Iyc?Was it based on emotion or reason?
>>224315915Yes, plenty of times.>Was it based on emotion or reason?a bit of both
>>224315953How serious has it gotten? Have you ever attempted to off yourself?
>>224315915Everyone has thought about suicide but I never wanted to seriously off myself for even a second.
>>224315915Go to Korea.
>>224316876Why is it that the whites perish and the brown linger? If only serbia had the suicide rates of finland. Or brazil those of canada.
>>224316930You're a weak cuckold without energy or spine. Weak perish whether noble or not.
>>224316049Its been a long time and I'm better now, but I was completely serious. I even had a plan to make it look like an accident so my family wouldn't have to worry, I even spent money on that plan and had already decided on the location.>Have you ever attempted to off yourself?I am not a femoid, my goal wasnt to try, if I tried I would have succeed.
>>224316961You like, don‘t know me brah.
>>224316967>there is no tryBasado
>>224315915Is having recurrent intrusive disturbing thoughts I don't wanna have the same thing as "contemplating"? Either way, I'm no longer at that point>Was it based on emotion or reason?It was a subconscious thing, so I guess it was emotional?
>>224317256Intrusive thoughts aren‘t really contemplation. I‘m asking if your emotions led you to thinking about suicide or if it was pure logic.
>>224315915yes multiple times many and not even because of the war or being filthy jewI just had very shity life but eventually i just came to the conclusion that it's better to kill and hurt people then to kill myself
>>224317314Very reddit unless actually put in practise beyond parking in handicapped spots.
>>224317202I don't understand how you can claim superiority then think of killing yourself, those are contradictory.
>>224317513When did I say or imply that I wanted to kill myself. You serbs really are stupid.
>>224315953Same although not as far as this >>224316967Care to share a bit more?
Why are all the people ITT w suicidal thoughts spanish
>>224317287>I‘m asking if your emotions led you to thinking about suicide or if it was pure logic.Logic on suicide would only apply to cases where the suffering was actually unbearable and there wasn't any actual way out, which wasn't even my case
yes i have a to-do list and if i dont check at least 2-3 of them i will kill myself december next year. I still dont know how but i want something fast actingIm not religious as in religious religious but i want to die in a mosque so that at least my family finds some solace from the major fuck up they created, otherwise i would just hang myselfhttps://desuarchive.org/int/thread/224133801/#224138501
>>224317557I don't see you thinking or making a thread about this unless you're thinking about it yourself.Why the fuck would you care about random suicidal people you don't know?
>>224317606You could have foreseen you life losing meaning or being devoid of pleasure later on. >>224317653I can‘t read that, Anon.
>>224315915Yes, then I realized it'd make my parents devastated, so I'm keeping that option off as long as they're alive.
>>224315915I was an extremely depressed incel in my late teens/early 20s, even full on NEET for a couple of years. Went as far as planning helium suffocation (this is before they started adding oxygen to the cannisters). 35 now with a career, married with kids, turbonormie.
I used to pray every night to get cancer so I'd die without making my parents have an hero son
>>224317881Congrats anon
>>224317881Good on you anon, happy that someone has made it. Was in a similar spot during my teens, botched attempt leading to getting institutionalised for a while. Now mid 30s, even more depressed. When it rains it pours only on my end the pouring never ends
>>224317845>cares about parentsMeans they were nice so no real reason to kill yourself>>224317902What?>>224317881Picrel
>>224318436But there is no suffering in slovenia
>>224315915Yes, multiple times. Based on both emotion and reason, and a large plethora of reasons that I don't think would be conveyed well or taken seriously here. Because I'm physically weak, sheltered and bad with my hands a lot of options are unavailable to me barring very painful ones like bleeding out in a bath. Despite knowing it would all be over after that brief bit of pain, I've just got a mental block towards doing it.
>>224315915 (OP)I attempted, filled a bucket with water and contemplated getting my head inside.Multiple reasons, mostly nihilism and hopelessness caused by the unrestricted observation of the recent world events, COVID, the effect of vaccines, the supposed new world order, and a lot of conspiracy theories, plus the fact i am going through a very lonely time. What made me retrieve was that i was raised in a religious home, and didn't kill myself for fear of hell.Well, still living trying to find fun here and there, but no meaning at all, still want to die.
>>224319275>shelteredHow‘s this preventing some options?>>224319697>filled a bucket with waterI must say, I‘ve never heard of this method
>>224317578Me da un poco de vergüenza, a lo mejor otro día te lo cuento.
>>224319750>I‘ve never heard of this methodIt's called drowning.
>>224319815In a bucket? I imagine your brai
>>224319815In a bucket? I imagine your brain would make you dive out before you pass out. Kinda like with holding your breath.
I don't get these convoluted attempts like >>224318445 and >>224319697 when putting your head on rail tracks would be the best way to go, instant and guaranteed death.
