Has mental illness fucked your 20s in your country?
>MeYes. While I don't have all the blame because I never knew I was this fucked in the head until recently, I still am 100% responsible for my failures.
>>226078991no but i had really bad obssesive thoughts. i defeated them in the end.
yeahI know this website generally refuses to acknowledge that ADHD is a real thing, but my inability to focus on anything for more than a few minutes has completely ruined my life. I never developed the ability to study. I never developed the willpower to force myself to do things I don't want to do. As a result I've ended up at a shitty dead end job because I didn't produce good enough work in college. I've tried and failed countless times to work on projects outside of work that I could hopefully use to find a better job, and I can't even force myself to do the activities I enjoy in my free time. My life is some I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream hell where I realize my inaction is making me miserable, but I can't get myself to take the action to improve anything. I'm also too scared to get prescribed medication for ADHD despite having been diagnosed for over 15 years because I'm already addicted to porn and I know I'd turn into a degenerate gooner if I had adderall or vyvanse in my system.I've wasted what should have been the best 10 years of my adult life living like this. Constantly thinking of things I want to do and never doing them, constantly thinking of skills I wanted to learn and never practicing them, constantly recognizing problems in my life and never fixing them. I just can't focus on anything and see it through to completion. As soon as something else catches my attention I immediately forget everything I was previously thinking about and jump to that.I've typed more than 2 sentences so nobody is going to read this, but whatever.
>>226078991duh, why do you think we are here?
>>226078991I went on top of Costanera
>>226078991Yes I've had agoraphobia and a panic disorder since I was about 12 and it has reared its ugly head to fuck me over at various points in my life. My mum is claustrophobic, maybe I inherited my problems from her.
>>226078991I like that pic, I'll take it to prove that Santiasco is a brown thirdworld city
>>226079307>I'd turn into a degenerate gooner if I had adderall or vyvanse in my systemWhy are you saying this? What are the side effects of these drugs?
>>226079307The dosages for the drugs they give you for ADHD are not at the level people abuse them at, so the effects will be different. Just go to the fucking doctor.
>>226079307Listen to >>226079940I'm a tier 3 gooner and never had any side effects with Adderall regarding porn consumption.Just go to the doctor.About the motivation issue. It's really fucking hard but ADHD can be mitigated with this mechanism: constant action -> habit>Try to consume almost 0 social media>No reels or TikToks>No doomscrolling>No listening to music, watching videos or fake dopamine while commuting, pooping.>No smoking>No instant gratification of any kindEmbrace boredom because it gets easier as you make it a habit and helps you get through actual study or deep work.Normalfags can get away with instant gratification and be productive at the same time because their brains work and ours do not.It's important you acknowledge we're completely fucked and the only path forward is putting away any source of instant gratification.Maybe keep the porn but limit yourself to 30 min a day. All adults need to satisfy their sexuality.I told you just 30% of all you need to know
>>226078991Yeah, its fucking my 30s too.
>>226079940>>226080192okay, I might as well look into it. I'm just scared of taking mind altering drugs. I'm worried I'll turn into someone who isn't me.
>>226080192oh, and thank you for the advice. I realize there's more to your reply than just echoing what the other guy said about going to the doctor. I shouldn't have left that out.
>>226081126Well the person who is you sounds fucked up so anything is an improvement.
>>226081126>I'm worried I'll turn into someone who isn't me.That doesn't happen. It's just doomer propaganda.
Yeah, but desu I also fucked my own life>Had really bad OCD & Germaphobia>Got terrible GCSE's because I couldn't eat at school, drink at school, go to toilet at toilet, touch my school items at home etc.>Got decent grades at A-Level but I should've tried harder and now regret it>Now 23 doing a foundation year at a local Uni but gonna drop out since I am not enjoying the course whatsoever>Going to go to a furrher Uni next year and study Environmental ScienceLots of regrets in my life. Like not going to Uni in 2025 instead of 2026, choosing wrong Uni course, not gaining any friends at Sixth Form, not having any dating experience.I try to be the best person I can be but life is very tiring desu.
>>226078991yuh
>>226078991Kind of. I'm professionally successful. I have lots of money. Lots of free time. I have an objectively easy life which 95% of people would kill for. But at the same time I have no friends, no relationships, no hobbies, no nothing. I don't do anything, I don't want anything, because I don't enjoy anything, and I haven't for nearly two decades. I just kind of do the minimum to avoid being bored, and that's my life. I kill time between meals and sleep. I don't even remember what it's like to enjoy things. Any time I try to do things which I theoretically should enjoy it's like fumbling around in the dark before eventually giving up. Being around people who actually seem to want things, who go out of their way to do things for fun, feels like being around fucking aliens.
