I just stopped dming all my discord friends cause I feel apathetic af and they all forgot about my existence. I'm unable to maintain social connections and I want to go live in the forest.
>>43738801>and they all forgot about my existencewhen a person stop dming me out of nowhere, I ignore them because I hate ghosters with a passion and I refuse to prolong my hurt by double messaging etc.stop trying to pass as the victim here, you avoidant cunt.
>>43738801You have friends? All I get are stalkers and those who can't decide if they love or hate me as more than an obsession or want me dead. Usually the last part
>>43738830The only people I ghost are those who were treating me like shit to begin with but thought I was too stupid or socially inept to notice when in actuality I was fully aware and giving them the chance to be a better person, not just for my sake, but next person their miserable antisocial ass wanders across. Not saying that's you but people like that love to play the victim as bullies often do and it's easy to paint my ugly ass as the bad guy for anyone naive enough to listen. People love their confirmation bias so they don't feel or are perceived as shallow.
half the people you think are ghosting you also think you're ghosting them people are retarded I will boldly be annoying and constantly message random stuff
>>43738801i'd never notice if someone stopped dm'ingI have bad memory issues, but I'd reach out eventually when I remembered if it takes monthsWould they do the same for you?
>>43738830I don't stop dming completely, I just stop dming first cause I do that all the time and I expect them to reach out first at least once.
>>43739103>but I'd reach out eventually when I remembered if it takes monthswaow thats kinda long, how do they react?
>>43738953>I will boldly be annoying and constantly message random stuffI'm afraid to do so cuz I think this can be too annoying for them
>>43738953>I will boldly be annoying and constantly message random stuffI wish i had friends like you.
>>43739179who cares. you thought they ghosted anyways, worst case you annoy them and they actually ghost>>43739210be my friend then
>>43739171They usually react okI'm happy to talk to anyone if they message first, and will try my best to keep it up on my endIf it takes a few months sometimes I forgot because the friendship wasn't that close so they aren't bothered eitherI can keep track of like 5 people or 1 server at most usually
>>43738830I don't ghost, I try to reply and reach out often but my replies are kinda short and prolly looks too boring and low effortless and people sometimes just don't reply at all
>>43739245talking to someone I haven't messaged in 11 months now>>43739693Why do you do short replies if you know it probably looks too boring?
>>43739748I don't know how to communicate with people and how should reply to be not boring
>>43738840>want me deadwhy?
>>43738801I always end up being ghosted cause i'm boring af and people just lose any interest in me.
Im just tred of always beeing the one to reach outIm tired 9of needing to nurture relationshipsi just want nothing anymore. If hey wanna tal ill answewr but otherwise...idk
>>43740861I feel the same... I wish I could be more energized to often reach out first again but it's tiresome and idk why
>>43738801I ended up leaving the servers I was in because of drama & heartbreak, and since everyone's bad at reaching out first, myself included, I'm kind of in the same boat. I wish I could say I was apathetic, but the truth is I'm deeply, unbearably lonely and sad. I wish I could go back to the way things were.
>>43738931>who were treating me like shitany examples? please elaborate.. I'm afraid someone thinks I treat them like shit
>>43741076>I'm deeply, unbearably lonely and sadSame. And this makes me more apathetic in social interactions cause i don't feel any connection with people anymore..
im either an annoying hyper fem fag or a depressed chuuni edgelord. everyone has had enough with me atp and i dont blame em
>>43741218>annoying hyper fem fag>depressed chuuni edgelordelaborate.
>>43740462Who knows. Maybe my ancestors did them a great dishonor. Maybe my dick isn't big enough. Maybe just because they can and I make it so appealing for them.
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>>43741291me after gooning
>>43741276idk what can you do to make people want you dead. people who don't like me just ghost me, i've never even being blocked by anyone.
>>43738801Some people just make me anxious cause I think they are too good (too pretty in case of bdd passoids or too charismatic in case of social butterflies) and i don't match them and don't deserve to talk to them which makes me just shutting down and becoming too shallow.
>>43738801Put shit in get shit out. It sucks that nobody will talk to you unless you initiate but most people are lazy asf so you have to be the one to go and do stuff.
