. I'm very big on human women.
>>11569605Based, Bonkls are not for sexual no matter how many coomer rakhshi mocs people make.
>>11569605Roodaka did however make me at a young age realise I want women to dom me.
Like a lot of girls, I think I got into rape kinks because it took the guilt of thinking about sex stuff away. It wasn't my fault I was thinking sexy thoughts if I was forced into sex. I grew up in an extremely progressive atheist home, so it wasn't me repressing or anything. I just felt bad and being raped, tentacles, mind control, etc. took the guilt away.
>>11568795I'm an equal opportunity cock sucker. I have sucked and been fucked by all races. But the biggest turn on with white guys is the history of colonialism and the taboo of using that for my humiliation kink.>>11568847My roommate freshman year was raised in an even more conservative household than me. And was a total closet case that also flunked out. I'd deliberately egg him on though.
>>11569602I loved reading web comics as a teen so once I discovered there were porno ones it was game over. I loved finding an artist I liked and running through their entire works. As a sheltered kid I found so many new kinks; harems where the man is used for sex and public sex being the first major ones. It's weird though, most of them don't blur outside of fiction into my real life, I think the drawn scenarios are sometimes way hotter than the actual physical scenarios
>>11569488The deal was that the girlfriends all got to play dress up with their mostly straight, hickish boyfriends. Seeing that many men """force""" femmed in fishnets and makeup (and some in dolphin shorts) distracted me all night
>>11570074There is certainly a divide in preferences between fantasy (unrealistic drawn content) and real life for me. It's interesting to think about why this is the case. Though, I suppose this is a silly thing for me to say on a board where almost everything is unrealistic or impossible.
>>11569471I'm surprised she didn't dress you up more. Like in a skirt and other girl stuff. My wife and I pretty much share a wardrobe now and usually what doesn't fit her because of a Amazon's shitty sizing I take. Coincidentally we also met at a goth night at a club. She originally tried to get me with one of her gay friends but found out I'm a femboy who leans straight. Things moved on from there and now we're married! A strapon i think she might actually like. If she has trans and femboy friends I think she'd appreciate it some. At least she'll be understanding. If she was doing your makeup shes into it. It's possible she wants to do more too but is shy to ask.
Dubcon, rape, forced lesbianismWhen I was in college, my roommate was very, very sexual, and constantly hit on me, groped me, pushed me into her crotch, and stuff like that. I'm not gay, other women actually kinda disgust me, but something about being forced into it is hot as fuck to me. And as much as I hated it, I wish she'd done more to me, since the odds of anything like that ever happening again are almost none. No interest whatsoever in a guy doing this either.
>>11570403>pushed me into her crotchHow did that happen?
Conjoined twins. In middle school health class, teacher brought up actual cases of Conjoined twins as and example and thought it was a good idea to ask if anyone had questions. Some guy in my class wanted to ask how they had sex.I got curious after school and found Gammatelier’s and Multibreasts’s site and it all went downhill from there
>>11570399I don't really have much desire for the proper women's clothing oddly enough, just the lingerie. I also come from a pretty conservative background so I think she's taking it pretty slow on that front.We have the strap on already funny enough because I had expressed interest in doing it, it's just a bit of a hassle with prep and everything so we haven't had a chance to use it. I showed her the cage I had bought but she didn't seem overly interested in it. (I've been having a blast wearing it and forcing myself to cum with a vibrator while watching Hypnotube PMVs though)She's very kinky as well (breeding and CNC being her main ones) but she has a lower sex drive at times and isn't really comfortable with "taking the lead" in the bedroom because she's so submissive
Looking back on it, I was always bound to end up with a hermaphodite fetish.I was pretty much always curious what it would be like for someone to be male and female at the same time, even as far back as a young kid using Kid Pix to cut and paste half of the boy sticker and half of the girl sticker together. As soon as I stumbled across my first taste of herm porn, it just instantly clicked.
If you're ever in a debate with a shitlib who doesn't believe homosexuality is caused by external factors just show them this thread
I found my father's fleshlight when I was in late middle school while I was home alone. Apparently he had just used it and not cleaned it because when I slid in my cock got covered in his cum. Literally heaven. My father's cum was the best lube I've ever used. I love sloppy seconds and have since that point.
>>11571389Oh definitely. Anyone who says being queer isn't a choice is probably lying. Unless you popped out the womb a fag I'm confident most get groomed via encountering fetish shit. I know that's how I ended up sucking cock on a leash
I think that i said that story in similar thread years ago but hey, might as well do it again. I have huge "bad end" fetish, basically all manners of party wipes and any scenarios where female heroine ends up in peril. And im certain that the reason behind it is....illustrated childrens book. The book im talking about is "Bosco delle meraviglie" - a beautiful illustrated book with lots of stories about animals and inchlings. Everything is cute and wholesome until the fairy part of book happens. To put it simply, all but one fairies met bad end in one end or another. One got frozen, other forever shrunk, other died when transformed into animal and another was turned into mermaid and married to king of lake. Basically all were kinda those cautionary tales with grim ending. I was very sensitive kid and that part really scarred me in otherwise very wholesome book. Now there were few other things (like petrification in neverending story or trapped in painting from "witches") but i genuinely think that all of my kinks more or less come back to that childhood trauma.Years later as teenager i discovered doujins and basically every tittle that would put heroine in peril facing bad end would always carch my interest. Tentacles, petrification, assimilation and pretty much any sort of fantasy bad end always resonated with me, especially those involving groups of women. Probably like things like petrification and variety of transformations like sextoys etc because no matter how many years go im still not fan of Ryona or Guro.Its weird but i think that its being uneasy with it is what really turns me on with all those bad ends.
I used to spend a lot of time with my aunt during my childhood and teenage years, she is 10y older than me and we were always arguing, looking for ways to tease the other, and so on and so forth. At some point, when I was still a kid, I discovered that touching her ass and, specially, tits angered her so of course, as soon as things got heated I grabbed whatever part of her body I had closer and laughed at her. I got slapped, scolded and grounded several times because of it, but it was funny.But slowly things started to get hard for her because as I grew up I started to understand what I was doing, also I got stronger, taller.. so she started to hit me in the balls in order to stop me. I'm not talking soft hits, I mean knees, kicks, punches, squeezing, all while she insult and screamed at me... the thing was, the more I endured the more time I had her tits and ass in my hands because you can't attach and defend at the same time (and went for both of us) so I basically stood there stoically, withstanding the punishment, to touch her tits and ass as long as I could. She had to feel my boner many times because I remember being rock hard during the fights. She never said a word to my mom btw, it also never went further than that, except a couple of times she grabbed a hammer and threatened to kill me I guess.Sooo... I'm into ballbusting, trampling, getting my nipples clamped, sounding although I try to do that very sporadically... combine that with some verbal abuse and I'm shooting ropes in a matter of minutes... Not bad as kinks go, very easy to get any women into it, lots of material and easy to experiment by myself, although it never hits the same way when is self inflicted.
>>11571682>i have fetishes from assaulting my auntAnon what the fuck
>>11571683I'm pretty sure she enjoyed it insome way, because I remember several instances of her interrupting me while I was studying or getting into my bed while taking a nap, turning of the bathroom lights while I was taking a shower... And she knew what was coming next. Also teased me alot because I didn't have a gf, saying I had no game other than assaulting her by surprise, which is true, it happened from time to time.
>>11571692She threatened to kill you with a hammer.Do you have any psychiatric problems ir diagnosis? I'm curious.
>>11571704I was 15 when that happened. I just came back from summer camp, horny as hell after 2 weeks of watching girls in swimming suits, shorts and shirts trying to hide their perky tits, playing games with them in which our bodies clashed and rubbed against each other, and not a chance to masturbate in those 14 days, I'm 32yo and I still remember feeling the warmth of the cameltoe of a girl for the first time, in the back of my neck, while she rode me during some stupid game.Anyway I think that was the first time she realised she couldn't beat me easily, so she panicked.I can't remember the reason behind the second one, but it was around that time so probably the same.And no, other than getting pleasure from getting hit and berated by women I'm fine. I dated a psychologist, also got a test to get my job.
>>11571389I believe it's more that significantly more people are some degree of queer than most people think, and external factors can help bring those out.I think the default human response to sexual attention from people we like is "yes please", and people with a strong enough preference to say "no, thank you" are actually pretty rare by comparison. Society has just shaped culture in a way where the breeding unit has been oberemphasized, a d discouraged anything that would disrupt that
>>11572126People can be predisposed to a behavior upon receiving a certain stimulus, sure. I'm not disputing that. Alcoholism for example, some people are more innately predisposed to it than others. "More people are alcoholics than we realize, they just haven't drank enough to realize it yet." is a logically inconsistent thing to say though. Especially when a predisposition isn't a guarantee they'll fall into that behavior, it just increases the odds that they do. Or is being gay different?
>>11572194It's not different. If you're raised in a society where everyone's gay, you're more likely to be gay. See: Greeks, Romans, remote tribes that suck off their elders, etc.
>>11567702Did that make you gay?
Pokephilia/xenophilia/teratophilia.No idea. I remember getting some of my first boners to Tyranitar in pokemon crystal when I was I think 8. I knew what sex was pretty early, so knew what was happening at the day care, so would put my female tyranitar in, with all sorts of stuff. I think it was a pretty reasonable walk through porn from there. Thinking about Tyranitar was the first memory I have of this, I don't know if anything incited it. It absolutely got worse after the Latias movie, though, where the implications of a monster that actually wanted sex fully settled into me. I can say, I was female only until I was 16, and found trap porn. Then wanted to bottom for males, too. That's a pretty easy development to square away, at least. But, as far as I know, my initial interest and attraction to monsters is entirely original and organic. I've loved them for as long as I've had an awareness of sex and romance, and had sexy monsters to look at. If there ever was an inciting event, it was so early I don't remember.>>11571389No idea if it was chicken or egg, but I absolutely went from never thinking about it or considering it, to very, very interested in the span of a year due to porn.
>>11572542Romans didn't think about sexuality and genders that way, for them the most important thing was who was in a position of power and who was the one in a position of weakness; after that is was social class, in the third place was age difference because kids and young women were not "people" and you could do whatever with them as long as the person in charge allowed it, same with slaves of course, and only then genders. As long as you had a family you could have and entire harem of slaved femboys behind the walls of your house and people would describe and judge you by your position, who was your father, class, riches, accomplishments, then wife (and her fathers family if it was more important than yours) then sons (if you have any) and maybe as a rumor they will point out that you only have young male slaves serving at your house.
>>11572597Even more proof its easily a choice or a societal influence.
>>11572583>due to pornSame thing happened to me. Furfag traps were too convincing. Seeing them drawn so feminine but so happy to be slutty made me want to be them. Went from being 100% straight to my first sexual encounters being sucking off guys while wearing a skirt and stockings from amazon. I figured I couldn't find a gotten so I'd pretend to be one for guys. Porn was the catalyst for sure.Never had any want to become a tranny though thank god.
>>11572646Find a girl* or gotten* a girl is what I meant. But yeah, it was a choice.
