My idea self, the person I wish I could be, is an elegant waifish bookwormy. I'd dress a little old fashion and have very pretty well kept hair and big glases and be soft-spoken, kind, thoughtful, and put a lot of effort into dressing up my appearance and car and house, workstation etc. I'd just want to be the kind of person who is just pleasant to be around. Instead im just a big, overweight ugly moid who is rude and crude, literally zero effort in my appearance whatsoever. My room is a mattress on the floor with a desk and computer on the other side. Everything is function and the bare minimum effort. I am ugly inside and out, and completely masculine. It is over.
>>43651837same, though sometimes i yearn for some kind of alt/goth/y2k style dykery. alas, i am fat and retarded and a man
>>43651837Just put some effort in nigga
>>43651863Whats the point? I'll never be that kind of person
>>43651875You might not be your perfect absolute idealised self but you can be a better version of yourself and definitely at least live in a space that’s nicer to a significant degree.
>>43651959You're not wrong but its highly stressful and demotivating to try to put effort into something so ridiculously futile
>>43651837Same, I would also wear lolita coords from time to time and grow my hair really longBut I feel like this world is actively hostile to beauty and the effort not only wouldn't be appreciated but actively discouragedAlas, I hope the next life is better
>grow my hair out with the idea of putting it in a bun like a librarian>look like picrel
>>43652430That guy is loved though
>>43651837that look (sans the waifish part) is one you can pull off very well being overweight though, don't give up before you even start tryingI always dreamed of being one of those sporty stuck-up girls who spend their days doing yoga and cardio and drinking healthy smoothies and suchAm horribly out of shape (not overweight just very sedentary) but I've gone running once a week for two months now and it's not much but just taking the tiniest steps towards your dream self feels rewarding even if life itself is pure despair idk
>>43652430mogs me
>>43653013What does the fat version of op's image look like
