its insane, I complain about feeling utterly hopeless despite being on jt and about confused and scared about growing tits.and my friend, my mother, my brother and my sister all tell me they think I'm better off taking estrogen still anyways.it feels like in going crazy wtf is this. why am I (the idiot that actually thought they might be trans and started taking hrt) less convinced I'm trans/should keep taking it than all the cissies around me.
>>43759826>waaahh my environment is too accepting!
im being a lil facetious tbhon, they kinda have reasons.The big one they all keep bringing up is that i seem more emotional and open instead of reclusive and isolated. which is kinda true, but its not like that can be (directly) attributed to the estrogen.The other one is that i also sometimes like the e effects and it kinda lead to me liking what i look like sometimes (for mayb the first time ever). (this is also the reasoning that convinces me im trans sometimes)Including the breast growth, which is however also the one im scared about (yes its me again, sorry for shitting up the board, but i feel like shit again)still tho it doesnt nearly feel enough too warrant such a massive life change but idk. it sucks being so unsure lol.
>>43759826Literally just stop and admit you made a mistake and were not repping. I am a trans person. People make this mistake and it’s okay. Just don’t stay so committed to an identity you’ve since discovered is not a part of your own that this mistake becomes an actual injury. It is okay to learn and there is no need for shame. It is deeply respectful to actual trans people for you to stop and admit it’s just not for you. It’s really not for everyone.
>>43759884im pretty sure she is a tranny
>>43759869ik i should just be happy. another reason i might be faketrans and should just stop ig.it just feels weird, am i crazy for thinking i should mayb stop, despite seemingly everyone else thinking differently? or are they crazy and just dont know what they are talking about?
>>43759826Because they know you are a failed male.Accept your fate and take HRT sissy.
>>43759873Post as much as you like breast-anxiety-chan
>>43759884>>43759897im not even sure its a mistake yet tho. but im also not sure its not a mistake, its awful and i hate being like this :c.
>>43759826>everyone tells me to take estrogenBecause you’re a woman and women take estrogen. I think if you did stop taking it you would just get back on it before very long lol
>>43760186I actually stopped for a while recently, like a bit over a week. Now i started again for like 2 or 3 days.But i feel weird and like shit again (altho i also felt weird and like shit while off of it most of the time) so who knows if ill take it tomorrow.
>>43759914thank u <3>>43759897i wish i was sure too :C
>>43760770Wait fuck omg, i didnt mean to quote >>43759914 there i meant >>43759985 noooo fuuuuuuck >:c
german nona?or are there two(dozens) of you?
>>43759873>yes its me again, sorry for shitting up the boardno lets to make your thread a general for confused doubters
>>43764402It actually would be nice I usually just throw my shit in repgen or something
>>43764420it seems like a common topic. could be worth
>>43764438is it a common topic or is it just because i keel posting about it over and over lol
>>43759826You shouldn't take hormones to try and artificially change your body. Hope this helps.
>>43766756It doesnt, also too late lol
>>43764402iirc there used to be a general for questioning anyway years ago but i haven't seen it in a million yearsprobably would be good to bring it back
>>43759826take a month off and see how you feel
>>43767233I took a week off but now im back on for 2 days lol.Idek why i went back on, i think cuz i still felt miserable anyways and i saw myself/breast growth in the mirror once and really liked it again.Also i woke up once and my dick was hard (morning wood bs) and i didnt like that. I was happy when that stopped on E lol.
>>43767330a lot of trans women are worried about breast growth at the start. it will be the most noticeably different thing about your body. you may grow to like them over time. you also may not, and can always get a breast reduction later or just stop if the bad outweighs the good. it seems like you're pretty young so I would just follow what feels right and will make you happy. you can stop and start as much as you'd like.
>>43767370thx for the reassuring words <3. Buuuut:> at the start.Idk if i count as "at the start" still, excluding the one week break im nearing 8months HRT. Also im just scared cuz i never like badly wanted breasts or anything, i kinda just expected to get used to them and now i scared i wont and am actually giving myself dysphoria for real this time.> lot of trans women are worried about breast growth at the start. [...] you may grow to like them over time.Yeah i heard that before, and i was/am hoping itll be the case. But atp im scared it wont with how much i freak out about it. Tho idk if that is bc there is a real threat of that here or just because im *really good* at overthinking/ruminating and making myself anxious...> seems like you're pretty youngNope unfortunately not :C. I wish i was lol, im mid 20s.> I would just follow what feels right and will make you happy.Nothing feels right, sometimes the hrt effects feel kinda good, other times they make me scared n anxious and feel weird. And idk what would make me happy atp if anything even exists lol.> always get a breast reduction later or just stop if the bad outweighs the good [...] you can stop and start as much as you'd like.True but i dont wanna get surgery (tho its kinda too late for that already if i want no tits at all lol). Plus im scared i wont notice when the bad outweighs the good (or vice versa).And yeah i can start/stop as much as i want. But that is only so helpful if my brain wants to torture me 24/7 about my past and current decisions no matter which one i take.Still tho thanks for ur reply <3.
>>43759826Stop being a faggot and stop being so mentally ill
>>43767431sounds like you just need to get a life. you'll obsess way more over your gender and stuff if you don't have a job / don't have irl friends. try to fill your life with things to do. i know that sounds hard but it's possible for anyone.
>>43767498I have both of these and still obsess over gender am I fucked?
>>43767445Sorry, those two are the only constants in my life im afraid, altho i also wish they werent
>>43767498yeah true, but kinda wont help, i still need to know whether to take E or not if i get irl friends and a job.Also while i never *really* had both of those properly. The times i got closest i also still obsessed about gender shit, even if not as badly as rn.
>>43767511i mean, we didn't choose to be trans. it is absolutely a harder life than cis people. but it's what we've been dealt. have to live with it, i guess. it's hard as fuck for me for reasons different than OP, even though i'm somewhat mentally ok lol
>>43764378also yes, am german. But idk which one u mean i know of like at least one other one i talked to on here recently.
