This shit has an enormous adrenergic effect on me. Today I was doing leg press with a bunch of weight and then unloaded the machine but left 2 plates on each side for the next person, since no one really does it with an empty sled. Anyway, I go to the other room for a breather and hear this fat middle aged bitch say something about "80kg". This was like 3 hours ago, and I am still having violent murder fantasies despite not even knowing what she was talking about with her friend, just because there was a vague chance she was commenting on the weight I left on. Over this, I am grinding my teeth and envisioning flattening her skull with a plate if she decides to escalate anything with me, then her relatives once they arrive on the scene.I think I need to lower the dosage a little bit, don't wanna go back to jail over a completely random stranger like this when there are so many better people to take out Holy shit will I enjoy it when the moment finally arrives when I lose it and REALLY open up on some unlucky person, ripping out the eyes and tongue and shit.
>>77577358>trooned out wog slop
>>77577376Nope
that's really sad, anon. there's lot of extra room for hate in your heart when it's enlarged by roids, but that room can also be filled with joy and peace if you make an effort.inb4 trolls see you as an easy target and ragebait you
>>77577439I can't be ragebaited by them because my rage is actually maxed out already.Your comment is very gay, you should return whence you came from btw
>>77577358Ruminating like this is fag shit, Anon.Move on. Why not give learning long division another try m8?
>>77577446My brain ruminates most of the time, can't help it.I can win 10 encounters and slightly misstep in the 11th, and my brain will be 100% focused in the failed one, indefinitely. Even a likely imaginary slight such as the one today will cause it to spin endlessly.
>>77577441i like that you used whence and used it correctly. >very gayyeah but sometimes the gay thing is the right thing to say
>>77577453Why do you place such heavy psychic importance on the 11th encounter? I would say it's because of language in it's surplus and it's inability to ever give you a real answer. For example the ten encounters you did correctly that should tell you, you are competent right? But it never totally does, it bolsters the identity that you are competent because language always contains a surplus and can never fully capture anything. So the ten encounters cannot fully validate you. And the 11th encounter kind of validates the opposite of what you want. So you return to it over and over again in an attempt to reconstruct the fantasy that you are competent. Since language is vague and can never give you a straight answer this leads to endless rumination there is no point where language will define you in a nice complete way. This is actually the fundamental illusion called lack. I can go into this way deeper
>>77577479Lmaoo ok you can stay>>77577518I'm a fan of yours actually, I have screenshots of many of your posts. Literally one of maybe 5 people on the entire site with actually fresh ideas Briefly, what's the best method to you've come up with to date to exit symbolic thinking altogether?
>>77577526Honestly it's pretty mundane but it's the truth that meditation literally just melts the symbolic world, to all the anons who's brains are going insane 24/7 like me the peace you can have for a second standing somewhere it will make you want to cry as you realize just how much information you are usually taking in it's actually psychotic. It makes me emotional because it's such a stark difference its like being in a acid trip and then u come down and you are like oh my god I can actually exist. Anyways meditation is the fastest track in my opinion because you don't really need to know any lacan it literally just DOES that biologically and naturally. I'm glad someone is listening because I can see a ton of like common anon problems this solves for maybe most of them.
>>77577358At my old gym every single person would walk right next to me mid set on bench or blatantly walk close to me mid rep all the time I think they are retarded. Sounds like an excuse to be a dickhead and then hide behind the legs of the law exactly like my chihuahua.
>>77577540>hide behind the legs of the law exactly like my chihuahuaYeah people got way too comfortable pissing people off, almost injuring them, stealing from them etc like gay ass scammers and "technically you cant hurt me force field force field."
>>77577358Upgrade to halotestin next time and just go berserk
>>77577358Every single time amd it is every day btw that the good weights are being hogged in the gym or some idiot is blocking the road I stop second guessing hitler.
>>77577540Only women do that at my gym. I think gyms and society need to be segregated before I murder someone.Like the other day, I was warming up and stretching by holding on to a rack and kicking my leg back and forth. This dumb moonfaced cow comes up to me (I look directly through her), hesitates, turns around, then turns back AGAIN, stands there AGAIN for a second with question marks around her brainless head as I do my kicks RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER FACE AND LOOK STRAIGHT THROUGH HER, then finally realizes what's up and goes away. She wanted to use the machine I was holding, and the fact it was temporarily taken cause her female braincell to have a fucking zero-day logical meltdown.The moment you end up in a gym without women, you will understand my rage. Even a single skank is enough to MURDER the atmosphere of the place. Gyms should be like in Saudi Arabia, and every third woman should be burned alive.
>>77577545I don't need any further upgrades bro, a couple fucking beers and I am likely to wake up at the cop shop. And this was before throwing in the winstrol
>>77577548Why would you second guess Hitler?
>>77577548I've been reported multiple times by these people for looking pissed and mumbling about them putting me in danger. I think they formed some kind of fag coalition thinking it would make a difference to an unbridled beast such as myself.
>>77577554The young one doesn't understand that Hitler has been the good guy of history this whole time
>>77577528Gotta have a significant level of calm to even meditate in the first place though
>>77577568Can you imagine being a man and reporting another man to management because his vibes made you uncomfortable? At that point, are we even the same species anymore?
>>77577568The government doesn't have "agents." They don't watch you, they can't see they have no eyes. Nobody is trying to steal your gains, it's all genetics. The government doesn't even exist, you are having nightmares again anon.
>>77577518What's this pop-psy lacan disguised slop? Why do you even think he thinks about his worth to the other? He seems pretty convinced they were alluding to him and thinks bullshit from a random nobody is important. The previous encounters don't matter. Why is he thinking in terms of "winning" "encounters" is a better question.
>>77577590I like to use legal terminology so that the gym government agents have to pretend they aren't stealing my gains but when they hear certain keywords they perk up because it sounds like money. Anything but get a real job including throwing yourself in front of my dumbbells.
>>77577595Because you either win or lose hostile encounters, obviously. I don't think about neutral or constructive encounters in competitive terms.
>>77577358>>77577441>>77577453>bait thread seek professional help, retarded sissy faggot
>>77577900Kys
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>>77577358>CHAD middle aged fat woman tells OP to clean his shit up>OP seething (he also cleaned his weights up but he accidentally left that out) >hours later and OP is still seething.She isn’t thinking about you at all btw.
>>77579883Literally the opposite of what happened, can't you read?
>>77580195It’s called inference. Obviously the roider who writes with 85 IQ prose is telling the story in a self flattering way.
>>77580802Umad jeet?
