>be me>extremely racist chud with sick ideas inside my head>see Harlem Youths prancing around in groups and laughing with their head held high, in shiny new clothes and bikes>know that these fucks will be put in schools and within 5 years I'll be seeing coalburners pushing strollers (saw one the week before)>order some last-minute groceries because too much work to go out right now>some vantablack bantu kaffir brings it to me, speaking broken Greek, all smiling>my first instinct isn't contempt, but see him as a fellow human being>think "I suppose it all depends on the context">open Xitter>see other Njadakians doing Njadakian things>go back to Step 1I feel as if inside me there's a Chud and the Wholesome Chungus Christard that I was raised as, and I'm always torn between being completely selfless and fantasizing about the Great Reckoning. I'm the same with others too. I am always open, eager to help, until everyone takes advantage of me and then I have all these dark thoughts about graphic vengeance, which vanish the second someone else needs help. Does this happen to (You) Chuds in your cunts as well? I don't like being both very kind and very imaginatively vindictive. I feel like a schizo. I cannot be who I am, one way or the other. My heart won't allow me to be selfish, but I also cannot deny the state of the world, or the fucks around me. Yet I keep giving them chance after chance after chance. It's soul-crushing.
>>226059984Yeah
>>226059984is that racism or is it merely a priori knowledge about how the future scientist will commit crimes, be a tax burden, and degrade society, while the cheerful wagie who just happens to be black, will be an average member of society
>>226059984stop opening xitteri fixed your problem