>>11565933I grew up in a very religious household—the kind where you’d get scolded for doing anything even remotely feminine. Combine that with unsupervised YouTube use—where I’d watch fetish videos of men transforming into women—and the fact that a male cousin had a habit of teasing me by showing me his erect penis, and it clearly turned me into a huge faggot. However, I kept it all repressed until my teenage years, when I finally understood the sexual undertones of it all. At first, I denied being even remotely gay and watched straight porn, but things kept escalating—moving from muscular women, femdom, pegging, and futanari—until, almost overnight, I found myself masturbating to porn of a femboy getting penetrated by a Black guy with a huge cock, all while wearing my older sister’s old clothes from when she was my age. Since that day, I’ve fantasized about a muscular, two-meter-tall man with a huge cock raping me, making me his sex bitch, and injecting me with estrogen so I’d grow tits.
>>11565933>CNC/Generally being "used"I just like the feeling of being sexually violated and being someone's plaything.
I wish I had a concrete explanation but I don't really have one. This fetish also extends to masked women like with gas mask and other military gear.
Hyper breasts, especially a "full body" of a woman with breasts bigger than the entire body which is basically it's a bust shot, and also standing from behind showing a relatively small butt.Dunno how to describe it concretely. A long time ago, during a break from studying for school exams, I discovered an artwork of a certain OC (Kyoui, if I recall correctly) showing her gargantuan endowments entirely exposed while appears to be clothed, and then an artwork of Semahiro's OC drawn by other person which has different kind of gigantic breasts. I got fascinated by them ever since, alongside browsing art of woman of average height with the breasts at least 2.5 times bigger than the head.Gonna be honest, I can't help but imagine at how hyper-breasted woman get fully clothed while the breasts are bigger than her entire body, even though I don't mind her showing some cleavage. That, and how do she "stand" with breasts that big.
I have a few>Anal (receiving)I remember washing myself down there when I was 13 or so and finding out that my finger could go in. Spent the following year exploring what I could do with it, then it became something I'd occasionally add to my masturbation. Nowadays I get pegged semi regularly by my awesome fiancee>SphI remember stumbling into the topic of penis size as a kid and not really understanding it, but being sorta fascinated by it. Years later I showed my dick to a girl on Omegle and she laughed and said "it's as small as a Chinese child's". She was obviously trolling cause I'm actually quite above average, but the thing weirdly turned me on. I think it was mainly the fact that I didn't expect it and was left completely "disarmed" and with no control of the situation.>Femdom and adjacent kinksThough in practice I do it rarely, it's a constant in most of my fantasies. It started with the sph, but in general I think I like femdom and adjacent fetishes because they usually involve subverting the usual gender roles. That's the one element that's present in 99% of my fetishes and fantasies, cause honestly it's not that I don't like being a man, nor do I particularly mind most of the expectations that come with it, but I don't like that there are expectations on me because of my genitals. So yeah, if sometimes my girl feels like spanking me or I feel like making the whole session about her pleasure or if she wants me to wear her underwear for her, then I'm all for it and I'm into it mainly for the sake of being a contrarian kek. Like literally the knowledge that I'm not "supposed" to do what I'm doing turns me on. Anyway my first experiences were on Omegle again Right after getting my dick laughed at, I started experimenting with letting girls control me. This lead mostly to a whole lot of anal kek(Cont.)
>>11573383>cum eatingTried it for the first time in the aforementioned Omegle sessions. One girl made me lick my own cum off the floor, another one off my computer chair. The depravity of it all was quite hot. Later I tried a few faproulettes, though they're a bit meh. Then I started doing it with my girl. Licking it off her body or kissing her after a facial is sooo hot, I feel so close to her. Like I'm tasting the proof of our mutual pleasure. 10/10, though the taste is not that good.>Eating pussyStarted when I first ate my fiancee out. Apparently it was her first time, and she came SO HARD from it. To this day it's probably my favourite sexual activity. Partly because she likes it so much, but also because her pussy is fucking beautiful, and I love feeling it on my face, having my whole field of view dominated by it and feeling her grind against me and getting extra wet as she cums on my tongue. >Cuck (only as a fantasy, would never ever do it irl)Basically to me it's the complete extremization of a femdom sph scenario. Hot in theory, would be an emotional mess in practice. Doesn't stop me from falling to it sometimes. Originated from a few experiences I had with girls online. A couple girls who started by humiliating my dick, slowly moved to dirty talk about comparing it with other (bigger) men, and then to various cuck-like scenarios. I'd initially just humor them, but In the end I started understanding the appeal.>Orgasm denial/controlAcquired taste I got from all the times I had women tell me what to do kek. First real experience was doing NNN while I girl I had met on soc teased me he whole time. Then once the month was over she had a whole long term denial game planned, but we never ended up doing it(Cont.)
>>11573386These are the most recent ones>Overheard sexLast summer as I wa son holiday I heard a girl getting absolutely destroyed in the hotel room next to mine at 3am. Was incredibly hot. New fetish instantly acquired.>CrissdressingMore like I fetish I'm acquiring from my gf. I don't really care about it, but she's into it and it makes me feel really sexy to see her so enthusiastic about me wearing a pair of panties.
>>11573007My fetish is basically the total opposite of what you're describing. I do like girls but I almost go ferally horny thinking about gradually turning some girly fag like you in to my estrogenized fucktoy, beating your little limp pp with my hard cock and hearing you beg me to cum inside of you and eliminate you as a male
>>11565933Bondage. Impact play. submissive. Mental domination.Terror play.The origin of those can all come back to my dad being unable to stop beating me with a fucking belt. Being forced to fucking assume the position, take multiple wacks, sometimes all the way up to 20. When I fucked up my mom would taunt me about how when my dad got home she was going to tell him and I was going to catch another belt beating. I remember one time he was fucking going at it, I was bare assed and the buckle came out of his hand and gave me a huge fucking bruise. It was fucking gigantic, like one whole side of my butt was black and blue and it even bled. I don't know wtf they were thinking. I know I was a bit of a fuckup but I don't think I should've been beaten like that. Or taunted. Or forced to submit, and expose myself. Fucking crazy thinking about it now. I had an older sister who, pretty much like every older sister does to her brother one day and did me all up like a princess one day, in her old clothes that fit. I remember specifically the buckles on the shoes... The buckles around the ankles on some shoes, or across the top of my foot. I thought it was especially kinky to be belted into a girl's shoe. So of course I started doing it on my own. She also locked me into a few things as well, and wouldn't let me out, even though I have a touch of claustrophobia. Now I'm all super fucking kinky, getting tied up and choked fucked and suffocated. Smacked around, made fun of, femme'd, tortured, terrorized. >>11573627I'm glad you liked and saved that pic! I prompted it :)
>>11573627Whoops. Meant to post you this pic.
>>11572548It did awaken me to being man handled so in a way Porky Pig made me gay.I feel I should clarify I don't hate the fetishes just how I got them.
I got into belly stuffing/vore from a wombo combo of the 1973 Charlotte's Web movie with the rat (which also probably pivoted into liking ratgirls), and the hot alien women from Men in Black 2. I had those movies on cassette tapes when I was really young and would rewatch those scenes like a hundred times till my cassette player gave out one day. I'm not sure about Charlotte's Web, but I know for a fact I'm not the only one who's kink spawned specifically from MB2 vore.
>>11573627Please tell me you have a big dick. And on a side note, I always find it a nice touch when an artist remembers that men have a perineal raphe; I find it odd that so many NSFW artists forget that detail when it's just a matter of drawing a line.>>11573636This image turns me on more.
>>11573713I prompted that pic in NAI. and I'm super proud to see it reposted by someone, even though I didn't draw it. NAI is pretty sweet.
>>11573718Could you give me the artist's name?
>>11572643No, again, genders were almost irrelevant for them as a concept in society except for legal reason (who is in power, who owns who, who uses what name, etc), saying they were gay is like pointing to someone using a fleshlight today and reaching the conclusion that they must be sexually attracted to latex. The reality is 99% are just using a something to empty their balls without thinking about it.
>>11573722I'm not sure if I'm being trolled or not, so 10/10 on that. Novel AI is the artist. I just prompted Novel AI to draw me the image.
>>11568766>>11568827I think there's just a degree of natural appeal to helpless women.
>>11573750It didn't seem like AI to me, but thanks for letting me know anyway.
>>11573861No problem. I didn't mean to trick you.
I can trace all my crossdressing, feminization, and body modification fetishes to one gender bending smut website I found at an early age.The irony is that I grew fat tits, dress as a woman, and have accidentally fucked up the sexual preferences of no shortage of men and women, but it's not erotic to me. I still need to get off with people's written and drawn fantasies about it, even though I basically live the dream.
>>11573963Got any proof of this?
>>11571608>other forever shrunkAny chance you got a digital copy of that book anywhere?
I honestly got pretty blindsided by my fetishes. I took an internship early in university and got paired up with a fairly hot woman who was a few years older than me as a mentor. We kept in contact after my internship finished, but it wasn't until after university that things got more intimate - albeit in a way I didn't expect.She told me she was super into BDSM and was looking for a new sub. While I wasn't the most masculine guy, the sub stuff didn't appeal to me (yet), but I was dumb and horny enough to jump at the chance to do anything with a sexy woman. Turns out she had me pegged (no pun intended) from the start.Since getting involved with her, I've gotten into BDSM, chastity, denial, feminization, SPH, anal (receiving), cuckolding, and raceplay. Probably the hottest and most insidious aspect about her is her ability to make me gradually accept and eventually outright desire something. Raceplay and interracial stuff are the most recent examples of that. Never thought I'd be excited about being verbally abused by my mistress while sucking a black guy's dick, but here I am.
>ExplosivesIts very weird but dynamite and bombs turn me on. The earliest parts came from cartoons where dynamite and those classic round bombs. The lit fuse, sparks, smoke, ticking tension, and the build up to the explosion really stuck in my head. Especially perils involving explosives. Always imagined I was the one getting blown up in the cartoons lol. As I got older, that fascination gradually became connected with arousal. I didn't know why. I think its the danger of it that made it thrilling for me. Turn on from the imagined risk, suspense, helplessness, and impending explosion. Now I write stories of me in peril situations where I get blown up. Also stories with no peril and I'm using a stick of dynamite as a dildo lol.All fantasy of course, I don't wanna blow up irl.
>>11574241>Probably the hottest and most insidious aspect about her is her ability to make me gradually accept and eventually outright desire something. Raceplay and interracial stuff are the most recent examples of that. Never thought I'd be excited about being verbally abused by my mistress while sucking a black guy's dick, but here I am.Hot. Sounds like a lot of fun anon. I get what you mean, for me it's the same with my fiancée. She's not even THAT dominant, but anytime she mentions wanting to try something new I'm instantly into it. I can't help it, for example in the past I thought wearing women's clothes was kinda cringe, but then she made me try on her panties once and I was already hard the moment I got into them. Now she wants me to wear stockings for her in the future, and I'm over here secretly consulting online catalogs trying to think which ones would look better on me and getting hard to the thought of her reaction. I think she could get me into anything if she wanted.Anyway, out of curiosity, how long did it take for your mistress to get you into ALL of that stuff? Sounds like you went pretty extreme kek.
