>hrt three years and look/feel good>lost a bunch of weight and being young/intersex helped>go to a local pride thing and meet another trans woman>I have been sleeping with men since before I started hrt and am tired of being their little sissy toy>me and this girl start hanging out>its genuinely so nice to have another trans woman I can vent to and share advice with>when I talk to her I feel like I am actually being heard>develop a little crush>then more of a crush>she is the first woman I've ever felt anything for>actually feels homosexual>strong lezy feelings>she keeps venting to me about breaking up with her long distance gf>hang out and get drunk one night>talk until the sun comes up>talk about everything>have never felt like I have had a real friend before>have never dated anyone I could talk to all night>I feel disgusting about having a crush on her, I should just be her friend but its difficult when she asks my opinion on her gf who doesn't seem to respect her>stop going out with men because I'm not feeling anything with them anymore>one guy in this stretch went at me so bad I had a night terrors for the first time in years>what if t4t is the only way I can be loved for something other than the body I hateI feel all emotional and disgusting. I feel like the awful transbian creature the terfs make us out to be. That I can't just be her friend. I've had some little crushes on celebrities but what I like about this girl is who she is, her personality, the way she speaks and sees the world. She makes me want to pick up art and music again, to just sit in the sun and look into her eyes. It feels cringe and juvenile, and its making me hate myself, and that's why I'm venting here, because I cant vent to her about my feelings for her.
>>43680786stop getting in your head about it nona this sounds very sweet and innocent.idk what advice to give you though, if shes still with someone dont be weird
>>43680786I'm sorry, lady. I wish I knew what to say, vut all I can aay is that I relate. I feel so bad about the crush I have on my one friend. I guess try to seperate your feelings about her partner and your feelings for her. As impossible as that probably is. Just help her figure out her own issues and if that means that a future where you're together is possible, so be it. Like I said, I know that's a crazy bias to have to ignore, but help her through this as if your feelings didn't exist
What did you talk about in the "everything" moment
>>43680786>>she keeps venting to me about breaking up with her long distance gfi didnt say it you did
>>43682695everything from passing, to advice about sex (we were very drunk), to games and movies, etc. We also took turns putting on movies and stuff to watch and telling stories about our mutual adventures
nona this is so normal. this is SO normal. it's okay to have crushes!!! it's okay to have crushes on girls, even!!! it sounds like you two really get along and like each other, and if she's also attractive to you it's really only natural that you would want to have something like that with her...you're allowed to be gay. speaking as someone who has been going through something not dissimilar for a while it feels really good to justlet yourself feel things and let that be okay. there's nothing wrong with you.
>>43680786Speaking frankly OP: the curse of Ra will be invoked on you if you let a bunch of sociopolitical lunatics get away with ruining a good friendship and a potential good relationship between the two of youStop being such a woman and feeling guilty about Having Feelings for someone you've come to love. Jesus christ. Suggest doing a movie night sometime and that you want to let her pick the movie or something.
Fuck i want that more than anythibg. Id literally sell my soul if it meant i could get good t4t
>>43680786nigga get dewormedhere you are being in love n shiet, and you're letting underfucked cishons ruin your shitalso tell your gf to nut up and break up with the disrespecting bitch, she deserves a better woman (you)>t. choid
