I’m an old mef agp bitter hon manmoder with no hope for the future living in poverty. All my money goes towards expenses so I don’t end up in the street abd nobody but a local retail will hire me cause I’m retarded.Iwnbaw and I think I took estrogen as a meme and Im extremely faketrans, trabsvestite.All my trans friends abandoned me or told me to my face Iwnbaw cause I’m too masculine and don’t try the bare minimum.I have one friend who comes iver in my grime infested house and rapes me when he can’t find a real chick for the weekend. He spends no money on me maybe a pizza if I’m lucky.I’m bad at my job abd constantly get yell at for being lazy and uselessMy therapist is bored of seeing me once a month, I keep repeating myself, she is supposed to be the best lgbt therapist.Nobody in my immediate family even thinks I’m a woAn, Im closeted af, and they still treat me like a child even if I’m 30 now.I failed in school and dropped out if uni.I only started transitioning medically on a whim after my dad died some years ago.Should I kill myself? I’d never thought I’d be alive.
No, you shouldn't kill yourself. Why are you unwilling to put in effort to better your situation?
>>43738680There is nothing I can doIt’s too late to changeIm too dumb lazy and lonelyI fucked up my life for nothingI will never have a real jobI will never have a real relationshipI will never feel even humanNobody actually cares about meI’m too tired to even wake up every dayI have no talents no hobbies nothing inspiring nothing i get inspired from.
>>43738742>There is nothing I can doyou are in control of yourself, you can do literally anything.>It’s too late to changewhat is too late? >Im too dumb lazy and lonelyyou can learn things and discipline yourself, or ask for help with these things. start small like clean up this section of the room and work your way up.>I fucked up my life for nothingwhat did you fuck up? you're not like super deep into drugs or debt, you're on reasonable ground to go up>I will never have a real jobyou need to find a trade or an organisation that will teach you a little bit, you need to commit and dedicate time and effort into it and you will become a useful worker>I will never have a real relationshiprelationship skills are trained like any other skills. get started on some and others will start fine too>I will never feel even humanwell you're probably emotional rn and a mess in general, get yourself out of being a mess and you'll feel better. actually being a mess is the most human thing.>Nobody actually cares about mewell i wrote this post>I’m too tired to even wake up every dayagain, set goals, go achieve them. >I have no talents no hobbies nothing inspiring nothing i get inspired from.you need to try things. nobody found themselves just by laying in bed.i say *moding and stuff requires a reasonable life, because it is extra work/expences/etctldr you need to get your shit together
>>43738680>Why are you unwilling to put in effort to better your situation?Nta but for what point, I will never be a cis woman anyway, that's the only thing I want
>>43739788>you are in control of yourself, you can do literally anything.Some things are impossible>what is too late?My age my life. I’m 30 with nothing to show for it>start small like clean up this section of the room and work your way up.It doesn’t matter it will be ruined tomorrow anyway and I’m too lazy to do it> what did you fuck up? I took hrt thinking I was a Tranny and ruined everything for it> become a useful workerYou live in a bubble. There are no jobs abd everything needs money which I don’t have> get started on some and others will start fine tooIm unlikeable and also like how? > actually being a mess is the most human thing.But I’m not human.> i wrote this postAnd I won’t even appreciate it becayse I am insufferable and dont really care to believe you> set goals, go achieve them.None exist. There is no step 0. Im tired of pretending there is.> nobody found themselves just by laying in bed.Everything is miserable and I dont care about anything I try. So I don’t try
>>43738668>jewma clip and shitty discord caption memeyeah
>>4373999730 is not old you have at least a decade left to get your shit together get on SSRIs you have crippling depression
>>43740391NoAndI don’t have depression
>>43738668Don't life is beautiful regardless of whatever happens, this is worth experiencing.
>>43740551No it isnt not reallyIt’s all crap all the way down.You are only saying that becayse your are confortable in your life and have a future.
bpdemon post or b8
>>43740590I know one thing for certain, I have nothing, I don't know what am I going to do when I lose this little safe space I have, I am not scared of having to sell my body to survive but I'm afraid no one will be willing to pay me enough for it.I will do whatever it takes to survive, I love this life, my problems are nothing compared to the sporadic blissful moments I've been gifted, life is so short and I firmly believe it is up to me to discover its beauty.
>>43740658neither
>>43740664good for youI share none of your optimism
>>43738668take hormones and become a prostitute as a roundabout suicide method but get implants before dying so you can be a good open casket sissy
>>43740855Sounds disgustingYou are mentally ill and Im the one saying it