>>11574241>>11574291For me the wrongness of it all is what is the turn on for me. I don't know where that comes from though.
>>11574291My Mistress is extremely dominant, but she's built up the trust and loyalty that control requires. At first, she didn't really mention wanting to try anything outright - she'd just worked a small element of it into our sessions. From there, she'd incorporate more, increasingly overt, elements of the kink as I got used to them.To use your example of women's clothing, my Mistress didn't start by ordering me into a dress or panties right away. Instead, she introduced them as items of convenience, or little extras added to rewards. Waiting for the washing machine after a session? Mistress gave me some of her old shirts or pants to wear. Surprise night stay? Mistress had some boyshort panties and women's pyjamas to wear to bed. Did I complete a task well? Mistress would use silk panties to grind against my cock, cup my balls during a hand/blow job, or run against my skin while using a vibrator on my cage.>how long did it take for your mistress to get you into ALL of that stuff?About three or four years.While she doesn't need to slow-roll things anymore (I trust that whatever it is will make her happy and make me feel good), she still usually does. She slow-rolled the interracial stuff, for instance. Started with showing me porn with more black guys in it and introducing some new "darker" dildos into our sessions before building from there.>>11574388Turns out I'm just a massive sub that gets off on humiliation and serving people. I didn't think it was "wrong" starting out, but I didn't think it was for me either. That was until I realized I've never been more aroused or satisfied in my life.
>>11565933I have a lot of fetishes that turn me on depending what I'm in the mood for but I'd say the biggest ones I have is inflation and anal. I never really mix those, it's whatever I'm feeling particularly turned on to at the moment is what I'll indulge into>inflation I don't know if there was a specific moment in time for me that was the determining moment that made me like inflation but it likely was cartoons from the early 2000s. I know I watched the re-work of Willy Wonka at a drive in move with my family as a kid. I know that is a really big one (pun not intended) for a lot of inflation fetishists but I don't think that was the big one for me. I also know of Frankie from Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends turned me on at the time but I didn't really know what that was. I just had a fixation on her in that episode where she goes nuts and has that massive belly at the end from her drinking so much milk and eating all those cookies. There's a lot of shows that have that "goofy" moment where some character comically inflates and it's likely there where I got such a boner for inflation. I love IRL inflation, bloating, stuffings, enemas, hentai, cum inflation, drawings, most things with inflation/suddenly growing I really like. Bellies in general especially on women are just so hot when big, bloated and stretched so tight to me.
>>11574435>analThis also doesn't have a really determining moment for me since I never found the concept of anal outside of porn or "adult" conversations. As a kid/teen you kinda wonder how the fuck you would find enjoyment from playing with your ass since it just seems so odd. However from loose conversations from people online here and there talking about it, saying how it felt so good made me wonder. I also recall Mr. Garrison from South Park, being the fag he is, would talk about gay sex and I told myself that if it's that good, then I have to try it. I got some small purple vibrator from Spencer's when I was like 13 or 14 and some other "beginner" sex toys. I loved it, pressing it against my prostate and all the wonderful nerves inside getting rubbed and massaged. From there on out to this day I slowly started amassing more and larger dildos and other sex toys. I now have spent over 2000 dollars on many dildos alone and I am at the point where the largest toys most websites that sell dildos don't sexually please me. My Flared XL Chance is my warmup toy when i've gone a few months without playing with my butt to put my "level" of assplay into comparison.
>>11574425>Turns out I'm just a massive sub that gets off on humiliation and serving people. I didn't think it was "wrong" starting out, but I didn't think it was for me either. That was until I realized I've never been more aroused or satisfied in my life.I'm on the same road. I got lit up over in /anal/ for saying >I was stuck in a long term relationship with a vanilla girlI didn't mean stuck, that was a poor choice of words. I meant I didn't know what I liked, and I never felt satisfied in bed, even though we had sex constantly. She's long gone now, and I figured out my kinks. I'm very submissive, and I am into bondage, torture both mental and physical, being restrained, dehumanized, and taken over edges and to places I never even knew existed. I've found both men and women to do these things to me, but men do it a little better and it's genuinely scarier, and that's a thing I like. Women are wonderful too, but I like fighting a little bit, or even a lot and being forced, or forced to surrender. And that adds a bit for me. Last night I had a predator pressuring me into a late night throat fuck while I have family in town staying at my house, and I almost snuck out for it, but decided that was a thing I didn't need to have to explain.
girls kept farting at/near/on me to humiliate me my whole fucking childhood so now i can only usually cum if there are farts involvedi have a feeling at least some of them knew what they were doing. some of them even did it while they were flirting with me. people are fucked up
When I was young I'd get tickled a lot by older female relatives. Aunts and grandmas obviously cut that out when I was about 8. But the older cousins who were like 5-10 years older kept it up til I was 17. Felt like every time I saw my extended family they'd slip in some opportunity to tickle the shit out of me.Saying hello? They'd spider my sides. Have I not said hello yet? Sneak up behind me and tickle my armpits.At a restaurant? Try to dig into my neck or squeeze my knees.Sitting in a room bored? They'd lift my shirt up and make a game out of tickling my upperbody til I peed. Walking in public? Pinching my nipples.Hanging with my friends? Demonstrate to them how ticklish my tummy is.At basically every opportunity I'd be tickled everywhere in ranges from teasing to torturing.It was strangely emasculating and domineering. My belly houses all my ticklish areas so they'd target that the most. But ifteb they'd try to expose it to get at my skin. That added on to the embarrassment, especially at 13/14 when I was chubby. My navels my most ticklish spot so they'd tease me a lot by trying to find it and wiggle fingers in there, or pinning me down and drilling into it. Hated it. The tickling, the downtalk, the humiliation. At first I was 100% ler, wanting to tickle girls to the degree I was. But I think I'd like to be tickled as much, if not more. I think I can live with a non-ticklish GF if she can at least dish it out well. Feels like most of these stem from being bullied by girls huh.
Encasement/mummification.Gore/ero-guro/body horror.Yaoi/AAP/AHE.Sense deprivation.Blood.Fictophilia.Insects.And many others.All traceable to growing up an autist in a town run by dykes who did everything in their power to make my schooling and upbringing as miserable as possible.Yes it's me from the last thread
Weight gainGirl from my school went from a complete stick to basically second from right in pic. I still remember how I was standing next to her in line at school cafeteria and noticed that her fat soft belly was resting on her tray and wobbled slightly every time she moved. Hot as shit.
>>11574646I never did care much for drugged sex until I met my current ficto husbando and soon after found this page of him, which I think was part of how I fell in love with him. What really sold me on him was seeing him act yandere in canon but I digress. I love imagining loading him up on all sorts of mind- and sense-altering drugs and basically turning him into a real life alien
>>11569741Dating a really hypersexual shy girl with this slate of fetishes got me into all of them, but the fetish is the girl having the fetish. The actual content can be meh, the girl being hopelessly addicted is the core. The girl gooner is my dream wife, I'd lock her up and toy her into a puddle or set up her sessions for her, then wait until she's mindlessly begging
> Outercourse / pretty much anything clothes on with barely any skin showing> Also sadismI was supreme normie till like, the 6th-ish grade prob. lmao. I so didn't like anything, was grossly turned off by everything.. i could hardly even stand looking at naked bodies man. Explicit sexual things were just errrrgh . Then one day, I was watching an anime, and there was this dude getting his arms cut off. He was like, a sarcastic, cocky mf, so seeing him crying and screaming like None of that ever existed made me think. Eventually, I realized, damn. Im turned on by seeing cute guys (extremely twisted definition of cute) making cute expressions (also extremely twisted definition of cute). I loveeeed to see guys who like, aren't emotionally honest get their comeuppance? They don't even need to be full on sobbing, just a bit of hesitance or faltering does it for me. Then this in turn introduced me to the woooonderful world of Clothed Sex. Also, just anything clothed. in general. clothes on skin is erotic. I love seeing little slips of skin or underwear under what should be fully covered. dunno. though i still abhor looking at IRL naked bodies, LMAO . and somewhat even fictional. something about actual explicit sex and full on nudity just grosses me out.
have several, such as conjoined, body swap, gender swap and body part swap.All of their origins are cringyConjoined is from one scene on Shorts, a movie (had to look it up) where the father and mother of some kid end up conjoined by a wish.Genderswap maybe from the scene where Shaggy changes gender on the movie, another one I remember is from the Wizards of Waverly place, when the kid actor got changed and they played it off as a spell went wrong.Body part swap is probably one of the oldest I remember, got weirdly excited playing with toys with their bodies changed around, like changing heads, arms or legs, even happened later on, with Halo megablocks figures.
So I found an online kink test the other night. I figured out of all the threads, this one would benefit from it most. Feel free to ignore me, and I hope I'm not breaking a rule by posting it, but I thought it was pretty cool. Kinktype.appI'm an Abyss sub account to that. I found it somewhat insightful for an online test.
>>11574784How do you feel about encasement? Latex and such?
>>11574952NTA but bucket list is to be walked around on all fours in a bitchsuit.
>>11574952It exists, for sure. That's how I feel, frankly don't feel much of anything towards it LOL. Im much more into just actual clothing(?)
My parents gave me a girl's name. A very girly one for some reason. And at the time a very popular name for girls. Everyone, and I mean everyone made fun of me about it. I've gotten my coworkers and friends into trouble with their ladies because my name was in their phone. I am certain it has something to do with my crossdressing, and my degredation kinks.
>>11575221Are you a cute girl (boy) at least?
>>11575232People have said that. I have been mistaken for a girl a few times when not dressed as one. And catcalled loads of times. I'm very short.The most prolific time was I was at work. The job required me to wear a uniform, and I had long hair. But my uniform was just khakis and the polo shirt they gave me. Pretty much every few days or week or so I would be moved to a new place and meet entirely new people, work with them, and then go to the next place. This was a nice hotel in Denver. Like one of their finest at the time. And I'm assigned a guy to shadow me and open doors for me and take me to places I have on a list, but don't know where they're at in the building. He went on break, so I did too and was hanging out with my supervisor, sorta near the engineering staff that's taking their break. Suddenly they all break out in historical laughter. Like loud enough for me and my supervisor to wonder wtf was so funny. I got the feeling they were laughing at me. After the break was over me and the guy assigned to me got back to going through everything and I couldn't help but to ask what everyone was laughing about. He didn't want to tell me at first, but I badgered him into it. I guess one of the younger guys there saw me from just a distance a bunch and became enamored. Thought I was a girl. He started asking about me, and the other guys knew I wasn't but fucked with him a bunch. Told him my girl name and fucked with him even more, and then told him I was a dude. And that's when they all started laughing. This thread is therapeutic. Sorry for the blogpost.
>>11575247I understand anon. I've been mistaken for a girl a lot because I'm skinny and have long hair. Especially from afar. I once had a truck full of guys catcalling me while I was working. I turned around and they all went silent and pretended none of them said anything.I crossdress a lot outside if I'm going to a club and while I don't believe i pass I do get a lot of looks. One of my friends I go out with sometimes told me a lot of guys kept trying to look up my skirt. Which desu made me really happy. You have to play the cards youre dealt, and if that means we get to be cute girls (boys) then I really don't think that's all a bad thing.
