>>43761241
i wanna lick your eyes

>>43761295
Okay but u cant have them..

>>43761241
How do I know whether I'm dissociating?

>>43761241
moments of lucidity that break up the dissociative blur make me want to further retreat back into the dissociative state
who would want to be aware of how fucked it all is

>>43761241
Junkie cope. You just like smoking meth

>>43761241
repost. op is a jeet.

disassociating is kinda awesome. i’ve been chronically locked out for months but it’s fine

>>43761241
I did this for like 8 or 9 years straight without realising, but broke out of it because my environment and life changed significantly. Would not recommend as a long term solution, I went from not feeling any extreme emotion, and being completely disconnected from my body to the opposite and ruined my life for a month, I just about managed to get back into it after starting hrt and setting goals for myself that I wanted, but its been unstable since then, I can barely get anything done without slamming 3 redbulls or equivalent minimum, and my life is falling apart because of it, get help while its manageable, shit stinks when you have to live

>>43762271
Its adderall

>>43762295
No i just used the same photo of my eye because i like it..

>>43762420
Its been awful i lock in for like five minutes of aware suffering when something goes wrong

>>43762233
It has actually just been this, i lock back in for like five minutes whenever something goes wrong and it makes me freak out<\3

>>43761241
you probably shouldn't have the medication.

>>43763664
“8-9 years” this is not good to hear

>>43765265
Yeah probably not lol

>>43765268
Perfect storm kind happened ig, I only remember very roughly when it started because my memory i dont remember much from back then, things just never slowed down so it never stopped until about 7 months ago, now its back but it getting less consistent and I hate it

>>43765413
What got you out of it??

>>43765522
The 2 biggest issues were my body image and experiencing all the emotion I had pent up, when I remember an event I feel the emotions from the time as well, but that had been suppressed before too.
Couldn't do anything about the latter, so I focused on the former, basically I had spent the past 9 years changing myself to look as I was expected to and needed to, which was as masculine as possible, during this time I started to go bald too, but had just told myself it was fine.
Tricky part is, other than my face, I have extremely feminine proportions, and I hated it, it had caused me nothing but issues, and wished I was just normal.
>What got you out of it??
I asked myself what I wanted to look like in 5, 10 and so on years, since i was forced to associate my body with me, and realised id rather kill myself than continue down that path, and contemplated it for a while, trying to find what I wanted to do, and basically accepted I don't want to look masculine, id rather die, so I'll do the opposite and try to look feminine instead, and through that lens I could actually look at my body with hope. It made it harder to look at face as my own without dry heaving, but I had hope now, so I ordered DIY, got on finasteride, started epilating, and fixed my sleep and diet, and that got me just about out of it, I still need to get a lot of face surgery and a hair transplant, and get back the gym for my lower body, but im alive and hopeful atleast now, even if a little more unstable

>>43761241
i wanna cum on your eyeball