i'm 22, visited this site when i was 18 and nothing really changed at all, besides the fact that i lost my cute twink friendWe've promissed each other we would leave home and live together but i was broke, i still feared God, i failed, i joined the world again, i joined the job market and earned some money and it's all the same, guys proving themselves and their masculinity 24/7, forced interests, forced conversation, everything it's about money, AI, money money, my new financed car, the pussy im eating, breaking up with women for shitty reasons, jerks, clean girl, instagram followes, low profile, labubu, tiktok shop, bro, fuck that shit, FUCK THAT SHITTTTTTTTTi just want to be 18 again, ignore everyone, go to the gym, come home and have an autistic twink talking about berserk, vn, or his favorite lain episode and then provoke me like "you're so tall, im so small" "i want to you to princess carry me" "i want you in my bed"that's why my face looks dull, that's the reason everything is gray, i tried to fit in, i tried everything, everything, i cant really pretend that i care about how oil war will affect polyamide prices, i just want to fuck my cute friend again, over and over, everywhere, everytime and smoke some weed together, but he hates me now, i broke my promisse i was too afraid, now im alone with all these snakes, i cant trust them, none of themShould i call my friend back? Should i apologize and finally dive in? The system scared the shit out of me, their eyes, their judging God, but i know i can be free now, im not broke anymore, i can travel, no one is going to make me feel good, i should act but that's my life, thats my youth
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>>43780655We all have our regrets of time long past. The important thing is to keep on living despite that.
I'm an autistic twink
>>43780666in my language there's a word for between friend and boyfriend, dont know it in english so i used friend>>43780679My regret was being a coward
>>43780655you write so beautifully, your post made me cry
>>43780655>he thought being a slave would be fun
>>43780728Isn't that the main regret of most sane individuals?
Thats really sad :(
>>43782509no?? i'm sorry but why do people so commonly project their particular regrets and failings onto others. wtf does being 'sane' have to do with it?
>>43783082retard
You should apologise to your friend, anon. Tell him how you feel. None of this guarantees you'll get him back, but there's a chance.
>>43783082It's just a very common thing to regret in life for people regardless of sexuality and gender (I guess aside from aromantic people). Not pursuing a romantic interest for whatever reason (commonly fear, for gay people specifically it's very often being closeted). You see it posted everywhere.
>>43780655>chaser flagHmmmm... Is there more to this story?
>>43780655you should kill yourself for making me even consider reading that emo teenager garbage
>>43780655>Should i call my friend back?yesyesyes>Should i apologize and finally dive in? yesif theres a chance take it and dont let go
