If so, did your idea of who you wanted to become match up with who you became?
>>43678489Yes but I knew it was unrealistic (like legitimately out of the cards even if I was cisf) so my goal instead became to figure out what kind of girl I could become.
>>43678489i just wanna be me but a woman. i havent changed anything in my personality
>>43678489Ngl I thought about that. I wanted to be someone who appeared put together but had little things that were "off": flashy earrings and maybe some accessories. I just wanna look like a woman atp.
I did but it wasn't a genuine desire, it was just the path of least resistance from a position of lacking self: just be the modest nerdy but well dressed stem girl that goes to med school and chases social mobility, don't stop to think about anything else too long...Eventually I cracked after getting sick, so now I'm a non-person still searching for me.
>>43678489no and i still dont and it was and is confusing but its working itself outa lot of the want to be/be with her question
>>43678489yesno and im detrooning now
>>43678489no not really if i was cisf i would've ended up a hefab though 100%,
