>>43686999
uhhh what happened to the phoria op

>>43687133
it is gone, i swear
but there is this weird addiction towards being acknowledged as a woman that i cant quite kick

>>43687237
hmmmm
how do you think it disappeared?

>>43687293
i dont cry over being male as often
helplessness is the cure it seems

>>43687369
>as often
that just sounds like (understandably) giving up and repping while letting dysphoria still kick you while you're down
are you sure this is how you want the decades ahead to be?
hrtrepping as a first step at least?

>>43686999
Same, I transitioned, switched schools, went stealth, got SRS, and have a GF.
The fuck am I doing here?

>>43687407
but i have sunk so much time for a way out
and i am getting closer than over
what is sinking another decade to resolve my unreasonable desire to be a counterfeit woman?

>>43687237
Huh I wonder if there's a name for that

>>43687541
well I assume you're in your 20s and repping. do you want your 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s and 70s to be spent as a man slowly getting more masculine, bold, getting the old man smell, and so on?
>unreasonable desire
seems to be a brain miswiring in utero, innit. not exactly your fault or something you can choose (unless you're lucky that it's just a trauma response that you can therapy away to be fully cis), and seems like the least worst treatment is transitioning. considering what I see in /repgen/ and other places, at least
but yeah, I sincerely hope it's not dysphoria because that shit's rough. but if it is...

>>43687654
> trauma response
if it is i dont know what it takes to unfuck me...
>>43687628
there isnt, i never had dysphoria and am just misappropriating my inane AGPcoded desire to transition with the experiences and motivations of the real trans people

>>43687733
>if it is i dont know what it takes to unfuck me...
might be legit GD. I thought the usual approach was to get on dat dere HRT for a few months, see if it improves menthol helf, if you get reverse dysphoria or something, otherwise to stick with it
>i never had dysphoria and am just misappropriating my inane AGPcoded desire to transition with the experiences and motivations of the real trans people
why do you think that's the case?

my head hurts from all the starving/lack of sleep, will check back after 2 hours

>>43687749
sleep op
eat some healthy food before if you have the energy, otherwise when you get up
but try to get better sleep and at least some food every day, you need those to be able to think and feel straight

Kinda going through the exact same situation. I just turned 33, spent my entire life, ever since I was a toddler, wishing I was a girl, but ended up just hiding that desire as if my life depended on it. Around Covid, as I moved out of my parents' house and went to therapy, finally managed to come out to several friends, my family, my (now ex) gf and some acquaintances that weren't even that close. Spent a couple years on full-body laser treatment, spent a fuckton of money on a new closet worth of whatever cute clothes, accessories, footwear, makeup, etc., I managed to find online (never worked out the courage to buy stuff in-person), as well as silicon breast and hip forms, corsets and body shapers, obsessively went over every MTF makeup and dress-up tutorials I could find online, went hard on voice training, actually managed to get decent results to the point that I mostly passed as a girl in most spaces online I hanged out.
The thing is, I have ADHD and already struggled with tons of stuff, including my professional life (I'm a lawyer) and social life (kept disappointing friends and always arrived late to reunions), so going through the initial steps of my transitions just worsened things so much more. I obsessed over passing so much that just dressing up, doing my makeup, hair and nails, shaving as well as possible (could never get rid of facial hair, even with laser) and getting ready to go out took me like 5-6 hours minimum. And even then I wasn't satisfied with my looks and could never get over the fear of not passing. I'm naturally super hairy, so my beard would literally grow back the next day and I had to shave every day, which irritated my skin so much. Tucking was also mega uncomfortable and hurts like hell. Having long hair and taking good care of it iseexpensive and such a fucking hassle. I just got tired after a couple of years, realized I was in so much pain and that it just wasn't worth it to me, so I gave up on it this year.

>>43686999
I frankly don't even know why I started browsing this board. I'm gay and yet feel weirder as a gay guy here than anywhere else. And yet I keep reading the board a few times a day. What the fuck is wrong with me? I look in the cisgaygen threads too and I don't feel I belong there either.

>>43686999
What if I told you, there was a secret society, so secret no one knows each other, but this secret society is the most powerful society in the world. The people in this secret society are a underground subculture, that are technology advanced, quick witted , ahead of the curve.
Seeing and knowing others mistakes, you can learn from those mistakes and not be missguided by toxic normies .
Your free to express yourself, your opinion, with others in this secret society.
>Buy a 4chan pass
You're one of us, you just don't know it

>>43686999
I know who you are and no one likes you