Why didn’t you start HRT at 11 if you’ve always known you were trans? You do realise that around 90% of physical changes occur between the ages of 11 and 15, right? Any later than that is just a game of chance on how much damage testosterone did to your body.
>>43778698I was on puberty blockers at 14 and browsed too much /pol/ and went off them at 16 so I could save the white race
>>43778698I thought I could change myself and then my parents would love me.
>>43778706well did you do it?
>>43778723I'm working on it. I was rejected from my nations military for having gender dysphoria
>>43778742is your nation white? this might actually be a good thing for your cause....
Religious dogma made me convinced I had to fight the feelings. Tried to remove my transgender thoughts by praying, sh to pavlov myself, and pretending they weren't there. Only reason I was able to give up and transition was because I was going to kill myself.
Well, you see, at the time I was a child and with all the experience and arrogance of a child I just assumed I already knew all the optionseven then I knew i'd be a never passing bogged sneedhonI'm just weaker now that I have to spend most of my energy not starving instead of devoting all of my time to forgetting what I want and how I feel
>>43778770>new zealandNo
>>43778698because I didnt know it was possible, I only know about surgeries like big boobs surgery and cut peepee one.I only heard about hrt when I was like 16.
if only anyone told me hrt even existed when i was 11? i didnt know transgender people even existed, i barely had an understanding that crossdressers were a thing i didnt know what the word hormone even meant. All i knew is that i was fucking weird, hanged out with girls and did naughty things with boys my age but never thought of myself as gay and for some reason wanted long hair and shaved my legs once it started growing and had mannerisms of a faggot and all that got bullied out of me until i was a selective mute unwashed selfharming bingedrinking fuckup school dropout neet repper until i finallt was able to face myself and kind of accept being trans WAY TOO FUCKING LATE
>>43778883Haha u fucked up in life
>>43778929thanks so much why dont i just try kill myself again
>>43778698I was 11 in 1994I didnt have a clue what was possible, no one talked about this stuff then. Even when I discovered trans people I thought they were basically the result of plastic surgery
>>43778934Are you satisfied with living as a physically male being that makes their best attempt at looking like a woman? I guess it’s possible to an extent, but you would have been virtually identical to an actual woman if you decided to troon out earlier. It’s obviously too late now, and you’ll have to play this game of imitation and uncertainty for the next 50 or so years if you continue to live on.
>>43778698>Why didn’t you start HRT at 11 if you’ve always known you were trans?idk dude. wish I did though, I only found out I was trans when I was 19. I didn't know I had the option of transitioning back then and I desperately wanted to come off as manly in my teenage years, despite it making me very unhappy.even just writing this is making me tear up, I never want to live as a man again. Im sorry I didn't discover earlier, trust me I fucking wish I did.
>>43778698it was already too late at 12
>>43778698i was a social outcast and didn't want to get bullied for it even more than i was already. couple that with the NHS having 7 year waiting lists and i was demoralised enough to forget even attempting it. as soon as i found out about diy i immediately got on it, but that was 17
>tfw started at 31 because that was the first point at which I wouldn't be brutally outcast or worse
>>43779066i dont even want to think about 50 years when i think about 5 years i get suicidual I'm just taking day by day thinking anything like a year ahead and still being alive i get a panicking dread feeling i got no future where i can be happy like i should just die rn or already be dead but i just want to try
>>43778698I didn't know what being trans was at that age I just thought I was secretly born intersex.
>>43779241twin
>>43778698>implying children hypothetically have the autonomy to gain hormone access outside of a hyperwoke household lol
>>43778698i feel like every youngshit i see has kind of the same face, what's up with that?
>>43779645Spoiled rotten and went to DB
>>43778698I didnt know I was rans at 11 i was more conerned with people never ever finding out i was a freak who liked transformation media and pornim faketrans and i know it and i will never ever have anything
>>43778698all trans people in media where shown to be ostracized freaks. No access to any information until 14/15 which was /tttt/. At which point i wanted to go on hrt but first bf told me not to and i listened cause i was a child and he was 25. Came out and socially transitioned at 18. Hrt at 19.
>>43778698my bad parents made me scared to say anything if feel to them and always called trans people freaks otherwise i coujld have been a gigayoungshit
>>43778698I always knew but I was and still am deeply ashamed of wanting this. plus when my mom found out she literally cry begged me not to be a tranny and then later told me she wanted to kill herself as a result of finding out I wanted to transition. ik that's abusive and fucked up but my 12 year old brain just wanted her to be happy and love me so I repressed for a long time.
I asked my parents to let me start hrt when I was 12-13, but they refused, made excuses, lied by saying they’d do it later, and got angry whenever I brought it up. By the time I was 15, I’d lost hope and just waited until I was 18 to start hrt, by then it was already too late.I didn't know DIY existed, if I had known, I could have started when I was about 15, when I already had friends who were of legal age and could have helped me get it.Now I think I could have begged my parents more, told them I’d behave better, or threatened to kill myself. But it seems they didn’t care that they had a daughter who was depressed, anorexic, and addicted to drugs, and who was desperately begging for those hormones
>>43778698Cute twink
>>43778883you have a very similar life story to mestay safe
>>43780265That's a cis woman (literally)
>>43778698Because I'm faketrans and a coward.
