>Be me>Very meek chuddy autistic guy>Recovered NEET, literal incel>Watching TADC with like four other friends>Transmasc friend who isn't on T is dressed up as Ragatha [they looked really good]>My nerdy cis bro friend as well>Movie ends, we're all talking about it>Everyone apart from me caught off guard by the Jax trans woman reveal>Bluntly remark "I've never related more to a character in my life." When talking about Jax.>"Uh... Anon, what? Is there something you want to tell us?">Quickly ammend "Apart from the trans stuff.">Transmasc friend hears and starts jokingly asking if this is me coming out and if I want to be called [Really shitty female version of my name]>Laugh it off and shut them down immediately.It was a close call anons, I'm repping forever since I'm an ugly acne riddled skinny chud and they will NEEEEEVER EVER find out I desperately wish I was a woman. I doubt I really even want to be aw oman desu, I think it's more so a fetishistic desire to be able to indulge in my feminity and meeker personality traits withoute social ridicule, and to be percieved as "cute" rather than ugly.Anyway fuck you Jax for almost outing me to my friends.
>>43811224Saw this tonight too and went to bed horribly depressed. I can relate to jax. I liked it a lot though
>>43811280I honestly felt a little sad but I was satisfied. I came close to crying when Jax was dying in his mindspace and being hugged by Pomni, teared up a little and all that. However, I was grinning when he first abstracted.
>>43811405At first i thought he abstracted with no fanfare and was like damn, but when pomni went into the mind space i got really interested. But yeah i think it would have been less satisfying if he got to live
>>43811224OP maybe you should try and be open to the idea, repping is just taking slow poison damage everyday
>>43811224jesus christ just start estrogen
>>43811224Assuming you are not trolling, why you dont just take estrogen while staying as a moid. It would even improve your acne lol. Also how old are you btw
>>43811467Just turned 23 so it's completely #over for meA lot of people confuse me for being <18 though for some reason, that's not to say I look good or anything, I think it's mostly my extremely bad acne making me look younger than I am.>Why not just take estrogen bro!Because A)I don't want to go to a therapist and talk about my extremely raped childhood and abusive parents then mumble "Yeah I uhm... I-I might be trans..." While looking like the most stereotypical incel you have ever seenAnd B) I don't want to buy shitty blackmarket estrogen and inject it into my thighs because I'd rather not give myself more long term health problems
>>43811500If you're in the US you dont need to go through a therapist
>>43811511I'm in bongland anon
>>43811526Fuck rip... theres gotta be some diy non sketch method for you over there
>>43811533Nope.There really, really isn't. I think the most I might ever do is buy a big fluffy sweater and a long skirt and dress up someday, since it's what I've always really wanted to wear if I was a woman. God, typing this shit out feels utterly pathetic, I'm such an absolute freak.Anyway I think once I crossdress privately like once I'll be able to rep comfortably for the rest of my life, while it does bring my [mild] pain I can't act out my feminine desires, it's not like I despise my body [too much]. I don't feel sick looking at myself, just mildly depressed that I'm so unquestionably ugly.Other than that? I'll just keep on roleplaying as women in online videogames
>>43811526you can diy!! anon it doesnt have to be like this
>>43811500Injecting greymarket estrogen wont give you health problems lol, dont you realize that if you already feeling so shitty you will only feel worse and worse??? The small risks that come with that are way better than losing your sanity as you are or will
>>43811569Already was majorly depressed and a complete hikimori due to being bullied out of comp when I was like thirteen thanks to the fact I was a dumb weird little retard back then.I had to claw my way out of my depression, and at the time I refused to accept I was trans because it terrified me.Now I know I'm definitely [probably] at least GNC or wish I could present as non masculine, however I don't want to rape the tiny amount of social clout I have and get disowned by my family for being a freak.
>>43811577Your friends already know
>>43811598They're dense ass fucking normies, and the transmasc's a turbo-normie as well. They just see me as the weird chuddy-incel they hang out with, and often like calling me a chud or an incel for laughs, as much as it annoys me.TLDR they're dumbass normies.
>>43811606If they are ok with the transmac while they wouldnt tolerate you as well? And if the problem was you being a chud they wouldnt even hang out with you altogether. Dont you realize this is an excuse you tell yourself because you are afraid of confronting the truth? most normies wont give a fuck unless you are very clocky or a giga sperg, and since you seem to not mind transitioning socially you dont have to worry about the first issue
>>43811606Yeah and they already know
>>43811224>Transmasc friend hears and starts jokingly asking if this is me coming out and if I want to be called [Really shitty female version of my name]kill pooners holy shit
>>43811713Actually malebrained he's gmi
>>43811718no you retard that's completely fembrained
>>43811224damn what a fucking spoiler I was gonna wait until I found it online. gonna kms now, Jax is a tranny???
