I will learn to accept that I am a cis man
>>43746116Crueltysquad has more then 1 image you can use
Today's music rec: Nightshade by Helen Anahita Wilsonhttps://flagdayrecordings.bandcamp.com/album/nightshade
>>43746126I'm aware of that, but I really don't want to further bastardize the game and it's creator with my threads more than I already do
>>43746196You cannot bastardize a masterpiece anon, it will stand on its own feet regardless
>>43746248I know, but I can still bastardize the first impressions and associations someone has when they think about Cruelty Squad
>>43746273You cannot make the blind see miss cismoid
>>43740928Replying to yesterday's thread>not because I wanted to more out of necessity and I had toMe too, but that's exactly the same thing I'll have to do in order to continue tolerating being on estrogen. I could very well force myself to put a ton of effort into transition, but I can only imagine my misery growing no matter what. I don't think I'd be able to tolerate the changes that are required of me unfortunately.>a large portion of the identity and it's socialisation I had worked on proved inadequate and ill suited for my environment and going forward and its reason for existing disappearedThe worst part about me currently being on estrogen is realizing just how my cis male identity and socialization is rapidly slipping out of my grasp, despite being genuinely the only thing I've ever had. I've never felt as faceless as I do now>repressed emotion and personalityI have no such things no matter whether repressed or not>but ive made some changes socially for uni specifically and doing the physical things is enough to keep the rest of me satisfied mentally for nowCongrats, that both takes a lot of courage and resilience, and I hope it'll only get better for you
>>43746313That's true ig, but I can still spoil it merely through association.cismoid is a trip and not me btw
>>43746379>worst part about me currently being on estrogen is realizing just how my cis male identity and socialization is rapidly slipping out of my grasp, despite being genuinely the only thing I've ever had. I've never felt as faceless as I do nowWhy would you have to give it up for being on E?
>>43746116Are you going to learn to accept it or not? Stop spamming the same shit and learn it already
>>43746432Nta, but yes whenever I see cruelty squad I first associate it to you and your lack of acceptance
>>43746463>Why would you have to give it up for being on E?I cannot understate how masculine I actually am. It's all I know, and if I actually want to properly transition, I'll have a change my tune at least a tiny bit. Also, I deeply despise how I innately am above everything, and acting any other way is and always will be a reminder of what I actually am like underneath it all
>>43746580Idk its giving outward facing male personality but internally bumbling mess, and physicality be damned as long as you can make bank for surgery and everything else. But seriously though if you wait forever out of fear of what could or couldn't be you'll regret it, if you're above everything stop thinking and just do. (Threads remind me of pic rel)
>>43746432I thought you were cismoid posting without trip on my bad
>>43746532I apologize for spamming the board, although I won't stop making these threads either until I'm off of estrogen for good, or until I've been banned.If these threads annoy you, filter them, if you hate them, report the. I'm genuinely surprised that I haven't been banned yet
>>43746638>outward facing male personalitytrue, except that's all I ever had, and internally I'm fully hollow. Or that's how I've felt since forever, to the point that it's unimaginable for it to ever change.>internally bumbling messI think it's reasonable for that to be the case when there's literally nothing underneath my idiocy>But seriously though if you wait forever out of fear of what could or couldn't be you'll regret itI wasn't on hrt and regretting my existence, now I am on hrt and regretting it even more. I'm obviously doing something very wrong here, something a normal person wouldn't have ever done.>Threads remind me of pic relCan't argue with that, you are right
>>43746688I wonder if cismoid ever posts without a trip. Personally, I think (s)he does.nice dubs btw
>>43746977>nice dubs btwYou too
>>43747003thank you
>>43746898Sir, this is 4chan. We don't care if you inject girl hormones into your ass and then watch your girl friend get fucked by men to pretend you are straight.