>>43741730does this mean it's like some people are social tops and many others are social bottoms? I feel like I'm social bottom and this can't be changed cause I just don't fit to be a social top no matter how often do i try
>>43738801>discordthey're not your friends you stupid fucking zoomer lmao. you contribute to temporary entertainment for the whole. what you put in is what you get back.
>>43742259how can i get real friends then?
>>43741615same.. some people has too high amount of rizz and that drains me.
>>43742275stop spending all of your time online, first of all. find a job, even if it sucks, in a field you think you wouldn't mind. work at a bar. work at a weed store. you'll meet tons of people.
>>43741182I think I fear connection at this point, more than not feeling it. RSD is a hell of a thing.
>>43742813>I fear connection at this pointwhy? can you elaborate?
>>43742833I've been hurt so many times by rejection that it's hard not to view connecting with someone as the first step towards being hurt. There's also so much anti-trans vitriol in the world that it's hard not to internalize, and to see it as the default stance for a random stranger to have. Feels bad, ma'am.
>>43742894are you from europe or us?
>>43742926Canada. Things may be better here than most places right now, but that doesn't mean we don't have people snatching & burning pride flags in broad daylight from people at parades. Even if those people are the minority, they're still here.
Yeah, a similar thing happened to me and I realized all the effort and worrying over online friends abandoning me was for nothing, really, because online friends shouldn't be as important as RL.
>>43742894after being completely isolated for a long time, genuinely contactless friendless for half a decade, my honest conclusion is that the boredom is worse than anything. I will take the heart break and the emotional rollercoasters 10000x over now just to feel something and have something going on in your life/heart rather than the stillness of sollitude. I was crying my eyes out over someone a few weeks ago I got hurt so bad and now that I'm over it a little my only thought is that it was more exciting and interesting than the isolation I used to live in and I can't wait to do it again already. I love being hurt now
>>43743022I guess I've always been sensitive. I cry my eyes out at least once most days now. I have someone I don't think I'll ever be over.
>>43743100that's better than total isolation trust me. better to feel negative emotions than zero emotions and I'll never believe otherwise anymore
>>43743160Better to have loved and lost, huh? I suppose I'm too much of a romantic to disagree outright, but when any possible future seems bleak and all I have left is the loss, I'm not so sure. It's been getting harder and harder to imagine any future at all.
>>43738801I mean if you're ignoring all your friends then why do you expect them to continue messaging youEven I, being in love with a friend of mine, stop texting her of she blows off a couple texts and at that point it's entirely up to her. People aren't just gonna forever keep trying to entertain you if you fucking ignore them
>>43743212I don't even mean it in the cliche "better to have loved and loss" way I just mean straight up negative emotions like heart break and rejection and loss on their own even WITHOUT the love to me feels like a better alternative than pure isolation and and the zero emotional experiences that comes with it. I'd take the hurt with zero love just so ~something~ is happening and going at least compared to total sollitude. I became so hopeless I looped around to the other side and now it's like nothing can hurt me any more because I don't even mind being hurt it's at least interesting compared to being bored and isolated
>>43743230I don't ignore them I reply on every msg, I only stopped to reach out first.
everyone ITT can add me if they want a new friend this was my post >>43738953 I'm lonely too, my discord is rat1541
>>43743285I guess I'm just too emotional to be able to conceive of feeling nothing. Even when I'm feeling depressed or numb, there's still sadness, pain, hopelessness, or something underneath. I'm not sure if I should envy your invulnerability or not.
>>43743344is the stuff at least funny, and is there a stuff to stuff (s2s) contract with SLAs like stuff per hour and stuff
>>43743721no and I don't know what any of that other stuff means it's usually just mildly amusing /an/ webms or shitposting of that nature
>>43743721Having spent too many years working in IT, I do know what those things mean.
>>43743745ok thank you for your time
>>43743794sorry to hear
>>43742198This has to be the most autistic reddit tranny puppy faggot xitter terminally online brain rotted possible way I could ever fathom of describing introverts and extroverts I could possibly imagine. But yes that is one way of describing it.
>>43744197lol
>>43744197For what it's worth, I had a similar thought when I read it.
