Seriously I need help. I don't think I'm trans but I also don't want to John 50 and regret it later.

Still hoping for an answer. I'm kind of baked now and when I'm baked I question the whole "not trans" part.

we fantasize about things because they make us feel certain ways. we don't necessarily want these things to happen, but the opposite isn't categorically true either.

i relate to what you feel as i've exclusively fantasized about being a woman in sex over my life. i explained to myself that my desire to be a woman was pathological because of that connection up until my early twenties. i lived in a state of constant dissociation all that time. i'm a few years into transition and had never hoped to one day be this happy.

i spent a lot of time breaking down how i feel about gender and really the crux of it for me is whether i can experience a sense of self through my body. the things (i.e simple compliments) that should evoke a feeling in me through the "my body = me" shortcut don't evoke anything in me besides alienation if i have a man's body. the feelings only have a way in if i have a woman's body.

in retrospect, fantasizing about being a woman was just an incredibly obvious way to feel anything at all.

maybe you relate to this. maybe you don't and this is just a weird rant. either way you should probably just do whatever makes you happy.

>>43703257
I definitely see where you're coming from on that, I hadn't though about it in those terms. I'll try considering your thought process and see how it makes me feel. It's a good rant

>>43700223
>not trans, but often times wish I were trans
i hate to break it to you but this is a super trans thing to say lol i know several trans women who have felt or still feel this way… i wish there were an easier way but even if youre in your 30s you might still have to transition, if only to avoid making it worse than at 40 or 50. whats your build like? i did meet a woman who transitioned late 20s and passed, maybe youre super lucky. if you have any potential there i think transing might be the answer unfortunately

>t. ranny, 21

>>43700223
me too
except
>also thinks the feminization aspect is hot
not realy
>until I was in my 20s
19 was when i was sure but there were earlier signs in retroscpect
>need to start a family soon
not me at all

the rest tho. yeah

>>43700433
>Seriously I need help
with what

>>43702544
>when I'm baked I question the whole "not trans" part.
yeah its the only time i doubt now

>>43703257
yeah this too. the way that it was explained that finally broke through to me is that its the only time your truly vulnerable you express your real self, esp if alone

>>43703565
>hate to break it to you but this is a super trans thing to say lol
yeah...

>>43700223
Frankly having a family and a real relationship would most likely be much more satisfying than chasing the chimera of transition.
Many AGPs have their jeepness lessen from it too.
I'm AGP too, I tried trooning but it didn't really satisfy me, I think at 30 you should look into getting a family.
Don't be sterile and alone for life.

>>43700223
>often times wish i were trans
i often had this exact thought before transitioning

>>43703747
>19 was when i was sure but there were earlier signs in retroscpect
good point, i forgot to mention that. i also had a ton of signs since all the way back in kindergarten that seem obvious now but since i didnt already believe i was trans it was easier to dismiss them. op you should consider that it might have started much earlier than you realize, if that helps you make sense of it any better.

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>>43700223
Hugboxxing pooner freaks from tumblr will tell u to troon make yer life better


Ancient troons honest will say the only point of being gay is to be gay young and their life is basically ahit aince 35

So, picrel

take your pills, alice

>>43703828
>t. john, 50