The sad thing about my country is that at 23, I have only ever accomplished a long line of failures, and it makes me sad that I turn 24 in March. It's too late for me to accomplish or try anything else because I am such a useless and utterly worthless retard with an IQ of 60 that I can't see myself even being anything. You know, most men at my age have already started their careers; meanwhile, I have pipe dreams. I am not even sure it's worth becoming a firefighter because, honestly, I am 165 pounds at 5 ft 8, so I am pretty weak, and I feel so useless. I am honestly thinking about killing myself soon, but I wanna explore the world before I do it. I think it will be fun to just die i already told my cousin my plans and asked him to tell my family. It's not their fault, but mine for being a failure
>>225018167be a good mutt and go to ur nearest gun shop and u know...buy an axe so u can fullfill ur dreams of becoming a firefighter, theres not really a height requierment and short people are useful to get into thight confined spaces but u arent even that short to begin with, there is always hope anon c:
nigga you're 23
>>225018346>>225018306The emt school is filled and they won't have openings til after summer I am gonna be 25 when I get the chance to start. Thing is I failed thr CNA course so
The job market sucks dick. I work all the time and am busy with masters degree as well, got a brain tumor removed last year but still suffer from some neurological problems that cause me to have a speech impediment and chronic pains and shit that makes it hard to sleep. I feel like I am in hell but I keep surviving. Also I’m a friendless loser chud
go travelling or something bro idk. also 23 is super young go bang 18 year olds while you still can
>>225018536I want to just go to New Zealand and china really then blow my brains out
>>225018541do it
>>225018677I mean sure suicide part sl sounds good I guess
>>225018694sounds good to me as well faggot, actually do it and stop asking for crumbs of compassion
>>225018867I am not asking for compassion just a reason not to do it
>>225018167It's your life to do with as you please. Definitely give travel a try, it threw me off the suicide track for a while. Otherwise I don't know what to tell you. Try meditation, it'll keep you at neutral.
You're still better off than some people
>>225019043If the standards are that low then fuck
>>225019177Worse, honestly.How do you think it'll feel if you're 10 years older with a broken heart ending up in the same position you are now. Or 20 or 30 years for that matter.
>>225018974read Camus, i recomend this book first its a narrative story kinda like watching a tv show, then read the myth of sysiphus its more of a phylosophy book and the book starts questioning if it is worth living or not he also talks about pesimism and desesperation to find something worth living, u can read his personal tuberculosis journals in the middle if u get burnout o algo
>>225018167you're 23 chill the tf out. unless you're like in your mid-30s you still have time to figure things out.
>>225019465>one should imagine wagie happyLove the grindstone while it grinds your bones
>>225019177Or maybe you're spoiled
>>225018167>The sad thing about my country is>proceeds to list retarded personal failuresDo you want to show us on the dool where the country made you a gay loser?
>>225019545> This one simple trick that keeps my thread from being nuked by janniesKeep up, dunce.
>>225018167Sometimes im sad. Then I remember I own a Glock 20 Gen 3 chambered in 10mm and loaded with 16 rounds of 190 grain freedom seedsGod bless america
>>225019523see, i literally gave him a logical way out of passive nihilism and the faggot leaves the thread, and that his problem from everything he is told he brings only the downsides, i seriuosly hope he choses physical suicide and no more fagotry threads will be make from this nigger never again, please OP kill yourself im happy u are a sad mutt, i dont like the fact that u dont really blame others but as u get old i hope u get more resentful as a coping mechanism and start writing a manifesto like the good mutt u are u will go on a shooting spree and kill more mutts and then u are gonna shoot urself hahha that would be amazing, one must imagine OP killing himself
>>22501834Indeed, sure you may be a useless fag, but if you don't kill yourself you'll probably live to get to at least 60, 30+ years is sure a lot of wiggle room.You don't need to be great either, just get your butt off 4chan and start really trying to fix your life and you might end up doing it.Or just don't, you probably just made the post to act as a victim either way
>>225018167>I got numbed to it. It's not as sad anymore, I feel indifferent to some extent. Don't compare yourself to other people, anon. Do the things you care about - if it's travel, then travel. You can always kill your self some other time, but that'll be final. So do the things that interest you in the meantime. Don't get other people involved in your suicide. Your cousin will continue to live and wish he had done something to help you. Think of the people who care about you and will have to carry on after you're gone. I hope you don't go through with it. At least live until your late 20s before thinking about such things.>>225020247Don't be mean to him, anon. He's probably dealing with a lot of shit and came here to vent. I tried reading philosophy when I was suicidal hoping to find some meaning in my suffering and it didn't do shit because I couldn't process and internalize what I was reading when I was in that headspace. Just ignore his thread if it bothers you.