Vore and GiantessEarliest memories I can recall that suggests these were my fetish was when Goku got eaten by the snake princess when I was like 8 years old. Not long after, I saw when Naruto got eaten too and the Pokemon episode when Sabrina became huge and played with everyone like dolls. From there, the occasional game would have elements of vore and/or size that I would be drawn to; such as Natural Selection (Onos), Rampage, and Kameo. Later in life I found out I like the two fetishes combined (vore and giant women). It wasn't until I was like 16 or 17 that I found out that vore was the formal name of the fetish.
>>11575272>You have to play the cards youre dealt, and if that means we get to be cute girls (boys) then I really don't think that's all a bad thing.Oh yeah, I've accepted it and embraced it. I seriously don't know why my parents gave me a girl's name though. The rest is just genetics. My mom is very small and petite compared to my dad and I took after her. When I was a kid I always wanted to be big and strong like my dad. But then as time passed, I realized I would never make up the difference in our height. I'm slightly taller than my mom so I guess that's something.
>>11575323The name might be annoying but I'm really glad you embraced it. I hope you really go all out with the crossdressing aspect. I started to and it's got me appreciating myself a bit more. Not in some tranny way but instead of hiding myself for not being manly I accepted it. And it got me a girl somehow so it's really just been net positive.
>>11575247>I have been mistaken for a girl a few times when not dressed as oneSaaameI constantly get ma'am-d when I'm out with my mom or sister, and sometimes while alone. I'm definitely not small, 6 feet flat, but, something about my face reads feminine, especially when I'm around other women. Unfortunately(?) that's not something that's particularly interesting to me. I'm sure someone would kill for what I got, but it's mostly wasted on me.
For me it started with oral vore. I still enjoy that kink. But now I am 100% for unbirth porn more.Specifically mini macro material.So not same size UB. But shrunken man living inside a pussy or womb rather.
>>11575346>Not in some tranny way but instead of hiding myself for not being manly I accepted itAlso not a tranny, although I get accused of it often here. And the acceptance of it was definitely a warm feeling. For a lot of years I feel like I tried to compensate it other ways. You probably got a girl because of the confidence dropping the mask brings. >>11575402>I'm definitely not small, 6 feet flatMust be nice! There is something especially emasculating about not being able to reach something on a shelf made for humans to use. Or having to tippy toes to reach something you want and not being able to get it. My sister's husband is a giant and it's crazy when we hang out, I didn't realize how small I was until I went out drinking and goofing around with a guy well over 6'. I fell in love with my best friend and I can remember the moment it happened exactly and it was because he was emasculating me. And obviously we got along in every other way as well, that's why we were besties. We were inseparable. He had a gf, and she tried to set me up with her bestie so we could all be besties together but ofc my friend just ended up fucking her too, and getting rid of the first gf.. I thought that was ironic because I always liked her a lot. Much more than who she was trying to hook me up with, but I guess she didn't feel the same way at all, because I never heard from her after that. Even though I was a little miffed he scooped up the girl I was trying to get with, I liked his as a person so much it didn't bother me. In fact that girl much later on tried to have sex with me some drunken night but I couldn't fuck my best friends gf so I didn't, and we never mentioned anything to him about it. One day, the day I fell in love with him we were drinking together and playing video games. We drank hard when we were together for whatever reason. We didn't need it to have fun, but it definitely was a thing we did. So we're bantering as usual.. shit, 1/2 blog I guess.
>>115754412/2I've always remembered women talking about the moment they fell in love with someone. I have had a woman describe the moment she fell in love with me and I always thought it was some hooey. But no. It's not. So I get up to use the bathroom and before I knew what was happening he was flying across the room at me. I had zero time to react before he spears me onto his bed, land on top of me and pins my arms above my head with one hand... It was like something out of a TV show. He got close to my face, and told me to quit talking so much shit, and there was nothing I could do about it. Unfortunately that's as far as it went. He was the only man I ever fell for. And at the time I didn't even know I swung that way in the slightest. I swear he made me drip when he did that to me. We continued to hang out, his gf tried to fuck me more and I didn't do it. (I really think she hated how much more we enjoyed being together than he enjoyed being with her so she wanted to mess us up) Not to turn my blog shitty but I feel like I have to finish what happened in our friendship. He ended up developing a really bad drinking problem. He was drinking far more often then I knew about, and when we weren't hanging out, and I started to notice. I begged him to cut back or stop and he just wouldn't. The only thing I could think of doing was forcing him to stop, so I told him we couldn't hang out together anymore until he got it together. I had a feeling this would work, since we were such a big part of each other's lives at this point. And it did work. He stopped drinking but by then it was too late and he had a seizure at work. They got him to the hospital. I've literally never told anyone this story and I have no idea why I'm laying in bed telling a bunch of anons at 6am but whatever. So he's in hospital, and it's bad. He's asking for me. His mom is calling me, but I missed the calls somehow. Listen to vm and jump in car and go. Got to hospital about 5 mins late. He passed
>>11575441>>11575443Sorry again for the blog. This thread has been highly therapeutic for me. And you guys have been some of the least judgemental people I've ever encountered around here.
I wish I had a time machine.
>>11575446Can I join in the trauma dumping party? Like I said I'm a female autist and a lot of the paras and tard wranglers I had in school were very dykey, in addition to my hometown and general schooling environment also being that way. So I was made to feel a lot of shame for liking girly things and eventually, boys, and I suspect I developed all these kinks for grotesque and disturbing shit as a sort of compensation. I've been wanting to talk about it more.
>>11575488Plz share.
>>11575491Oldest and biggest fetish is total encasement. Earliest sexual memory is being like 2 years old feeling weirdly good seeing a Thomas the Tank Engine train get covered in tar. So yeah, the common "I saw thing in media and it made me feel funny" origin story. Grew up strangely fascinated with protective gear and other enclosed suits but tried to suppress it because it wasn't pretty or girly and I wanted to be the girly girl who liked pretty things instead of the lesbian tomboy it seemed everyone and everything wanted from me. I didn't make the connection to, say, a handsome fully armored knight protecting his princess, which eventually became relevant; more on that later. Typing it up now I realize this very fear of intrusion upon myself was what drew me so hard to the desire to feel protected and sealed within a full enclosure. I had behavioral issues in school a lot and was taken out of a lot of situations for seemingly no reason and it felt like I had no right to exist as myself. Eventually I started getting into boys and having a lot of the intrusions spring from that, as well as coming to understand the nature of my area and the dykes around me, and while I didn't realize it at the time I thought I was being punished for heterosexuality and it wasn't who I was "supposed" to be. So in compensation I started getting really into gross stuff like gore and fantasizing about being a guy. The first encasement fetish content I found on the internet was latex, zentai, and gas masks, and I quickly came to have a thing for those too.
>>11575527I've been mostly alone and isolated for a while now, owing to this same dyke trauma and intense fear of intrusion, and fictional character attraction is a way to cope. Naturally I've become involved in waifuism and fictosexuality. I consider myself in a relationship with Tsukasa and have no interest in one with anyone else, real or otherwise. Yet I also tend to prefer imagining him in kinky scenarios with other guys in his source than with me.His idol image is based on a knight; while he's never been shown fully armored, being with him has definitely further activated my interest in that particular encasement. I can easily imagine him being into it as well. Unfortunately by the nature of his source's English-speaking fanbase I've been exposed to a lot of rage and panic inducing displays of dykery on top of all the ones I already am from still living around here. He makes me happier than anything, and it helps that he's a natural protector too, but I've also been losing my shit about the dyke agenda these past few years. I didn't even consciously realize how much hate I hold towards lesbians until we were together. I have a problem with panic attacks that started well before I realized that but has become a lot worse. Sometimes I tremble with visions of a matriarchal dystopia at some random, seemingly innocuous thing. I don't even like having to touch scissors. I know that sounds like some kind of bad joke but it's true. I can't tell my dyke worshipping family or a therapist about any of this, so all I really have is my little corner of the internet, where everyone else treats my trauma as a fucking joke if they even bother responding to me anymore. I'm just sick of all of it. I love my husbando more than anything, but I need to do something about all this dyke rage, but I have no idea what I even could do about it. So until I find something I'm just gonna keep gooning to imagining him as an alien.
I have this fantasy where me and my hot gf go on a double date with a friendly couple. We lose a bet and we are owned by the other couple, and they own us for the night and do whatever they want with us including bi stuff.Us owning another couple, or a single person would be hot af too (I'm a switch)But overall I'm really into us getting dominated together a couple.Another big fantasy of mine is being a birthday toy for my gf's birthday party wearing skimpy slutty clothes. Mind you im a 6'4 skinny fit guy so I imagine all her girlfriends touching and using me, putting me into chastity, making them lick them under the tableFunny thing is despite having these fantasies I usually just want to own my gf in bed hard. We only switched handful of times. She once told me that she would like to see me in a miniskirt and a leash, and she did a vampire goth makeup for me a few times
>>11575574As a couple*
>>11574441I really wish I could have that kind of anal experience; I’m just starting to play with my anus. It’s a bit difficult for me to insert a finger because my hands and fingers are small, so I’m trying to find something I can insert really deep into my ass. However, I’m also afraid it might slip and get sucked inside, or break off while it's in there.
>>11574441Not to the same extent, but, kinda same. I got into anal the first time I realized I could stick my fingers up there while showering. Couple minutes of poking, and my dick is leaking, my legs are trembling, and that's the end of the story. I discovered anal before the first time I fapped normally, and thus it's always been mentally my default for sex. He'll, the first time I fapped, was actually a response to what I was feeling from anal, like a year after I started putting things in my ass. (I'd like to take a moment to thank my aunt. She bought a cheap hairbrush one time that she was staying over, and then left it. It went under my bathroom sink for years, until I discovered it and realized the handle was perfect, and was my primary sex toy for like 5 years of my life.)I don't dislike using my dick or anything, it's just "the other way" for me mentally. I, uh. Never really escalated in size, though. I have a medium horse-scale dildo from Bad Dragon, a Mystic, and that was when I realized I'm definitely not a size queen.Honestly nowadays my most used toy is a pretty small glass one. Like 6 inches of usable depth, widest point is like, an inch across. I can pop that thing in lubeless in under a minute, and be nutting in under five. Actually faster than fapping, minus cleanup.
