Some time ago, I checked myself into an inpatient psychiatric facility. I had completely lost touch with reality, wanted to die, wanted to hurt people, and my plan was long term hospitalization. I really couldnt function as an adult and somehow started shit with EVERYONE. I guess they thought I was faking (i have a history, I wouldn't believe me either), I wasn't treated well. In the few months after release, I spiraled hard and put on about 20 pounds by binge eating fruity pebbles and food delivery. I kept working out despite the gain, and gradually progressed to absolutely insane workouts. 2-3 days in a row of 4-8 hours a day doing anything. Gym bro, yoga, meditation, sauna, mace and club, kettlebells, mobility, primal movement, dancing, bands, hiking, biking. I almost always walked or rode my bike to the store every time I ate (no vehicle). I fueled these workouts with caffeine, thc, 5mapb, mushrooms, fasting, PEDs, and the infinite potential of autism synergising with bipolar fury. I walked hand in hand with God
>>77553446back to the looney in when
>>77553450bin*
>>77553446Brother, you took all those steps, but you're no closer to God. The truth is that prayer, reading the Bible, supplication, worship, charity, and love will bring you closer to God. Oddly enough, so does fasting combined with prayer. Drugs drive you further away from the Glory of God. Christ asks for less, not more. But your body is indeed a temple, don't desecrate it with drugs and hatred. Glorify God's temple with dedication, supplication, prayer and worship.
>>77553446At the point of complete burnout I would crash, regroup, reflect, and usually fall to vice in one form or another. Primarily pebbles and loops cereals, and ice cream. Starting off it was mostly vice, really being a degenerate and feeling sorry for myself. Every iteration I made progress, made changes, and went straight back into battle for another round. This process did not make me especially asthetic, but I am more functional and in less pain. This is not a program to get physical results. This is a program for spiritual development, to reach another plane of existence. Two cycles ago (maybe 8 days), I made it through without significantly falling to vice. God blessed me with a vision. First. Eggs are the perfect food by their nature, given by God as manna from heaven. An egg contains all the components, in correct proportions, to build an animal body from scratch, and the energy required to do the building. Brothers, we have animal bodies and we need energy for building.Second. Things are worse than you can possibly imagine. The antichrist is among us and the final battle is underway. It isn't going well, the world has fallen.Third. We win and Christ prevails. Strengthen your spirit, harden your body, and use your mind. Prepare yourselves
>>77553446>fruity pebbles Is this some kind of homosexual innuendo?
>>77553446THC causes psychosis with some bipolar meds you fucking nimrod
>>77553459>I would crash, regroup, reflect, and usually fall to vice in one form or another. Primarily pebbles and loops cereals, and ice creamYou are so innocent, I love you. I imagine you as this insanely jacked gentle giant.
Just another chemical to try and you will be in full communion with the jewish god YHWH
>>77553446>does thc and shrooms >is mentally illChecks out
>>77553446get some mental health skills instead of relying on religionimaginary friends and shit actually fuel your mental health delusions, not fix them mental facilities are full of christians because they never learn practical mental health skills like CBT, DBT, cognitive reframing, etc,
>>77553459Honestly a few years of complete sobriety is what you need. You are relying on delusions, ancient fairytales, and hallucinations to get you by. Try Buddhism, it's actually practical and doesn't require belief in supernatural bullshit.
>>77553446The world would be so much better if we exterminated all the mentally ill freaks that are allowed to continue living. Throughout history these mentally ill freaks would be killed or send to rot away in a dark damp dungeon, nowadays we allow them to roam society and harass the public and be an outright menace to everyone around them.
>>77553446>goes schitzo>becomes a christcuckLet me guess, you're still a malignant narcissist that hates women?
>>77553490I wish I could save him.
>>77553630Says the mental ill retard. At least op lifts unlike you
>>77553446So what drugs caused this so I can avoid this?
>>77553456This is it OP
>>77553446https://i.4cdn.org/x/1790800751441388.pnghttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Positive_disintegration
>>77553459>Second. Things are worse than you can possibly imagine. The antichrist is among us and the final battle is underway. It isn't going well, the world has fallen.>Third. We win and Christ prevails. Strengthen your spirit, harden your body, and use your mind. Prepare yourselves
>>77553446>>77553459
>>77553456>prayer, reading the bible, worshipfuck off cunt i aint engaging in mentally ill showmanship to appease some fucking congregation of retards and a priest who molests little boys
>>77553459bro sugary cereal is the furthest thing from your problem you need to get off the drugs lmao
>>77553632>Buddhism >doesn't require belief in supernatural bullshitOh yeah, what do you think buddhists believe happens after we die?
Mak?
>>77553456Christ used alcohol and likely cannabis oil.
>>77553446>>77553459Very interesting, but before we discuss your findings further I have to ask your one-rep maxes for the bench and the the deadlift.
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>>77553446OP, you came here all>look at me, i'm schizomaxxingand you never post your retard-fueled body.We want to see the results of your crazy trsining
>>77553484One friend got COOKED from smoking high Thc weed. Dude binge smoked for a week and started posting his server contents online, drawing schizo shit and got locked in an asylum for a week. Thankfully once he sobered up he snapped back.Fuck weed!
>>77553446>>77553459So what's your brain defect, schizo?
>>77553630Not OPI have extremely stresful job, and i sometimes feel like slipping, e.g.i think violent thoughts and just feel disconnected, and have had psychosis few years ago from withdrawal. When you are in a bad place me tally, you are better to find a focus point like religion, otherwise it genuinely is almost uncontrollable. Easy to look back and say - oh, should have done that, but not easy when you yourself feel your mind is going highwire.Its like using too much drugs . In retrospect you can realize the stupid things you do or say, but when you are there and present, you would not.
>>77553446Based>>77553450Cringe
>>77553795>molests little boys Sir, the synagogue is down the street
>>77553484Some people get high and drunk and turn violent because they also just have screws loose. When I'm drunk I'm Lewis Hamilton.
>>77553446Hey doc I don't think I have enough violent idealizations, can I get my testosterone checked? I already brought a few samples.
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>>77553630>DBTtl;dr?
>>77553446based schizo thread. include me in the screenshot if this becomes anything
