Hope you are comfy
I am highly jealous of anyone who's good at cooking for themselves.
>>51038124When are you going to kill yourself?
I'll always be a disappointment to everyone. I hate being a shut-in. The world is simply a boring place when I turn off my computer or phone.I tried so hard to socialize in the past, but it never worked. After all the bad experiences I had, I only isolated myself more and more.My mom is always worried that I'm going to kill myself. She always indirectly asks me if I'm really happy, and sometimes she even cries when talking to me. It's clear that I have no real purpose.I'm so autistic that a waiter once asked if I was a foreigner because of the way I spoke. I also remember how back in high school all my teachers either treated me like a child or looked at me with disgust.I don't know why I'm living at this point. The only things that keep me alive are the internet (which unfortunately may have contributed to my isolation) and 2D otaku stuff. I often think about all the anime I haven't watched yet, all the visual novels I haven't played, and all the experiences I haven't had in general.I would also really like to visit Japan someday. It's my ultimate dream. Japan honestly seems like a utopia for someone as socially awkward as me despite everything.
>>51038125Probably can't be bothered unless chronic pain or homelessness kicks in.>>51038132>utopia for someone socially awkwardThe world is a shit and people will have the same condescending mob mentality wherever you live in it.
had a mental breakdown and messed up my sleep schedule. back to vampire hours.
My mom came while I was oversleeping and brought Schnitzels, I had a comfy dinner while watching footie
It seems everyone eventually ends up abandoning me without explanation. I feel like I’m just a toy for their amusement, to be cast aside as soon as they grow bored of me. People tell you to find community, that people in the same demographic as you (i.e. autistic) will treat you better but like half the people that treat me like this are already autistic. I’m a monster even among monsters. Fraternity is always an ideal people strive for, not something that actually already exists in the real world. People will respond to questions and comments from me but they almost never try to actively seek me out.
>>51042077Your probably just ugly, even ugly people dont like being near uglies, have you considered losing weight or getting plastic surgery?
>>51042092>>51038125lol what's up with this tourist? he's trying too hard. this is the neet thread, we're not meant to try hard here....>>51042077You can't be resentful, people are generally scared of commitment or just move on. It's tempting to think they're doing it out of malice, but you can't think that way. What are your hobbies, anon? And I mean hobbies where you create, not consume.
>>51042077>like half the people that treat me like this are already autisticI'm hella autistic and find being by myself my comfortable default. I do sometimes crave making friends or chatting online with the few I have, but at the same time interacting with others can be challenging and uses a lot of energy. I can get clingy for a bit before going back to keeping to myself. I'm very good at keeping myself entertained, so I tend to slip back into my default of being alone unless the other person is actively pushing for interaction. This (unfairly) puts the burden of initiating interaction on the other person, and probably comes off as me being disinterested. But mostly I'm just immersed 24/7 in my own daydreams and hobbies to the point I don't realize time passing by without contact. At the same time, I have the contradictory habit of thinking "well if someone wants to talk to me, they'll seek me out. If they don't then they're not in the mood or they're busy."So this could the kind of mindset some people you deal with have.
reverse tolerance is a bitch
I don't even want to be a NEET. I am actively looking for work and I'm debating whether or not I want to get a CDL-A for trucking or to head back to college for data analytics. Why am I a NEET? Because I live in the back of a RURAL community and I don't have a car. I need a car to get to jobs. I need a job to get a car.fml
>>51043228>Data analyticsTrucking seems more fun to me than that meme career, me thinks
Neet threads are rarely happy threads :(
>>51038124Trial and error. I make myself filling staples because they're cheap and nutritious. Doesn't even have to be complex, just dozen or so bulk pantry staples and a decently equipped spice rack.
Playing bo2 and drinking energy kinda nightIm falling behind more and more in my studies, I am dissapointed in myselfI tell myself the lie that it was all just a ruse to stay a neet and get some money, and that it was the plan all along, but in truth some part of me wanted to suceed at becoming somethingBut I really dont have the motivation to study or even show up most days, so can I really claim I want to become something when I cant put in a bare minimum of an effort?I became the outsider again aswell, but that was to be expected according to my behaviourIn the end I do enjoy being a Neet even if it makes me feel like a failure sometimesAnd trust me, back when I was a construction worker I did not feel like any less of a loserA job wont fullfill youOr atleast it wont fullfill me that easily
>>51043732Play WaW instead.
>>51042135>What are your hobbies, anon? And I mean hobbies where you create, not consume.I often draw, occasionally cast metal trinkets, I’ve been thinking of getting into writing small things as well. I’ve tried making rpgmaker stuff before but usually end up losing focus. I actually don’t watch anime that much or play too many video games. Every month or two I’ll binge something over the course of a few days. I actually spend more time researching non fiction stuff. My attention span works in strange ways, partly due to melancholy and autistic hyperfixation.>>51042092I mostly interact with people through the internet and never send them pictures of my face.