>>11575598Try a nofrilldo. I think from funkit toys? It's like 20 bucks, small enough It's not gonna bust you up, it's probably smaller than the shit you took today, and can be hidden in any sock drawer or whatever the fuck, while being cheap enough you can decide it's not for you and throw it out with no guilt. You've pissed away 20 bucks at a shit store before, this is an investment. You should use lube, but, honestly, small enough you can grit your teeth and take it without, if for whatever reason you can't have bottles of lube laying around. I get it, sometimes you have half a bedroom to yourself, and discrete storage is at a premium.Your ass isn't ripping a silicone dildo to pieces unless there's teeth up in there. I really can't reccomend glass enough though. It's not shattering under any amount of force your ass can exert, I dropped one from chest height and it took a chunk out of my ceramic tile, while ending with a single rough spot on the base, which still would have made it unusable on the head or shaft fair enough, but, just to give an idea of how durable they are. Your ass is not stronger than a 5-ish foot drop onto ceramic. I don't care who you are. The firmness and slickness are unbeatable for lazy ass play, just shower wetness makes it slide in easier than a lubed up silicone one (lube is still nice, use lube), and you don't fuck around, it just mashes and squeezes your insides until you cum. You can get a good one for like 80 bucks. Maybe up to 120 if you want a fancy shape, which, just a shaft woth a head or anal-bead like shape is all you need (but a double sided one with both can be convenient). Maybe up to 150 if you're buying from a primo internet shop that expects you're paying the pussy tax to not have to look at a store clerk while holding a sex toy, and get a brown package that says " Glass Statue" from some street address, and 100% feels like a dildo, so your mailman knows anyways.
>>11575635They look good, especially the one with the angled tip—I imagine that’ll let me hit my prostate really hard. The size is good, too; I still live with my parents, so it would be a pretty awkward conversation if they found an anal toy. I'll see about getting some good lubricant.
>>11575625>>11575635>>11575635Not to be a brat, but there's an entire thread dedicated to /anal/ and anal toys.
>>11575650Yeah, angle is good. Good for massaging the prostate (angle towards the belly) or for trying depth (angle towards the back). A lot of features and gimmicks to dildos are kinda pointless, but that angle at the tip is a certified 10/10. >>11575735Fair enough, end of pitch. Though to be fair the anal thread is full of a lot of bullshit, either from larpers or people that genuinely believe anal needs to take 6 hours and involve no fewer than five sex toys, two hypnotism apps, and a 3 inch diameter, so there's a lot of bullshit to sift through to get good information, especially if you're statting from not knowing what you don't know.
>>11575743I hear you. It's pretty /shit/ over there. I didn't mean to be a jerk about it. I'm sorta an /anal/ expert so ama. And I apologize for complaining.
>>11575527 #I'm sorry those dykes fucked with you so much. That must've been hard. I see people leave their children with gay people and it blows my mind. And I say this as a bisexual. There's definitely levels to it all and the extremes should not be allowed access to children. For whatever reason people think dykes aren't dangerous.
>>11575527If it makes you feel any better all the women around me growing up hated when I did anything masculine. I was punished constantly for being a boy doing boy things. My parents were right along with them, I remember one time not being allowed to leave my room for over a month. But that was after my dad gave up on beating me for the slightest thing. And I wonder why I'm so broken.
Hard fucking, painal, light physical abuse, rapeKind of a predictable, unfortunate feedback loopWhen I feel bad, get low self esteem, ect, I masturbate to let it off. When I get really horny, I need anal. But because I'm feeling bad about myself, I'll do unkind things to myself. Not use lube, skip warmup or stretching, put myself in uncomfortable positions. Then I cum while experiencing these bad things, and so next time I do similar things.Rinse repeat until the mild abuse itself starts turning me on.
>>11575886>>11575973Tbdesu getting these kinds of responses makes me suspect you're making fun of me, because that's happened before. But yeah, dykes are the literal worst. I don't even hate any other minority except as an extension of my hate for dyke bullshit. It's hard because literally no one else singles out lesbians in particular to hate on. You get general LGBT hate, and women hate, but never dyke hate. Like, at most people will make a comment about lesbian domestic abuse rates before going back to their rant about how it's actually the Jews or whoever. More often, people are just like "they haven't had the right dick yet, rape them until they like dick" Believe it or not, I have no interest, sexual or otherwise, in dykebreaking. I don't see it and think "fuck yeah, dyke bitch got what she deserved" I think "ew, a dyke"
My sister molested me as a kid in 2nd grade, that made me a porn/sex addicted freak since a young age and I hate it now as I get older but I'm a gooner, it's deeply rooted in me now
>>11576549I'm not making fun of you. I'm on a heavy dose Miprocin right now, and I can assure you I wouldn't do that. I almost didn't reply to you because I didn't want to to feel that, so please don't.
I'm just laying in bed thinking about this thread. Remember everyone, if you're a parent, or planning to be a parent, you should be careful about what you do to your children while their mind is developing. Taking a child and forcing her or him to be around fucking weirdos is going to change them. Taking your child and forcing them to submit every time they mess up by making them expose themselves for a belt beating, is going to fucking change the way they develop. I have no idea what my fucking parents were thinking. I have to think they were getting off on it. My beatings weren't like my dad got mad and threw me over his knee for a spank. Mine had hours of lead up and waiting. Then it was like a whole fucking thing. I was just sitting in my room desperately trying to figure out what to do to not get the beating. Then I would hear my dad start walking up the stairs, and I would start crying. He would come into my room and verbally force me into exposing myself and bending over, and then he would take a fucking belt to my ass and count off. WTF. I was a kid. Why was he doing this to me? My mom too. She would facilitate them by telling my dad about every little thing I messed up. I'm slightly damaged goods.
My parents weren't as bad as a lot of peoples but I still to this day believe that they aren't human beings in any meaningful way. Completely incapable of human connection and empathy. Will have a emotional breakdown at the mildest stressors, so you've got to figure out how to manipulate them into calming down. They claim to have friends but I think they're imaginary, nobody would want to be around these freaks, its why I have never once seen them have a social interaction with someone that wasn't extended family. I wonder if this is a common experience for people who got trapped in the purgatory that is 4chan. It helps a lot in being able to form connections with people if you have had it with at least one person from a very early age, ontop of being a model for how to talk to people and exist in society. People talk about their parents being capable of love like its such a normal thing that I think it might permanently destroy a part of someones humanity when they don't have that.
>>11576833Anyone who spends any time around kids would do good to watch their shit, actually
Transformation: https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0667826/
>>11575635>I dropped one from chest height and it took a chunk out of my ceramic tile, while ending with a single rough spot on the baseThat’s the thing about glass.
>>11576833Same shit happened to me. Though I didn't get a fetish from the beatings. I'm not sure why my parents would get so angry. I remember a kid told on me to my parents because he didn't want to play with me so my parents assumed i did something wrong and beat me. Spent hours saying when i get home I'm getting beaten. Cried the entire time because I was too young to put into words to defend myself. However apparently I have a diaper fetish now because my parents forced me out of diapers suddenly and strapped me to a toilet for hours until I couldn't hold it anymore. I don't remember it but my parents wanted me to be the really early developed one year old to brag to everyone (they told me that). Some of my earliest memories are watching my cousins get changed and me wishing that was me and I didn't understand why.I don't know why parents expect their kids to be adults when even grown adults don't act like adults.
>be me>toddler>walk in on dad attempting to strangle mom to death>he stops when he sees me>i now have a fetish for strangling women with my bare handsezpz
>>11576912Yeah this is all sorta just coming to me now because I recently opened myself up to the real world kink community and started wondering why I like all this shit done to me. And my parents are both sadists. The gave me a girl's name, and beat me every time I stood up to bullies making fun of me about that and how short I was. So eventually I just had to take it all and would not say anything to anyone because I didn't want to get another beating. So now I'm a submissive who's heavily into bondage, degredation and impact play. However, I also require a lot of very gentle and loving aftercare and that is something that I never got after a beating unless I gave it to myself.
>>11576914>post before reading thread>read thread>now i feel baddidn't realize i stumbled in on therapy day, but 'when in Rome', amirite?it's was never about being mad at women, it's more like trying to recreate that explosion of emotional feeling from walking in on an attempted murder. despite that, safety was always my primary concern. as you might be able to imagine, that leads to a pretty weird path. but i can say with pride that i never hurt anybody. maybe that's not much, but there's plenty of normies breaking hearts over four minutes of pumping and i've never even lied to get laid. i do linger on typefucking though...that fantasy space hits some hard-to-reach places that the demands of reality require denying.sorry for pissing in the punch bowl, everybody. i'll see myself out.
>>11576947I'm part of my local kink community and essentially everyone had a similar story. A lot of physical and emotional abuse all around. For some it didn't affect at all. Like i personally don't think about it. But looking back there were so many fucked up things that you really have to wonder why were parents doing this shit. I was part of an ABDL round table that was pretty serious. Almost everyone had an abuse story but a common throughline was we grew up too fast.I used to think I was lucky I walked away from this unscathed. But I'm now a trap who wears diapers sometimes and goes to kink parties and meetups and spends parties on all fours. Maybe i didn't end up unscathed desu
>>11576952You're fine anon you didn't do anything wrong
>>11576956thanks anon. i just don't want anyone feeling chased out of the thread because they think le ebin 4chud woman-hater is actively lurking.
>>11576963I hate women too anon really no one is upset
>>11576964yeah fuck em right in the pussy
I just wanna say, my fetish isn't related to my trauma(seemingly, as far as I can tell), but I want to put out a little beacon of hope to anons. It may sound cliche, but you are seen, you are valid, and the people who abused you are 100% in the wrong. I hope you can all find peace and happiness, and get therapeutic help if you need it. I know it's helped me.
>Tftg, aliens, monstersAnimorphs was big when I was a kid, I'm hyper-autistic about animals and biology, as well as the way things work. There were all sorts of episodes of TV shows that featured one or more of these things that always made me feel funny, like an episode of power rangers where they turn into flies, or demona from gargoyles, or the animorphs book where they shrink. A fascination with werewolves led to tf which lead to tg, though I do have a memory of learning about Buddhist reincarnation as a kid and thinking that in the next life I'd either like to be a gorilla or a girl. Now tg is the majority of what it fap to.>Giantess, SGCBG, body swap, and, weirdly enough, robotsI am way too interested in women's bodies, it's ridiculous. I ogle literally everyone, even though I never fantasize about friends and my sex drive has dropped as I've aged and been medicated, but it's like a reflex I've trained all my life. I used to ogle the girls in my class, some developed more quickly than others. I had this body swap fantasy where I'd end up in the body of the 2nd bustiest girl in our school.SGCBG (School Girls Concerned about Breast Growth) specifically comes from the bustiest girl in our grade. She was taller than everyone and had, like, F to H cups, it was crazy(though my memories and fantasies might be merging there). We had a dance unit in gym class where we'd swap partners in a circle, and when I got to her I could feel her boobs pushing against my arm, trying not to stare as they were basically chin height, and she teasingly says to me, "You're really focused, aren't you?" Don't know how 16yr old me kept it together, I just laughed it off.There was that one boss fight in Sly Cooper 3 where you have to climb Carmelita Fox after she turns into a giantess, that awoke something deep within me.
