I would question if I was raped but when I wrote it I realized it's 100% rape, so it's more of a vent now.I'm 18yo, mtf, 2y hrt, had 15bmi throughout all of my puberty. My step brother is 18yo, short and a hunk(he's been much stronger than me since always). He lives with my dad and I live with my mom. When I'd go to my dad's house I'd sleep in my step brother's bed.At around 11, I came out to him and, at the same night, we had sex. I don't remember exactly how it happened, but I remember watching hentai together and sucking his penis. I know I haven't asked for it nor said no. I made him cum, and haven't touched my genitals.It happened a few times after that, he asked to touch and suck my penis, and I let him do it. I did not want it, I hated it, but never said no.Then pandemics and I haven't gone to my father's house. Around 2021 they made custom furniture in his room, and now there's his bed, and mine, which is above his desk. After that I was 14yo, hated my body and wanted to die because of it. He used to climb on my bed after I slept, wake me, tease me, then I'd suck his penis. Sometimes I wanted it, I prepped beforehand, rimmed him and we fucked. Sometimes he said explicitly that I had no option and he would have sex with me, sometimes he said that I wouldn't sleep if I didn't make him cum.At that time I had some incel friends, it was kind of a mutual bullying, and they'd make fun of me bc I was a sicko, faggot and weirdo, and I did told them about it without telling them it was rape and we'd joke about how much of a freak I was.Only now, after 2y of hrt, I realized how miserable I was.
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>>43692182rape him back
>>43692182>we were 11 y/o>our penises were working and i made him cumnice larp. did you get hard writing this incest story tranny?
>>43692263nta but the first time i came was at 9 years old.
>>43692182Does not sound like a rape at all. You were not molested
>>43692263nta but i started masturbating when i was 8 and used to get hard/semi-hard and make clear cum or have dry orgasms for a few months
>>43692460are you on a list
>>43692263you're retarded
>>43692182this is so hot I finished it and went back and re-read. Hold on to the stepbrother. Much fun to be had once you're a full woman
>>43692693what happened to this tikthot anyway
>>43692182You should probably confront your parents about this (if you know that they will support you being trans).
>>43692182wtf
>>43693405became a lesbian and renounced guysjust stick with gay twinks picrel bruh
>>43692693thanks god some time he'll get kicked out, they already tried some times but didn't fully bc he was a minor. His relationship with my father is really shitty and they fight constantly.>>43694155they're supportive, but I won't tell anything about this to them bc I don't want them to feel bad
>>43694201coy piso gives me twink envy
>>43692182can someone explain to me how the fuck is this supposed to be rape?>he asked me to suck his dick>i havent said no>i sucked his dicktrannies might actually be real women the way they falsely accuse innocent and sensitive young men
>>43694365100%
>>43694257>thanks god some time he'll get kicked out,you have no gratitude for the adventure he gave you.
>>43694365The worst thing is I instinctively sided with op until you pointed this out. The misanrist brainwashing of society is insidious in how it works
>>43692182Dude really wasted no time once he got confirmation that no one would care about anything he did to you
>>43692182damn im really sorry that happened to you, that is definitely rape and i hope you are somewhere safer now away from those people.on an unrelated note, is the pic of you? i do my hair in a similar style and im wondering what exactly that hairstyle would be called. right now i tell my stylist a shag haircut with bangs and layers, but the haircut in pic looks really cute.
>>43694972no, i wish i was beautiful like that, thats gezebelle gaburgably>>43694365>:( idk how to classify what happened before the pandemic, but after that I always told him exactly what I wanted, sometimes I wanted it sometimes he just raped me
>>43692263foid or mormon, call it
>>43692182>I let him do it>never said no>then I'd suck his penis>I wanted it>I prepped beforehand>rimmed him and we fuckedWorse than a woman.
>>43692466I had clear cum until I was 17 lol
>>43692182This seems to be a case of child on child sexual abuse (COCSA) and this deserves care and attention of the appropriate mental health services to work trough this.The average 4chan user their understanding of what consent means is insufficient and need not be taken into account. Having different feelings at different moments where it took place is normal and not a reason for self-blame. Remember that the userbase of this site is generally geared towards antagonism. Do not let this affect your judgement upon what happened.There's no need to justify any way you feel about this event either. I suggest you take this up with a licensed clinical psychologist specializing in sexual abuse and trauma.It's likely that you will experience intense emotions as the realization of what has happened takes place. If you are considering harming yourself or taking your own life please seek immediate medical attention, such as going to the ER.I will put this site here as a lifeline: https://findahelpline.com/Thank you for sharing this. As a survivor of incest myself I'll say that you did not deserve what happened to you.Help is out there and it will get better.Don't you dare go hollow.
>>43692182>rimmed himwtf are you gay
>>43697409outstanding reading comprehension demonstrated here
>>43697455thats gay bro you like eating shit?