Yes, and it started around 2019. I recovered from it then fell harder into depression again during the pandemic. What's only stopping me is my mom, because she is ill and I want to take care of her, and I highly doubt she could ever recover from her illness, and so is my mental health.
>>224319868>filled a bucket with water>ConvolutedKek>head on railroad tracksI‘d like to be a pretty corpse, not a headless one.
>>224319860Yes, you would.His thinking was naive, but his intention was to drown himself.
>>224319750If I ordered any pills, my parents would ask what they were and get suspicious since I don't have any health problems and someone is always around the house. Same with going to buy rope, since I don't go out much and wouldn't be able to hide it as they use my car a lot and if I buy something they want to see it. Things like that.
>>224319939How old are you?
>>224319981Almost 22. I have little privacy.
>>224319992Jeet/muslim?
>>224320007No, white bong. They treat me like a kid.
>>224319992>I have little privacy.If that's the case there's big chance that just moving out to live alone would fix you mood.
>>224319992Must be nice having parents who care what you do with your life.
>>224320074I wouldn‘t rush to that conclusion. Not in this economy.
>>224320074I can't afford to yet, I'm out of work and all of my savings from my last job have gone to giving rent to live at home and for food. >>224320192My mum is an alcoholic and I wouldn't be surprised if she has BPD or is a narcissist, she will scream at me about how she wishes I was never born one day but the next when she's feeling lonely she'll give a half-hearted apology just so she has someone to talk at because she made everyone else leave. My dad has emotionally shut down since she cheated and nothing I've tried has cheered him up. They don't care what I do, my mum just cares that I'm still around so she has someone and my dad has stopped caring but I mostly live at my mum's.
>>224315915I attempted(I wouldn't really call it an attempt) suicide 6 years ago, I wrote out a suicide note to my family saying goodbye, but I only made a small cut on one of my forearms before I stopped the attempt. I still think of killing myself every day. I'm in my early 30's, and my life is miserable, and I want to kill myself to reincarnate and have a better chance at being happy, but I still don't want to make my family sad by killing myself.
>>224320355>she will scream at me about how she wishes I was never born one day but the next when she's feeling lonely she'll give a half-hearted apology I can relate to this, I think. I mean that‘s oretty much the reason I stopped talking to my mom. The pattern was so apparent that enabling it felt insulting to my own self.Sounds like you could easily kill yourself if you wanted to. But don‘t, you‘re white.
>>224320444Checked trips. Are you white?
>>224320355All women have bpd
>>224320451A few weeks ago my brother cut her off entirely after he picked her up while drunk and she started going off at him about how arrogant and rude he is just because he asked her to say thank you for getting her. I wish I was able to cut her off too but I always think about how she will be alone, how she hasn't had an easy time in life and is damaged and how genuinely loving and innocent she can be. Plus I don't want to not have a mum. How did you do it?
>>224320644I simply don‘t talk to her and she pretty much doesn‘t talk to me. She doesn‘t mind at all (proving a lot of my suspicions).
no im scared of death o algo even THOUGH is natural and le happens to everybody
>>224320964Read this book, it was written by a formerly Atheist Swede.
>>224319754Lo bueno de este foro es que nunca nadie va a saber quién eres o qué has dicho en el pasado. Es liberador poder decir las cosas más vergonzosas sin juicio permanente.Yo me enamoré de una puta, me quise suicidar, y mil cosas más. Y sabes qué? Iré a otro hilo y nadie sabrá que fui yo quien dijo todas estas mariconadasPero como veas
>>224317605la eternal siesta...
>>224321340Kek
nope, even tho my life is a dumpster fire with dead parents and zero friends, zero pussystill would never off myself, i bet most suicidal whites have absolutely munadne problems that are easily fixable, but since they are pussified drama queens, its enough to make them ACK themselves
i attempted it in the midst of a psychotic break, evidently when you're suffering from a disease like schizophrenia you're not acting rationally; your mind literally works in reverseone of my biggest regrets from that era is the pain i caused to my parents
>>224321577Hope things work out for you, Anon.
>>224321340Lmao
>>224321286>me enamoré de una putaLmao, recuerdo leer tus posts en alguna parte, yo personalmente no me pongo a dar datos míos porque se puede saber quién soy de las quedadas de /esp/ y las de /a/, no me dan miedo los incels de 4Chuds pero me daría un pelin de vergüenza qué me reconociera alguno de los chavales que me caen bien.
>>224321340Keked
>>224315915No but I've self harmed constantly for the past year or so.None of the cuts have left scars since the razorblades I use are too small and the knives I own are too dull.I started hitting myself instead recently and I gave myself a concussion by punching my head and covered my forearm in bruises by using my phone as a bludgeon.I'm too scared of death to suicide.
>>224315915>>224322620Oh, it's based on me being unable to emotionally cope with any life stresses. My life isn't even that bad. I started self harming because >tfw no gf but now I just do it whenever something mildly inconveniences me, as I get disproportionately upset at every6
>>224322716*everything
I will never kill myself.Life is too short and going through hardship is based and kino in my eyes.