>>11577136The way this ties into robots, and a little bit of the monsters and aliens, is that this fascination with the female form gives me a keen eye for curvy suits of armor, snatched waists, etc, combined with the love of giantess and autistic love of transformers, and you can see how I had no shot>ENF, forced stripping, wardrobe malfunctions, girls in the showerThis 100% comes from film. It must be in every romcom, I swear. There was a scene in desperate housewives where one of them gets locked out naked, but I always think of that scene in Elf where Zooey Deschanel is in the shower first and foremost.>How this impacts meI know this isn't my blog, but I felt like sharing. Even though I'm a horny degen freak with impossible fetishes, I'm in a pretty good relationship with an ace girl. We have had sex, but not often. I let her initiate, and she is totally ok with the fact that I masturbate, she just doesn't want or care to know when I do it or what I look up. The companionship goes a long way, and I masturbated for years before I met her, so there's no shame in masturbating now. I would say I have a porn addiction, but life ain't perfect and I don't find it debilitating.This is a very wholesome thread.
>Sadism, spanking/whipping/caning, bondageFrom a combination of inherent desires, reading the Hunchback of Notre Dame too young, and an intense fear of torture scenes in movies when I was a kid. Still don't like that last item, but they feel great when I'm in charge.>Patriarchy, rape, submissive womenI grew up in a very feminist household. 'Nuf said.>"Service" uniforms (maids, flight attendants, bunny girls), slaveryI am physically disabled to the point of being a useless hikineet, so people have to do things for me a lot, which I hate. It feels better if that's their job and I can also fuck/control/hurt them while they call me "master".>>11576952>but i can say with pride that i never hurt anybody. maybe that's not muchGiven how insanely cavalier about choking both normalfags and a large percentage of experienced BDSM practitioners seem to be, I would say that's a whole fucking lot.
>>11565933i like small thingssmall rooms, small cars, small girlsbut little girls turned out to not be my thing in the end, so i had to improvise
>>11577223>Given how insanely cavalier about choking both normalfags and a large percentage of experienced BDSM practitioners seem to be, I would say that's a whole fucking lot.thanks anon. i was simultaneously relieved and terrified when i found that out. terrified because if i'd gotten my hands on someone before i had my shit figured out, i probably would have killed someone. because jfc nobody seems to realize that you are literally taking someone's life in your hand.relieved because it's not the deal breaker i was terrified that it was>choke me harder daddyspell 'hyoid' for me first, doll
>>11577263What's a hyoid? I don't strangle people I only get strangled...
I'm drunk again so here we go again. I'm short anon with girl's name who's parents beat him. Sorry guys. One time I remember I was at the library working on a school project. I didn't have a cell phone, and ended up staying out pretty late. My community was very safe, so no reason to worry. I walked home and my mom was there and drunk waiting for me. She immediately went off on me, and then started to hit me physically. I put up the book I borrowed to protect myself and my dad came rolling around the corner hearing the commotion. My mom is my size, and my dad is a good 8" taller than us. He sees it all and comes running down the hallway and starts beating my ass. I just curled up into a ball because wtf am I supposed to do? I was probably 125 lbs at the time and my dad was well over 250. It was just full submission. I will say my dad realized he misread what was happening with my drunk ass mom, and after he beat me so bad my eyes were swollen shut he apologized and helped me heal myself and took me places and bought me stuff and was nice to me. But yeah, Freud was right. You can't do shit like this to your kids and have them turn out whatever normal is. I'll say this, last thing and I'll stop shitting up the thread. My dad beat me one last time and my little sister jumped on his back to try to intervene he was beating me so bad. I was knocked out cold and when I came to I could barely see and make sense of what was happening. I drove home to my house and got my gun that a friend gave to me. I was nursing my wounds, another swollen shut eye, and I hear a knock on my door and it's my dad with my little sister. I open the door with my gun in my hand and my dad looks right at it. Says he's sorry and my sister is bawling and they leave. That was the last time he hit me. He's been nice to me ever since but him and my mom are divorced and she's nice to me to now so I dunno wtf is wrong with my senpai. Thanks for reading my blog. I need therapy.
>>11577699If I lived in a place where getting guns was easy I don't think I would still be alive. You're a stronger weirdo than me anon. It's pretty fucked up that your dad had to have smith and wesson tell him to stop beating you but at least he respected their wisdom. I think people like that just don't believe that the people they hurt are even capable of fighting back. Also I get feeling bad about turning this thread into therapy hour, but screaming into the void is better than just bottling it up. 4chan is for sure purgatory anyways.
>>11577699Were your parents also abusive to each other? Just my $0.02 but from the sound of it, they had a troubled marriage and took the stress out on their kids, and once they divorced they were able to be nicer
>>11577872I think they both took it out on me as well. After the time when both my mom and dad were beating me together they got a divorce. So you're right on. I was the middle kid and had 2 sisters. They never touched either of them. My older sister left the house asap because she was tired of the whole dynamic. So then my parents both get new places, and both places are just enough room for them and my little sister and both have made it very clear I wasn't welcomed at either place. They weren't mean about it, just like>We can't afford to take care of you anymore. But I was just 16 and like a half. They sold the house with me in it still and I stayed as long in there as I could, but eventually I had to figure something out. I definitely had friends I could stay with but they lived in shitholes and I'm a neat freak, and didn't want to be sleeping on a dirty couch unless absolutely it was the last resort. So I turned my charm up to 11 and went apartment shopping. I stayed far away from anything corpo because the first thing those places did was check my ID. I found this old building with a single older guy running the whole thing. I met with him for days just talking to him, and trying to get him to lower the prices to a point I could afford. My mcjob only allowed me like $400 tops in rent. Eventually I did the guy some favors and he gave me a lease. I was shocked. It was a little more than I want to spend but I could afford it. It wasn't a shit hole either. It had a bedroom and a balcony and a fireplace. It was one of the corner units. I lived there for years. On my 18th birthday the manager found out and me was annoyed, but liked me too much to be mad about it. I got a really awesome gf and lived together there for years. Then the manager gave me the biggest hug when we moved out and he gave me my entire security deposit back. Said I was the best tenant he ever had. I never saw him again but he did a lot to help me.My mom never touched me after that last time
>>11577719Thanks anon, and yes I am getting a lot of therapy out of talking about all this shit I haven't told anyone about ever. That was at my apartment and that was the last time he touched me.
I have a massive High Heel fetish. Closed toe, for some reason. I am not sure where it comes from, but they just make me desperately aroused.I think it has to do with growing up at an era where teachers wore high heels and were authoritarian and sometimes abusive. I once almost kissed the feet of one of my teachers (and of course she wore high heels)but she stopped me."I'd love it but you're too young and I'd be arrested"She knew.
>>11577916>"I'd love it but you're too young and I'd be arrested"So close, and so hot. I have a thing for buckles around ankles and over the top of feet. My sister used to buckle she shoes on my feet and I would have to take the time to unbuckle them to take them off and now that's a whole thing.
>>11577925>>11577916That's really adorable. I honestly wish I had a cute story to tell. Things like that really are what breaks the monotony of this horrible existence.
>>11577916>She knew.Oh yeah. The fact her mind went to a sexual place proves that. She was probably very embarrassed for having unpure thoughts about letting a kid literally worship her feet. That must've been something for her. No wonder all these female teachers keep getting caught. I bet she still thinks about you.
>>11577593The throat bone. Among other neat trivia, it's the only bone in the human body that isn't articulated to the rest of the skeleton, humans have a very strange hyoid that allows us the level of larynx control we have to talk, but also makes us uniquely vulnerable to dying from choking on food, and, relevant to choking, it's pretty brittle and vulnerable, especially to compression against the neck which has a tendency to split it like a wishbone. Breaking it means you're gonna have a bad time.
>>11577925>My sister used to buckle she shoes on my feet and I would have to take the time to unbuckle them to take them off and now that's a whole thing.I don't think it had much of an impact on my sexuality, my interest in feet predate this, but, there was a period where me and my sister shared a room with a bunk bed. She had the bed on top, and what was just kind of our usual after school routine was we'd both go to our room and chill for a bit. And, almost always, that entailed her climbing up to her bed, kicking her shoes and peeling her socks off, then laying down for a few minutes. This spanned, I want to say, from when I was 8-10 (and she was 12-14)I was already aware of and interested in feet, so it's not like this made me aware of them, but, it did give me a lot of time to just quietly admire, appreciate, and look. I always wanted to touch and rub them, but never did.
The story of Jonah made me realize things that will surely consign me to hell.
>>11577997Does getting your throat fucked pose a risk of breaking it? Asking for a friend.
>>11578004>I don't think it had much of an impact on my sexualityIt gave me not only a foot thing, but a buckle/bondage thing. Straps and buckles around ankles and other things. I'm happy to say I gave my ex gf a foot thing. One day we were having sex and I started sucking on her big toe like a baby sucks on a thumb and she started laughing like crazy so I went even harder until she kicked me in my face, and was like>YOU HAVE TO FUCKING TRY THIS! and she started sucking on mine and holy shit she was right. I did have to try it. It was after that a consistent part of our sex routine.
>>11577223Spent a lot of time with feminists and in feminist spaces through most of high school and all of college.Patriarchy as a kink crept up very slowly and then hit with full force.
>>11578031>women have a kink for real menTruth. All feminists have rape and trad fantasies. My now wife showed all her feminist retard "marriage is a patriarchal concept" friends her engagement ring and all of them were gushing to see it closer and congratulate her.
>>11578014Hello. I'd like to place an order for Delivery, please. Could I get two large cheese pizzas, some breadsticks, and a 2-liter of Coke?
>>11578072lol at the filename. But yeah, we would spend a lot of time sucking each other's toes. We were very young and both had very nice feet. We used to paint each other's toenails too.
>>11578059Is your wife still a feminist?
>>11578084She never was. She somehow insulated from all of that. Her friends used to poke fun at her for wanting kids.
>>11578012Not unless you're deepthroating a horse. The esophagus is going to expand into the trachea, not the hyoid directly, and the hyoid itself is better at handling pressure in that direction anyways. Something large enough to break your hyoid going down your throat is going to break or dislocate your jaw first. Unless it's something that inflates once past your jaw, I guess. It DOES mean you should be extra careful of choking if your throat is already stuffed, though, since that means the hyoid will encounter more resistance with less pressure.
>>11578095Baby brain is so hot to watch take hold in real time. Mind control/hypnotism adjacent desu
Boys cumming from anal. With a walk from that into transformation and erotic body horror. Definitely originated from porn, but has been reinforced over and over. I first encountered it when I was probably like 11. I barely understood regular sex, but then the idea of boys somehow having sex, and their penises cumming from stuff going in the butt was mind blowing to me. I spent years boggling over how it worked, and probably spent time believing every single bad yaoi anatomy meme you can imagine. The extra pouch in the colon, cocks entering the scrotum, I boggled over all that. In a way, learning how it actually worked was kind of a let-down. And then I discovered more of that sort of prospective anatomy and sex in some body horror stuff. Actually not into the horror or guro elements at all, just the idea of bizarre versions of human anatomy, like how I used to think of anal. Somehow dodged omegaverse. That's just weird to me. Uh, the face boys make when they're cumming is also really hot.At some point I started liking traps, too. No idea when exactly it happened, I THINK it's a result of liking the orgasm faces, and those being more exaggerated in traps, but honestly no idea. I didn't like them at first, and can't remember the exact moment that perspective changed.