>>43694365>expecting an 11 year old to have the wherewithal to say no>ignoring the parts of the story where OP was explicitly coerced into sex>focus on the self shaming claim of "never saying no" despite the high probability they did say no (thus requiring the coercion)Wild how evil pedophiles like you are.
>>43697398I don't feel much towards it, though I usually cry about when he touched/sucked my penis.I made this thread bc he messaged me on friday, and I found out he apologized exactly last year(ik most people here cant read it but its him apologizing on May 25th that's like today but last year).Idk if he really thought it was consensual bc when he was a child my father told him he's stupid enough to do shit and credibly say "sorry i didnt know", and he does this every time he can>>43697409I'm bisexual, but I like men more than women.
>>43697546Doesn't "pedophile" refer to an adult preying on a minor? It looks like they were both the same age. I don't know what the word for that would be, but it doesn't seem like the "p" one applies here.
>>43698998undesirable fatties love to throw around the p word
>>43699010You sound genuinely creepy dude, I don't want you taking my side on this.
>>43699051absurd judgement. whether you like it or not, we're in agreement. so what does that make you?
>>43699074I am merely proposing that we use words correctly, I want nothing to do with your weird crusade to normalize pedophilia
genuine psychopathy in this threadI dont know if its the anonymity that does it or if this is just human naturei know this is the loser incel website but wow the level of inhuman treatment people get is fucking insane>someone opens up about incestual COCSA>half the thread is making fun of them or saying what happen is A okif hell exists I can only hope you people are sent thereits not too late to repent thoughgo do some community service or some shit
>>43699136do you fall for every larp
>>43699111when have i been a propent of pedophilia? all i said was that fat girls throw the term around as a deflection. someone diddle ya, honey?
>>43699149larp or not the response to this is disgustingno normal person behaves like people do in this thread but once again I am aware of what site I'm onwhatever
>>43699154The topic of the thread is a case of an 11 year old getting molested by their sibling. So when someone like you just out of nowhere goes off on a tangent about fat chicks being jealous of a sexy kid, it's fucking weird. You are fucking weird. Stop replying to me.
>>43699181op regrets being a little slut. nothing wrong with that. part of the maturation process. what is more egregious is you white-knighting and crying on behalf of someone who didn't ask for your defense. retard.
>>43699205Sorry for not being your special pedo friend. Actually I'm not sorry about that, I'm just sorry you latched onto me thinking I was a kindred soul of some kind
>>43699218uh what? you're the one who got triggered by something i said. delusional hypocrite.
>>43692182>I rimmed a childs asshole>I was rapedKill yourself Genuinely shoot your head offYou pretend to be raped after you GIVE A RIMJOB TO A KID
>>43698967I see. Again, any reaction is completely fine.With regards to him potentially thinking it was consensual: this could be the case. He could think that it was perfectly fine and everything was above board. However, that doesn't change the impact it has had on you. You don't owe him forgiveness, that is something you should decide on your own.If he genuinely didn't know, which is possible as both of you were young kids, then that doesn't mean you weren't wronged. Children have a sexual impulse, and in small amounts by themselves in a private setting it's completely healthy to explore that. The role of the parent here is to make sure the children are limited in what they act on because they themselves don't have the capacity to put boundaries on themselves yet.Behavior such as what your stepbrother exhibited is often a sign of them having faced some type of sexual abuse themselves. It doesn't make it better, but it should be taken into account. Mainly because again, it's not your fault. And even if he didn't, there's still the role of the parents in all of this, as well as teachers overhearing conversations between you and your friends.Seriously, I think therapy would be really good for you. And in no sense is this derogatory. This is just the type of thing people get trained to deal with because it's just so much for anyone to deal with.Try not to confuse dissociation and an inability to express with genuine indifference. Under severe stress the corpus callosum becomes less active, making it literally harder to express emotion because the signal needs to travel across the corpus callosum to communicate emotion to the language areas of the brain.I suggest you look into the polyvagal theory, and I'll include a pic. A feelings wheel might also be useful.I know 4chan tends towards a very hostile and antagonistic space, where kindness is seen as being gay and effeminate, but this is just a matter of appropriate mental health care.
>>43699372thanks for posting this, it helped me (nta)
>>43698967>it's a hispanicLOL. Hispanics not beating the raping their family members and rampant child molestation in the hispanic community allegations.People don't realize, this shit is so common in the hispanic community. Practically every hispanic girl was raped and often the boys too.
>>43700259im hispanic and i wasnt raped as a kid, i feel left out :0(
>>43692182So you had consensual sex that you're now trying to reframe as rape?
>>43700273Sad! I feel like that makes you not even a real hispanic. Getting your hole bust open by your drunk uncle is the true quinceanera.
>>43699927Feelings wheel added for completeness, others can be found online too.
>>43699372>brutalized my sub so hard they went numb and dissociated>apparently this is the peak of the polyvagal chartHell yeah.
