how do you get motivated to not only go to the gym regularly but to push yourself to failure when you're in the throes of depression. i found out two weeks ago that my dad and stepmom knew about my mom molesting me when i was a kid and didn't try to take custody from her, they just waited until she died from her cancer. and now i can't bring myself to go to the gym as often and when i get to the gym, i just cannot push myself, every set feels harder to do yet i feel like im doing less. failure is closer to the surface and less meaninful
Sorry that happened to you anon.Don't know if it helps but I just go to the gym even if I don't feel motivated, put on some heavy metal and just deactivate my brain, sometimes lifting just happens naturally even with depression. Sometimes it doesn't quite work out but at least after I can say to myself "hey, at least I showed up and tried". Please don't hikkikomori isolate yourself, that shit is deadly for the mind. Good luck man
>>77408964>depressionman up, pussy
>>77408964Did your mother damage your penis?I have scar tissue that prevents my foreskin from retracting, but I have no memory of anything that could have caused it -- wasn't circumcision. I do remember my mother telling me about a child molester in our neighborhood when I was young and I have a fuzzy memory that he may have gotten to a neighbor boy who moved shortly after...Anyway...You need to force yourself to do it and remind yourself that it will feel good when you're done.
>>77408980i think you're right, perhaps i do just gotta show up, at least maintain the routine, and maybe i can put some of these feelings into working out>>77408991too late im already a tranny faggot>>77409006on the medical side of things that sounds like phimosis, though i don't have that, it might be worth looking into. on the memory-biological connection side of things it might help to talk to a therapist, consider what it would mean to you, why it would mean that to you, with an approach of curiosity.
Lifting to failure whether it's sooner or later is the point, as long as you lift. And motivation is always worthless when you need it the most. Replace it with routine. Routine becomes habit, and habit isn't something you can shake so easily.
>>77408964Take some walks in nature MeditateGood some nice food for yourself Surround yourself with friends or other strangers Talk to a therapist Do forgiveness meditations it's ok to take a break and switch to other fulfilling activities for awhile