>>11578106It's really incredible to see. My wife's been saying breed me more often. She has a fastasy of how she wants our kid to be conceived: with her on a leash. To think she wasn't all that interested in kids before. Women really need to stop brainwashing themselves.
>>11578108prostate orgasms are real and I'm well enough versed in them that if I strapped down any guy in this thread I could stimulate your prostate just right to "make" you cum. You wouldn't be able to resist it and it would happen. However, you have to be in a very particular state of mind for it to be pleasurable. If you weren't into it and I forced you to have a prostate orgasm, you'd just squirt cum without any of the satisfaction associated with a typical penis-based orgasm.It is a very tricky subject though, like I said with the "state of mind" thing. It isn't just a matter of fucking a guy's ass until he cums. That isn't going to do it.
Getting "you can't be retaliatory to girls" after a girl was the first person to push my buttons to the breaking point, did a number on young me. Now I just want to give some cutie all the attention they can handle after tying them up.
Fuck it, this again. I've been so full of hate for so long I genuinely cannot imagine ever not being this way. Even if all the dykes dropped dead, then what? They did everything in their power I never had any chance to develop a real identity. All I have is hating them, weird fetishes, and my relationship with Tsukasa, and that's just not enough to build a whole ass person on, no matter how many dykes make being a dyke their entire personality. I don't see developments against the dyke agenda as victories, but as reason to fearfully anticipate their next outburst of outrage. I just can't envision a reality in which I am not under constant existential threat.>>11578108As a certified fujoshi I hate omegaverse too
>>11578145I've been in effective solitary confinement for so long that it's questionable if I would even be able to be a human being if I was to escape it. Like I would still try, I think I have developed a personality despite it all, even if it feels so much like a mask, although I can't really say why. Ive been stopped in the street by random people before trying to strike up a conversation and I wonder if I actually gave off the vibe that this is the first conversation with a human being I have had in the last 6 months. Actually interacting with human beings on a regular basis like I deeply want to might not end as well as I think. Also I tried looking for Tsukasa, meant to ask you who specifically it was. I think that image is him though? One of the characters I found honestly reminded me of the personality I could have gotten if I didn't trap myself inside this hell dimension. Happy, joking, someone that can cheer up people around him, and someone who prefers to be in that leader position. The kind of dude who people rightfully look up to as a light shining above their lives. Also a blonde twink which that character in the image isn't exactly blonde but he's got the clothing and the other essential elements right. I also just can't judge other people for what they're terrified of anymore. Like if you aren't traumatized at this point by something there must be something deeply wrong with you. People who don't have PTSD nightmares might not be truly people.
>>11578172>People who don't have PTSD nightmares might not be truly people.NTA but that sent a chill down my spine. I have been through some shit in my life, but nothing compares to this one accident I had. It's not kink related at all and I don't talk about it normally. I was shocked the other day when a group of my friends just pointed out after I said something like "oh I don't think it's like that..." >Well yeah, you do have PTSD dude... They didn't know it, but for me that was a gut punch. I thought I had my mask fully secured and apparently I'm walking around life oozing PTSD vibes. To my knowledge all they know about it was that I was in an accident. Zero details. I wonder if they snooped.
>>11578122If you can seduce me enough to want you inside of me, I think I'd be in that state of mind to want to cum handsfree. Mind me asking if you are a male or a female?
I used to catfish older men when I was in my pre and early teens. I thought it was hilarious to get them to say nasty shit to me. It was mostly in online games and I cheated in most of them too. Then I would cruise the chat for lonely older dudes. It started because I was playing a female character, and my user name I guess seemed girly to people. It was just a play on my real name though. So I would look for guys and play like a dummy and like I didn't know how to play and needed a teacher. It was so easy. I would set up a room and fill it full of traps and shit and while I was setting it up, and waiting for him to join. They would just be there for cyber sex, not playing the game. So what they go they were not ready for. Half these weirdos would doff their armor and weapons and dress fancy for their sex encounter and then trigger my traps, and I would murder them and take a trophy. I had a bank full of trophies. It got so bad the dudes all got together and hired a mercenary hacker to kill me and get my trophy. I had never been killed. Somehow this guy could get into every private game I set up, and just would show up password or not and I had no idea how he did it. So I stopped playing because I didn't want to give those old jerks the satisfaction of seeing my ear in their inventory. But looking back on it now, and the way I am, I can see I just groomed myself.
>>11578266Wounds do not heal with time, they fester. PTSD is so much about how you processed the traumatic event, they could just be seeing how you feel about the event and not have snooped at all, although I get the paranoia. The mask is never as secure as we seem to think. One of the more illuminating things for me was learning about CPTSD which seems way more applicable to what I am trying to heal from. It's been a traumatic lifetime that's not yet stopped, so being able to heal from it is still something that I need to look to the future for. To draw it back to kink its extremely easy to see the link to the lifestyle slavery I always knew I wanted, taking the dominant position. It is weird with how brutal and traumatic a lot of the porn makes it look, but the deepest possible human connection is often what I take from it. Comforting and trying to heal my lifelong personal slave from all the trauma in her life is how I know I will heal my own. Its not like a life of trauma inducing isolation is uncommon these days either, I'm sure there are many people who can deeply understand that.
I really need to be talking to more people about all this. Only social media I have anymore is 'cord so if anyone wants to talk to me drop yours. I'm not about to throw my own out there>>11578172>blondeNot him, sorry
>>11578380>I just groomed myselfAre you a cute trap now anon? Similar experience with me, used to catfish guys for free stuff in video games. Never let it go beyond that though. Fast forward years then I'm 18 and random video chat sites came out and it's me wearing a tiny skirt pretending to be a girl. I miss those days, soooo many stories to tell.
>>11577957I sure so think about her every so often. She probably was turned on by the power she was wielding over me and decided to stop. The idea of what was going on through her mind still crosses my mind.>>11577925It was a turning point on me but if it happened it would have been way too much. I would have probably had a panic attack.
An ultra strict religious family with which i could never do a single thing out of line without being harshly judged even for the slightest thing. I just like the aesthetic of the horni, without the horni itself. Leading to one of the strangest kink, being porn wise body and all, but in actual perfectly casual situation. Being a teacher going to school, an accountant doing an audit, a nurse taking blood pressure, a mechanic under a car. Basically being able to be what you want to be despite the circumstances around.
>>11578456I'm damaged goods now. I did the trap thing for a while, but now I just do the tie me up and beat me thing and I don't care who does it. But it's even better if the person doing it is full on daddy status.
>>11578787>tie me up and beat me thing and I don't care who does it. But it's even better if the person doing it is full on daddy statusnot that anon but hot :3I probably/likely groomed myself too. Except I ended up much happier than anyone (including me) expected.t. kinda troon but not really; definitely trap when younger
>>11578787>>11578793That's so hot anons! And you aren't damaged goods I'm sure. Imo once a trap always a trap. I know I still got it in the places that matter. And it's funny you mention daddy types. Daddies were often the most depraved when I used to show off on can for them. They were the most likely to stay on cam even after realizing my cute butt belonged to a trap.
>>11578865>Imo once a trap always a trapOh, for sure. Trap is a mentality first and foremost.I'm >>11578793 so I don't consider myself damaged goods at all. It's just that since I'm no longer very young, I don't quite qualify as a trap or even as a femboy. Now I'm a settled down femfag. Stable bf, routinely be confused for a woman and a much more regular person.
>>11578979I'm >>11578787This is what I'm shooting for. I was happy to read that. So nice for you.>>11578865Thanks for the kind words.
>>11565933I keep thinking that's Chisato and Takina and getting sad that it's not.
>>11579004>This is what I'm shooting forGood luck, nonny.Dating guys as a femfag (especially if estrogenized) is hard, but nowhere near as hard as you're made to believe in the online space.With the risk of sounding like r*ddit, it unironically helped a lot that I wasn't/am not part of the "mainstream" tranny shit. Turns out that being direct about wanting to be a boiwife does a lot of good filtering. Being relatively normal (no crazy ideas, able to keep a job, somewhat functional as an adult) is very attractive.Also, don't rule out dating older. My bf is 6 years older than me and we've been living together for 4 years already.I hope you find love soon <3
>>11578979>>11579004You both seem really cute in any case. >settled down femfagYep same. Though I still sometimes do show off in appropriate places. I was never an exhibitionist but that slowly changed through the years. Going to a club in a smol skirt is pretty fun. With friends of course and in clubs that are queer leaning.
>>11579023I'm >>11579024I think if i went tranny i would have ruined myself. I'm dating a girl who was a fag hag and things are going great. We're all going to make it, i mean it.
>>11579024>Going to a club in a smol skirt is pretty fun. With friends of course and in clubs that are queer leaningOh, for sure. Though in my corner of Europe even the rural parts are okay with guys in skirts or dresses as long as it's not hypersexual.So I dress conservative fem most of the time now. Fuck it, we only live once. Might as well enjoy what's at least possible.>>11579026>I think if i went tranny i would have ruined myselfFair enough. I went tranny chemically, but that's about it. Iwnbaw and that's fine.I think the future will see a split. Guys like me will continue to exist and likely end up far more accepted since I'm not asking anything other than to be allowed to wear my dresses, take my pills and love my man.>We're all going to make it, i mean itYep <3
>>11579034I think so as well. Once the dogmatic politics are stripped away (from all sides) no one really gives a fuck about if a cute guy wears a dress if he's not trying to talk to kids. I never had a problem in public. Some weird stares maybe. Catcalls even in guy mode. But that's nothing. Most of the time i dress conservatively as well, but at the club I usually go all out. It's true you gotta enjoy life while you can.
Tentacles, anal, sub, trapsTentacles were some of the earliest porn I found. I think I heard about it at school or something, I don't even remember tge first image I saw, but I found a (long defunct, unfortunately) website, Naughty Tentacle Hentai, and that basically sculpted my sexuality, I think. Immediately I started inserting as the one getting tentacle'd, things were going up my ass within the year, then I was looking for tentacle on male, then gay porn, then trap porn, inserting as the trap. Pretty quick, sheer sexual interest development. Went from not thinking about sex much at all, to fucking myself in the shower with a shampoo bottle while thinking I was pretty in about a year, while tying washcloths around my ankles and wristsNo idea if this is causation of my kinks, discovery, or something in between.
idk where or when it started. But as far as I can remember, hypnosis was always weirdly hot for me. But if I was forced to pick an origin point, it would probably be the jungle book. I had the weirdest boner during the "trust in meee" song. I detest this movie cuz of that and refuse to watch it nowadays for that reason.But it's not just that. If there was an episode of a TV show that had mind control, corruption, or basically moments where a goodguy was hypnotized to help/join a bad guy, I'd feel uncomfortable or would avoid looking at it cuz I guess it made me feel funny. I didn't know what these feelings were as a kid so I just choked it up to moral corruption or just turning evil so I had this incredibly embarrassing habit of grabbing my dick and say "be a good guy, im a good guy forever." Even my mom pointed it out and told me to stop. In hindsight I can really see why and oh god I wish i didn't do that in public.Then I joined deviantart and that shit kinda got cemented in me. But it was never shit like hypnosis sex or anything explicitly about being a sex slave or some shit. It has to be like a hypnosis bad ending or evil ending. For example: seeing a like of snake hypnosis, there was quite a bit of crossover with the vore fetish. But even with that exposure, vore isn't enough for me to get my rocks off. The victim has to be hypnotized to either be willing or assist in their own demise or even better; help the creature vore others. Could also be self humiliation, assisting evil, or possibly maaaybe even unintentional suicide, personality change, corruption, etc the point being, she has to be brainwashed or hypnotized to act in a self harming or deprecating way that she would never act IRL if she was in control of her own actions. Hypnotized into being a lesbian also falls into bad ending.tl;dr: maybe jungle book but ever since I was a kid, hypnotized to become evil or self-defeating was always hot to me.