>>43700259im brazilian ≈~≈
In case this isn't a LARP consider the following: >>43692182Consent can be withdrawn at any time, even in the middle of sex. That's it, that's all. End of story. Just because XYZ happened before does not mean anything is entitled or promised to happen in the future. Consent must be given EACH TIME a sex act takes place and that's just the way it is, no discussion. >Sometimes he said explicitly that I had no option and he would have sex with me, sometimes he said that I wouldn't sleep if I didn't make him cum.This is rape, textbook rape. No discussions. If you were in the USA I'd advise you to arm yourself with a proper knife you literally never go anywhere without, including the shower. If you were really 18 and in the USA you'd be legal to buy a long gun like an AR-15 or shotgun. I'd advise you to buy both. No matter the country I'd advise you to have a discussion with your step brother in a public place with many witnesses. Tell him it's over, it's never happening again, no discussions, no debate, done. Tell him if he violates this demand of yours he will be meet with overwhelming violence and the full force of the law. You can get hidden cameras off Amazon to place in your private area to capture any attempts he makes otherwise, do not tell him about this. If possible join a well respected self defense class as google says knife laws in Latin America are shit. Know that you deserve better and this too shall pass. Be blessed nona and you are stronger than you know. >>43697398Wow a real person with a soul and not a braiddead NPC, cool
>>43700480No knives for you, join a Brazilian Jujitsu gym that is LGBT friendly. Make clear boundaries known and stick to them. We can't change the past, only build a better future. Good luck.
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>>43700480Oh excuse me "latinx". Nobody cares, it's all the same shit.
>>43700489>g-get a knife immediately!!>or a heckin long gun, you gotta protect your bussy from IMMINENT anal assault!I can tell you're a very sheltered dramatic faggot.
>>43700489Thank you Jesus <3 you're pretty cool too.I'd add to this that preparing and arming up may serve you well. I wish it wouldn't be a necessity but it may be. However, don't get stuck in the hypervigilance. An inner sense of peace should still be strived for next to becoming competent at defending yourself. That sense of peace is not optional; a calm mind makes better decisions, and if you're going to be armed you best be in control of your mental state.There's no winning or losing fights in the real world. There's only trade-offs. Calculate those well and never resort to violence unless absolutely necessary. You may very well "win" an encounter only to end up in prison for the rest of your life. Situational awareness and good planning should do a pretty good job of keeping you out of situations where violence would be necessary in the first place. I'm a firm believer in self defense, but don't go around thinking it ends when the encounter ends. The legal process that will follow is one where establishing you didn't have another option will serve you well.Having a firearm in the house is also a big risk for suicide, so weigh those options too before you give yourself access to a reliable means of taking your own life.With regards to saying your step-brother is "going to be met with overwhelming violence" I wouldn't recommend that. The type of person who needs to be scared off by threat of force is likely someone who would act violently if spoken to like that. If you decide to confront him you should try not to escalate the situation. This is not fair, I know. Fair is not given. That's why you're in this mess. Don't let it be a reason to throw caution to the wind.Only you know your situation well enough to make informed decisions about this. Please don't let anons on 4chan decide how you'll handle this situation. Try to get mental health help first. If you notice he apologized via text a year ago I doubt that he's coming after you now.
>>43700489>>43700542I'd like to fight krav maga, but in my neighborhood theres a jiu jitsu gym(academy? dojo?) and no krav maga gym(???) so ig I can't choose much. But I don't think I'll sleep in the same room as my step brother again, I only go to my father's house when he's not there.
>>43700738>>43700829Upon rereading your previous post I want to acknowledged he texted you on friday. You have no obligation to meet him, at all. If you have to then yes a place with lots of witnesses would be good, but if you don't want to meet him you don't have to.Your best bet is boxing instead of Krav. Krav seems cool but the quality of the training varies way too much. Also if you do Jiu Jitsu you need to know that being able to throw punches, kicks, and being allowed to get slammed changes the dynamics of the fight a lot. I'm not saying Jiu Jitsu is useless by any means, but be careful with the degree of specificity you're training allows. Also Jiu Jitsu isn't magic, weight and strength still matter. Think of technique as a multiplier for the traits you already have. If you're very light and not that strong, technique may not cut it given enough size/strength differences.How accepting is your father of your transition and such? Is there any way you could talk to him about all this? Your safety is the priority here so again, use good judgement.
>>43700666Brazilians speak Portuguese thoughbeit
>>43697546>expecting an 11 year old to have the wherewithal to say nothey were both 11, faggot. its not rape if two clueless 11 year olds do retarded shit together.>Sometimes I wanted it, I prepped beforehand, rimmed him and we fucked.so when anon is a 11 year old being asked for sex hes a poor baby that doesn't have the means to say no... but when he asks his step brother for it is consensual sex. give me a fucking break retard>focus on the self shaming claim of "never saying no" despite the high probability they did say noit was never written in the post that they said no. why are you making up shit? is this just your retarded fanfiction that you made up in your head to make yourself believe this is rape?>Wild how evil pedophiles like you are.pedophilia is when two people of the same age have consensual sex (according to this poster, at least)
>>43700954Yes and?
