After growing up in poverty with a shitty parent; I finally graduated college with a CS degree two years ago. Had a very successful and comfortable career at a local manufacturing plant writing software for the production database; moved up incredibly quickly. For the first time in my life, things were actually good.Then it went to shit. Orange menace got re-elected and slapped tariffs everywhere in the name of "American Manufacturing". Immediately our unit cost rose and margins grew thin because we were forced to import raw materials (not going to say what because it might make me identifiable) but it was a natural resource that sure enough, doesn't grow in the USA. A year later get told in January that myself, along with everyone else is going to be out of a job by March as production is ceasing and the plant is closing. Boxed my shit up come March and left behind literally everything I had busted my ass to build.That was months ago. I've been applying to everything, even grunt work that I absolutely qualified for. I've gotten maybe three interviews. Was doing well with a business intelligence position inquiry for a local hospital... until I got told randomly three weeks later that the position had been cut entirely. Go figure. Got one singular offer for a contract position but then my supposed start date got pushed back and they won't tell me when I'll be able to work. Pretty close to writing that one off too.1/2
I feel so fucking worthless and I can't take it anymore. I think about killing myself almost hourly and that repeating voice in my head just gets louder and louder. I was good at what I did. Now I can't even convince anyone to give me the time of day to even PROVE that I can be a good fit. I'm posting this shit here because it really feels like I can't say it anywhere else. I mention it to friends sometimes, but I always have this veneer of irony that is completely involuntary. If I drop that facade I'm too afraid they will see how much of a truly broken man I am; and I don't know where things will go from there. I also talk about it to my sister, but she's (and I feel bad for saying this) honestly kind of a midwit and doesn't even feel like she connects on an emotional level.I could deal with being alone, I could deal with how shit everything was, all I needed was to be useful. Couldn't even have that. They had to take that from me too.Post about similar experiences or share. Or don't. whatever. 2/2
Even my former coworkers couldn't find a job despite having degrees and many years of experience. With the market so bad, I'm clinging to my current job for dear life.
>>109802620At least you learnt something along the way.
>>109802747I really don't feel like I did
Anon, we're all in the same boat. I know people who got riffed from all kinds of high skill technical roles and haven't found work yet. The economy is fucked and companies are in holding patterns right now. Prepare to live off your savings for awhile. You're a little baby in the career world, 2 years isn't enough to brain yourself you haven't even had a chance to show everyone how much you can fuck things up.
If you die, your enemies win. Whoever wronged you gets away with it. Suffer more time on Earth out of spite for the chance things will get better and with certainty that you're going to die eventually no matter what happens.
>>109802620>After growing up in poverty with a shitty parentReally? Because you sound like a spoiled brat.
>>109802620>le orange menace = bad>le biden importing 99 million mexicans destroying low paying jobs = goodgo back to redit and stay there, Rajeesh
>>109804811How does OP sound spoiled or is this just some boomerpost
>>109804854If you have to ask...
>>109804811Kill yourself boomerfaggot
>>109804823Those 99 million mexicans aren't the ones taking away tech jobs.
>>109804909Boomer, got it
>>109804823Where the fuck was Biden even brought up lmao
>>109804823>hurr durr nooooo trump can't do anything bad....you must be... *cymbal monket rolls the wheel* INDIAN!!
>>109804823Genuinely wondering why I come here to 'discuss' shit with below-amoeba subhumans when I see posts like this one
>>109804934>>109804936
maybe you shouldn't have worked for the corporate raiders ransacking America
>>>/adv/
>>109804823Are you really still boot licking Zion Don?
>>109805107Who?
>>109804823Trump has destroyed high paying jobs. It's even worse than Biden
>Trump has destroyed high paying jobs.
Be honest OP. You're Indian. Just tell the truth.
maybe you should consider joining the us marines just in time to do your duty for america and die for israel?
im very skeptical because from what ive heard being white (read, not a non citizen poojeet) in manufacturing software is kinda a cheat code to getting in some experience if you can handle the environmenthave you not been applying to other plants? i know of several listings up right now, where do you live? are you willing to relocate?
