idk what to doi can never afford ffs if I leave my bfbut he’s abusive and terrible and controlling to me constantly it’s driving me insane i want to die and I’m scared and sad I don’t think I can workI should have never got catfished by him I wish I could be independent how did I let this happen to myself
>>43681554jesus :( what’s ur situation? how dependent are you? anyone you could rely on while you get away from him?
>>43681570i dont have any friend he makes me remove them and gets jealous if I ever add anyone and my family isn’t in contact with me
>>43681554you can do it anon i left my abusive drunk boyfriend there are programs and shelters that can help you. try to contact your family for a place to stay.
>>43681640i tried they have had enough of me being a neet and a tranny, evil hillbillies who just tell me to get a job and think I should ignore my childhood trauma and think gender dysphoria isn’t realmy families neglectfulness and emotional abuse is one of the main reasons I got stuck with an abusive bf
>>43681554why can't you work?
>>43681861im a retarded tranny
>>43681554how long would it take you to get ffs if you stayed? desu that would be the only reason id ever stick around
>>43681963few more years dealing with it he said ill never get it without him which is probably true
my bf doesnt work eitherhe said he would when we started dating but that was years ago now but at least he gives me money sometimes
>>43681955oh okay me too lmao. i'm literally terrified of people but i'm plan to get work as a server soon after not working for years. i hope you can find some work too. Independence sounds like what you need most
>>43682025it’s hard just to be around peoplethank u and good luck god bless you
I could probably cope with being controlled and micromanaged and cheated on and insulted if he would stop forcing me to do weird fetishes like look at porn of other ppl it disgusts me and even though I’ve said stop and I don’t like it hundreds of times he doesn’t stopand he never listens if I say stop or no about anything just kill me god
if he sees this im gona get hit or be homeless so yeah this is probably some kind of cry for help or my loneliness is starting to kill me inside
>>43681554why dont you get ffs and then leave your bf?
>>43682230idk what ill do or what will happen to me Though i wish someone loved me and that my boyfriend didn’t lie to me before we started dating
its probably all my fault i ignored red flags cause I was so lonely and wanted a partner
>>43682245>idk what ill do or what will happen to mei know that feeling, because I have a similar problem. but, as you dont know what you'll do, why dont you try thinking on what you can do now.why you cant get ffs now?
>>43682260cant afford it trying my best here
>>43682267I know that you cant afford,but you said you wouldnt be able to afford without your bf, so with him you might get it right?
>>43682245literally whatever happens after you get ffs and leave him will be better than staying. there are resources to help with this kind of thing too
>>43682272yeah maybe in a couple years but I also have to be tortured by him but ig i can try to tough it out lol
>>43682281now if we are talking years to get an ffs,it could be quicker to find a new boyfriend who would help you lol.
on second thought i wouldn't even suggest staying for the ffs. a few years of waiting will become another few years of waiting if it's up to him. that's how abusers operate, by keeping you dependent on them.
It’s hard keeping up with it honestly, pretending like I don’t hate him and pretending like I don’t want to leave and never being able to vent or feel safe or have privacy pretending like I haven’t given up on him ever being a good personit’s just so much but maybe I should just be stronger?lots of cis women have shitty evil boyfriends >>43682289idk if I could ever be with another man i think he made me only like girls >>43682298:(
>>43682309>but maybe I should just be stronger?no you need to start thinking how you're gonna leave him, because those types of relationships usually escalates to homicide. trust me, I almost got killed.>i think he made me only like girlsyeah this happened to me lol, maybe you can find a girlfriend to support you.
>>43682323i have some scars from him cutting me with a torn piece of hard plastic
>how you’re gonna leave him kill myself or become homeless
So what has he lied about? And catfished? How did you end up meeting him and living with jim
>>43682342I have a big scar from my shoulder to my elbow, from when he tried attacking me with a knife luckily it didnt cut any tendon so I have normal movement, but it still hurts to this day.>>43682352being homeless is better than being dead
>>43682355literally everything it happens so much I try not to think about it or care / take anything he says seriously anymore >>43682361Wow that’s so fucked but ur just like me he used to spit on me a lot but he hasn’t in a while mostly just threatens to kick me out or hits me
>>43682323>yeah this happened to me lol, maybe you can find a girlfriend to support you.yeah, this. op ur reliant and you need someone else to help keep that support up as you leave him. i think you could do it with a gf or really good gal friend
>>43682395how can I get a girlfriend or a girl friend
>>43682385>mostly just threatens to kick me out or hits meif he's threatening you kick you out, you really should try to search for a shelter or some place just to stay night. (I could recommend searching help in churches, they sometimes have places that can help you, after my bf attacked me I was so afraid I run away got to a church nearby and asked for help, they drove me to the hospital, then to the police then helped me find a place until I could get a job).
>>43682414it usually only happens if I’m doing something he doesn’t like like not talking to him for too long or getting upset at himi called a dv shelter one time but they couldn’t take me because >you’re in the same location as your abuser which idk I think it’s dumb I’m honest to a fault and we live together and after that he unlocked the bedroom door and I had no privacy and I got to downplay the whole thing to make it easier on myself
>>43682435>it usually only happens if I’m doing something he doesn’t like likeit should never happen, he works from home? do you have alone time without him?>you’re in the same location as your abuserok that is completely retarded ffs
if I leave he follows me it’s not possible to just do it I have to be safe and play my cards right or I die lol>>43682459i have privacy sometimes but not very often currently like a couple days a week maybe even then he expects me to text him all day >ok that is completely retarded ffsyeah it was hard to hear that because I was ready to get out that day
Where are you? I feel like you should find a way to return back home even if it’s to beg your family for a return flight bus or whatever
>>43682566my family is mean though and don’t love me and don’t accept me or even respect meMy family is dead to me just like I am with them I’m sure my bf loves thatim in Cali
>>43682593What part of Cali? Idk if the situation is really bad just hit your family up. Idk why you’d want to stay with someone who actually abuses you.
>>43682665I tried and just got insults and belittlement back at a certain point I just give up life is so complicated and I just can’t for many reasons and even if it was that easy I’d still rather die or be homeless than live with my shitty family after everything they’ve done to me
>>43682740That sucks desu. I’m in Cali too but we’re probably not even close. Do you have a job?
>>43682771no jobwell what part are you from idk I’m just scared because I don’t want to get hurt
>>43682780I’m in SoCal but originally from the center of Cali. You could try getting a job then leaving that dude man
>>43682798I’ve thought about that but it’s rly rly hard and honestly I’ll probably never get a job as long as I’m dating him it’s just too much
im sad and don’t have much hope and I want to get in bed and watch YouTube on my phone til I pass out if u wana be my friend or if u think I’m cute add me on dc - favorite37
>>43682814Good luck dude
>>43682855thanks