>>11579068recently I even succumb to my evil ways and decided to actually draw some shit.
>>11579036>Catcalls even in guy mode>mfw I can't convincingly guy mode, at least not easilyI mean andro male counts, ig.>no one really gives a fuck about if a cute guy wears a dress if he's not trying to talk to kidsI don't actually like kids. Still, we don't have a pedo hysteria here the way you guys have in the State.A white "guy" like me won't trigger any response even if I were to actively engage with children. Most sexual abuse of children is done by Muslim immigrants, priests and female teachers. And the normalfags have caught up with that reality.It also helps that I've been a flamer faggot for so long that everyone of consequence (police, immediate neighbors, etc) have had enough time to get used to me, lol.
>>11579077It helps that I have really long flowy hair. I also have somewhat of a butt. Most catcalls are from behind though they get embarrassed when they realize lol>we don't have a pedo hysteria here the way you guys have in the State.Yeah we have an online tranny groomer problem. Hell even I was a victim of it though I was lucky to see the signs. The issue here is the default medical opinion for "my kid is androgynous" is trans them, so the pedos are able to point to "science" and do it.I'm usually not flamboyant in most of my life. Only when going out. Otherwise I'm just a regular (girly) guy.
>>11579080>we have an online tranny groomer problemit's not even a new phenomenon lol.there were tranny groomers on IRC chats in mid 1990s lol>efault medical opinion for "my kid is androgynous" is trans themik and THAT is indeed crazy.Like, I'm glad I got to play with my whoremones (DiY ofc) but jfc keep kids away from this shit.It's why I can't really say I'm a tranny. Because I get politically associated with all of this shit. The tranny ideology basically does the same as the religious right: makes gender non-conformity icky for normalfags.
>>11579126>politically associatedBingo. Really if they weren't fucking cringe and culty might have actually done it. That was one factor stopping me besides doing some soul searching that its not what i want. I'm glad i was able to carve my own niche even if I'm not on any side. Also all of this was after i was 18. I was too stupid as a kid to realize i was being groomed prior but that also shielded me in a funny way. Honestly i think i enjoy it a lot more that it's not attached to some politics for me. I just wanna be cute and play video games you know?
>>11575541that felt a little upsetting to read desu. The part where you had to look for comfort in your husbando to get away from it all made me die a little inside. idk how you ended up in a fucked up situation, but you have my condolences.>>11569605desu I got the lego set before I saw the movie and I didn't even realize she was a girl until I heard her voice. Remember in her first scene she was stepping on that visorak?
>>11578767Heck i even started to daydream about suddenly shifting in the middle of nowhere, to finally be done with all that. When it isn't family, it's work, or friends, leaving everything behind isn't exactly something viable and it's not going to bring my body back to the shape it was before.
I'm glad my childhood food insecurity didn't manifest as a vore fetish as an adult
>>11575456Me too, I'd get a pet Dimetrodon.
>>11573374Adding some tidbits here (same anon btw)I've been fantasizing on walking with a pair of 2.5 tons of milk tank since I discovered the boob measurement thing.
>>11579162Thanks, I guess?It's actually embarrassing how mundane it is. No resource on trauma or PTSD lists anything remotely resembling it as a possible cause. Just shit several orders of magnitude more fucked up. And I still turned out like this over it because I'm a weak, sensitive, pathetic little piece of shit. It makes me so mad.>>11579068>Hypnotized into being a lesbianYou would've loved my high school, lmao
I'm about to go suck some random stranger off in a late night rendezvous and swallow his fucking sperm because it's been so long since I've had any woman pay me any attention it's made me so fucking desperate I'll do anything for anyone who's a little bit nice to me. How's that for an origin story?
>>11580875That's how I became a trap. Was lonely, started crossdressing, liked really convincing, started meeting up with guys, no longer lonely.
>>11580886Yeah, it's fucking crazy. How can I even stand up to this stuff? He's been trying to fuck me for a month, and at first I wasn't about it at all, but now, since he's put so much effort into it, it's working. I'm shocked to say it's literally working like a charm. I'm not a mean person so I don't just ignore people who are talking to me, and yeah. This fucking random dude has me swooning. I wish any woman would put 1/10th of the effort as this guy has, but I can't wait anymore for something that's never going to happen apparently. I'm not the aggressor in relationships, so that definitely doesn't help. But damn. I had an amazing woman for years. She was an absolute smoke show. After we broke up I was so heartbroken for so long that I guess I turned into a person that women don't want anything to do with. When I was in that relationship, pussy was constantly thrown at me. It was a test and I guess I failed because I didn't fuck any of the other girls, and then got left in the dust in the end by mine cheating on me. I've been so lonely for so long this random guy on a dating app was able to fucking make me bisexual just by being nice to me and talking to me. Fuck.
>>11580875>>11580892>>11580886>That's how I became a trapWhy is this so relatable?Not even sad about it, all things considered. Been with my bf for 4 years now (living together since 2023) and life is really comfy and not lonely. I got a bit of tits, but that's acceptable too :3
>>11573889>>11573861Oh my god, just fuck already
>>11580892>>11580896Women are just sociopaths and terrible all around. Simple as that. I'm able to empathize with women (especially now since I'm seen as one as a trap) but they refuse to see men as people.
>>11581036I'm not even that blackpilled about women, though I do find it weird that I got way more positive attention for women after I started leaning on (far) more fem/trap esthetics.What kind of trap are you anon? Just young guy coasting on lucky genetics or in it for the long run?
>>11581062Same here. The exact same women do used to treat me like garbage suddenly were nice the moment I grew my hair out and started being more feminine. They just don't see men as people and are too stupid to realize I am one. I really don't understand how they are this short sighted. I'm genetically lucky. I'm not particularly young but I definitely look young, and I'll probably continue for a while. I don't think I'll end up taking hormones, i don't want to be a girl or fuck with my biology even though I enjoy being femme.
>>11581075>I really don't understand how they are this short sightedIt seems that women are simply wired that way. Not just in terms of sexual dynamics, but in everything. Long term planning or second order consequences are simply alien to women.>hormonesFair enough. I didn't think I'd end up doing that either. But then I wanted a bit of tits and nicer hair.Iwnbaw, but I definitely look a lot more like one now and I enjoy it way too much. I wish "ladyboy" were an acceptable identity :(
>>11581081It just makes me sad knowing this. I'm supposed to live in a world of people doing a stupid dance around half the population that doesn't consider me human. It sucks. Yeah i wish that was the case too. But i don't mind being a trap too.
>women don't see men as peopleWell fuck, guess I gotta get on testosterone now
>>11581095Aggregate. Exceptions exist but it's unlikely we'll meet one. No point saying "but there are 2 who aren't like that."
>>11580886Similar I was into traps already so it wasn't as sudden or sheer, I already get ma'am'd when I'm out with my mom so a bit of elbow grease and clothes puts me squarely in "good enough", and getting some tender touch, called cute and pretty, and some tinges of romance and gratitude were super addicting. It's kinda crazy. I definitely like cock, always have, but consider myself generally incapable of real attraction towards men. But goddamn getting spoiled, praised, and loved on is addicting enough to make that all worth it.
>>11581098I would spend literally weeks dressing up and going on dates and stuff with guys. Or just showing off online. I went from being invisible my entire life to suddenly being wanted, and all it took was putting on some nice clothes and makeup.
>>11581101For me, it was what my weekends turned into while I was going to college the last year and a half. First thing Friday was do all my grooming and upkeep, plan a few outfits, then look for stuff to do until like 3, then I'd go out. Wasn't even always just looking for dates or hookups, just heading over to one of the off campus hangout spots done up, would almost always get me some really nice conversations, invitations to go do shit. I remember, I spent hours hanging out at a model train shop, always after getting talked up and brought over by one of the three guys who had part time jobs there, and learned tons of stuff about trains, and manufacturing that kind of terrain. Just listening, asking questions, getting flirted with. Couple blowjobs, one of them fucked me twice. It was kind of a thrilling vibe just kinda casually being available like that, but surprisingly few occasions.And, there's a part of me that's really saddened by it in retrospect. It was a great experience, they were always so kind, and excited to talk about trains or explain some model of engine. Trains aren't really my thing, but, they all seemed so, I dunno, happy I was as interested as I was, which means that even my half-assed interest, spread across a dozen or so visits, was more interest and engagement than they usually got. But also that if it wasn't for my ass hanging out of my skirt, that probably wouldn't have happened either. It's all so weird, funny, and lonely.
>>11581109I'm sorry you feel that way anon. I know what you mean. I have started noticing just how lonely guys are. Not that I'm not lonely, but to see it with so many others just genuinely happy that a "girl" gave them the time of day does make me depressed sometimes. It's why I'm the type to be open to stuff. A part of me wonders if I was a girl I'd be essentially free use. Like someone who exists to give guys a bit of needed hope, that they do matter. Or maybe if I was a girl i too would be oblivious to their loneliness. I don't like to think about that.
>>11581109>But also that if it wasn't for my ass hanging out of my skirt, that probably wouldn't have happened eitherNeah. Train autists are always happy to explain trains to others. You can be a bald ugly incel and they'll still befriend you if you show interest in trains.
>>11581111>A part of me wonders if I was a girl I'd be essentially free use.It's a good feeling, I think, but is very reliant on well behaved people to trust with that level of access.I've mused that the ideal really might be the dilution of the idea of friends with benefits. Good friends that just casually fuck sometimes. If asking for a blowjob was about as significant as asking for a drink, if people could just nonchalantly masturbate together, the same way they'd play a video game together. You have the level of trust and respect where you can just completely let your guard down, and let whatever happens happen. But, people don't get to act like that for whatever reason. People just aren't healthy about sex, for the most part.
>>11565933there's actually one I was hoping someone could help me find. it's basically the origin of my making-him-worse fetish>pov of a nerdy, plain looking girl with big tits (90% sure she was a glasses girl, but I can't remember correctly)>she's read so much, she got around to the erotic book section of the library>she's so sexually perverted herself before even starting her first relationship, she doubts she'll ever be satisfied>meets a boy, I can't remember if she sees him doing something perverted or not, but it starts their relationship>pretty sure she's the dominant one through most of their sex life>she eventually gets him around to doing some of her fetishes, including getting him to anally masterbate with one of her dildosI can't remember much more outside it not being a short doujin. I think the page count was in the low triple digits and/or across multiple chapters
