how to cope with the decade old longing to become a woman
>>43741019kill yourself
>>43741019become one
>>43741019>>>/lgbt/hrtgen
>>43741019take your pills Alice
>>43741084>>43741091i want to fight back and defy my desires but i want to feel good i want to feel guilty of castrating myself and growing boobs
>>43741019imagine two decades
>>43741124no i cant i rather sui
>>43741134then take it from someone who suffered repression and dysphoria for 33 years before finding the courage to transition, it won't get easier. Just do it
>>43741151okay... i wanna do this
>>43741151and by just do it I mean transition, not sui. Don't sui
>>43741179okay i am tired of hiding
>>43741207good luck
>>43741151How did that go for you. I'm a similar age reading this thread.
>repping for a whole decade (10 (ten) years) in the big ol' 2026 while everybody and their lesbian mom have already trooned out
>>43741438A lot of us are very unsure of things, okay?
>>43741293going from knowing when you're 6 to transitioning at 39 is decidedly rough>on the plus sideI did start from a reasonably androgynous babyface, people regularly guessed I was 10+ years younger than I am before I ever started HRT and I wasn't even doing skincaremy pelvis is wide enough that it comes to the middle of my shoulders so I'm developing decent hipsI was always a weakling so there's no muscle to loselate and low growth for body hair>on the minus sideI was 6'0" tall by the time I was 15, and 6'3" by the time I was 18. I was always screwed height-wisemy ribcage isn't the best and I'm overall pretty wideafter 3 years HRT my changes are slow but not unappreciable. My face would be considered femme if not for my jaw, fat distribution is going well, my hairline is a norwood 2 but it feels like a 3 some days, things could be worse but they could be better. I'm still working on getting surgeries set upI got hit with the most amazing hopefuel: I was out with my mom the other day and a total stranger addressed us as ladies. From behind. And he didn't try to correct himself when I turned. Dude was like 60 too. Got me feeling giddy as a schoolgirl, no way do I pass like that
>>43741563That does sound rough age wise, but I'm glad you found hope. How did you know when you were six? That's always been the hold up for me, I didn't "know" or feel anything until I was in my 20s.
>>437416311st grade is when the social differences between boys and girls really started to show; I was so much more like the girls and I hated how rough and tumble the boys were. I wanted to wear skirts and dresses, play with dolls, do the splits, try makeup, watch girl cartoons like Jem and so much more. Bare minimum I wanted to be able to say my favorite color is pinkI wanted to be a girl so much, and I also knew better than to tell anyone. And those feelings never went awayI did a 3 post writeup of my early life in a tranny signs thread a little bit ago, here's a link if you're interested>>43632862
>>43742021I'll read through that thread, it looks interesting. You're experience is so the opposite of mine then, I don't know how relatable we really are then. I had no signs or self awareness before my 20s (but that might be cope I haven't thought hard enough about, but it certainly wasn't strong thoughts)
>>43741019Alcoholism
>>43741019As someone who wanted to be a girl for as long as my memories existed, lots an lots of dissociation and the attempts of social conditioning from others and myself that never really worked
>>43742051it ultimately doesn't matter when we realized, what matters is what we do with itI was broken by the bullies in 6th grade, I thought I could never be who I wanted to be, I thought I'd never be accepted even as a boy, and I pretty much shut down. Putting myself together took a long, long time.if it took you until your 20s to realize that's still valid. Don't be like me. Don't wait until you're pushing 40 to live as yourself
>>43742182More specifically, I had some feelings in my 20s begin, I am still very much undecided. But I will think about what you've said.
>>43741084but one cannotthough OP could change his preferred pronouns and take exogenous hormones and thus transition to a transwoman