>>224315915i pretty much wake up every morning thinking of blowing my brains out.>a bit of both>>224315953
>>224322716>>224322620Don‘t give yourselves brain dmg, idiots.
>>224315915Only if I become senile, otherwise it's the coward's way out
>>224319905Yeah, it was, it was the fastest way i could think of, but i don't know if i would retrieve if i really got my head in the water.Anyway, was not brave enough to go through it.
>>224323043I stopped hitting my head after the concussion incident. I started seeing a therapist a week ago and have resisted self harming since our first session, but the urge is there constantly.
>>224323280I hope you get better and be happy some day anon.
>>224323280I honestly can‘t believe I still haven‘t roped. I see how the rest of my life will come to pass and it‘s bleak. Guess there‘s akways the chance that I‘m wrong. Hope you get better, Anon. Don‘t just take whatever pills they give you.
>>224319754Conta logo hermano
>>224323280Are U fat?
>>224315915I contemplated it to a degree but never went far with it I can’t even remember what made me so miserable to think about it but it was probably a combination of things and my general misery
>>224315915Almost everyday, however, I still have a social contract towards the people around me that I have to uphold
>>224323383Thank you brazilanon>>224323384Thanks. I think you are wrong, things will get better, or you will at least get better at coping with it. Lots of ways to enjoy being alone nowadays.I don't have to worry about her giving me pills since she's a therapist and not a psychiatrist. I do also see a psychiatrist but I lie to her so she doesn't increase my prescription (been on medication since I was a kid)>>224323459Yes, I look like pic-related. Partly why I want to self harm.
>>224323627>meds since kidThey tried to do the same to me but I refused medication even then>fatI‘m /fit/ and it changes nothing for me. Just cope.
>>224323627Why don't You just stop being a ball of fat? Is not that hard.
Fastest moving thread on /int/ btw
>>224315915Suicide is for selfish cowards, I could never put my mum through that, and regardless of what life throws at me I'll get through it. That doesn't mean I enjoy life though, I almost look forward to death and will welcome it with open arms.
>>224323747All of you that mention your parents, or one parent, already have one person who cares which is a lot more than other Anons have.
>>224323849I don't care
>>224315915Couple of times each week. They used to make me really sad, now it's just kinda whatever. I know I'm a failure so my suicide is inevitable. I'm gonna throw myself in front of a train as that seems to be the fastest and most reliable way to do it without pain or point of failure.
>>224323883I don‘t care that you don‘t care. But calling others selfish bastards isn‘t right.
>>224323884Makes me legit sad seeing nordic flags say shit like this.
>>224323917It is if you have people who love and care about you and would suffer if you killed yourself. People who don't have anyone that cares will not cause suffering by ending their life so I don't care.
>>224323997You‘re saying that if you cause suffering to others it is wrong and otherwise it‘s fine?What a stupid thing to say.
>>224323947Why? Failures exist everywhere.
>>224324047I imagine you all as very cute and I want to give you a hug.
>>224324042I'm saying it's a selfish action if it causes other people suffering. There are blokes with a wife and children who kill themselves, think about how much damage that causes them.
>>224315915I tried twice when I was a teenager , now I would never no matter how terrible life gets. There are so many better ways to die and I just consider it cowardly , I was just a retard when I was a teenager
Contemplating whether you should kill yourself is a human thing and if you never did it you are just an npc.You dont have to do it though
>>224324075Yeah, no shit, that‘s avoiding responsibility for a life you‘ve created (fuck the wife). But as far as moms go, I had a very shitty mother who‘s the source of a lot of my lamentations. Why should I give a fuck how she‘d feel if I offed myself?
>>224324134>selfish asshole gives birth to selfish asshole who are both miserable and refuse to take any kind of accountability A tale as old as time. You know you can choose to not be a selfish asshole right?
>>224318436There's an incredible amount of power in small changes
>>224324208I‘m not.
>>224324497Anon selfishness is part of the human condition, you dont either have it or dont have it you just constantly need to learn how to be self aware of it and choose not to do it. Its a discipline not an inherent trait to not to be selfish and its never something youre rid of Saying things like >fuck my mother i hate her and she's miserable so why should I care of my death hurts?Is selfish objectively. You dont want to hurt bad people out of a sense of spite as if that helps anyone
>>224322120Jajajajajajaja genialBueno pues allá tú. Para ti esto es una red social entonces. Para mi es simplemente un espacio para reírme de todo y de todos, incluido yo. En mi vida quedaría o haría lazos con alguien de aquí. Le quitaría toda la gracia. El anonimato lo es todo
De hecho, me dan mucho asco los hilos generales. Nunca entenderé por qué no os váis a discord pero bueno qué sé yo no soy un janny
Yes every day, if only I wasn’t coward :(
yes because I am a deeply disturbed individual with a non-existing sense of self-worth and esteem
>>224324590I want everyone to pay their dues. Justice is all I want.>>224325051If ur cute we should get ice cream