>>43811722Abrasive ribbing like that is male socialization 101
>>43811722>3 new postsIt is malebrained lmao, its just some banter its not that bad
>>43811731>>43811734no it was catty shaming of someone for daring to be almost be vulnerable
>>43811731NGL my moid cis friend who's a nerdy guy like me just chuckled and didn't think much of it while the transmasc was the only one who seemed to really joke about it with my new "female" name.I should mention they're not on T yet eitherAll my friends literally just think I'm some chuddy nerdy straight incel who can't get a GF, though I'm mostly close with one super woke but extremely chuddy lesbian who'd accept me [not apart of this cinema trip] and one nerdy moid similar to me, along with one more stereotypical normie dude we're both friends with.Basically if I came out I think only one [1] person would give me any sort of support or acceptance outside of two faced smiles and thinking "...Eesh, this fucking guy's trans? Well, you know what they say about incels..."
>>43811772Start estrogen and become a better person and THEN come out
>>43811718>not on Tyeah he is going to make it because he is living on easy street as a cissexual woman
>>43811766#IKindofagreeI should mention this was the dude in the killer Ragatha cosplay as well
>>43811788yeah even the most feminine actual ftm i know wouldn't be caught dead in that shit.
>>43811224> to be able to indulge in my feminity and meeker personality traits withoute social ridicule, and to be percieved as "cute" rather than ugly.just troon out its over
>>43811224oh i forgot to say this before but you literally just watched a movie where the repper dies an unloveable chud. shit is a cautionary tale against what you're doing rn. take your pills alice.
>>43811731>>43811734>>43811766malebrained because it's platonic ribbingfembrained because no cis man would call his friend trans for fear of rebuttalwhich way western pooner?
>>43811963A man who is afraid is WEAK and PATHETIC and UNWORTHY OF AGARTHA
>>43811500you dumb fuck greymarket e isn't dangerous and it's practically the only way to get e in bongland. do your fucking researchyou seem very uneducated so i'll spell it out for you nona. here are your options:1. get on e asap. order it online. everything you need to know can be found on plebbit so im sure you can figure it out. you can hide it for a good while and you can quit at any time.2. rope.3. end up as a hon.that's it.you can be a passoid/twinkhon/whatever or you can be miserable for the rest of your short repper life.
>>43811224>I doubt I really even want to be aw oman desu, I think it's more so a fetishistic desire to be able to indulge in my feminity and meeker personality traits withoute social ridicule, and to be percieved as "cute" rather than ugly.femboy it up then, maybe hrt for a few months but check to see if it's actual gd or what you say it is. it's better if it's something more treatable than gd, but if it is gd, you should treat it
>>43811871lol jax was also gooseworx's self insert according to her. probably did the usual avoidant or occasional lashing out stuff and blamed herself tons for it>>43811772just tell them you're jumping in the incel2tranny pipeline like incel mario ezpz>>43811561>I think once I crossdress privately like once I'll be able to rep comfortably for the rest of my life, nigga please you know full well that repping's slow suicide>while it does bring my [mild] pain I can't act out my feminine desires, it's not like I despise my body [too much]. I don't feel sick looking at myself, just mildly depressed that I'm so unquestionably ugly.op you gotta get some pucci asap to test if it's uggophoria or genderinophoria
>>43811444This is LITERALLY how you build immunity
>>43813626but its actually this https://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/Toxic_(move)
>>43813626Repping is actually like long term liver toxicity
>>43813818If you get liver cyrrhosis hrt doesnt work on you leaving you with absolutely no ability to troon.Buying a 0.7L bottle of alcohol today
>>43811224I hate you trannies that wanna make everything even remotely feminine male, transIt wasn't even implied. He's just gay. Trans is a reach. Even the face reveal showed hes a gay twink and not a tranny
>>43814460you're an ugly faggot
>>43814646And you're a brainwormed loser too scared to live her life. Neither of us is winning retard
>>43813871Whatever you do OP dont end up like this retard
>>43814682Damn you just described me
>>43814682uh huh
>>43814695I am very unhappy yes
>>43814836I dont know your deal but i assume repper. Dont rep, your depriving yourself of a better existence.
>>43811224>>Quickly ammend "Apart from the trans stuff."just... let it happen
>>43814858I would be a repper except i have no dysphoria. I'm just an ugly mentally ill depressed male.
>>43811224take your HRT, retardalso I related really hard and it was sad how it went for him
>>43811772What the fuck am I reading? Do zoomers speak English anymore?
>>43811224wow you're just as irrational and self destructive as jax too good job playing the part
>>43811500>A lot of people confuse me for being <18 though for some reasonthis means there's a 99% chance you have good passing potential PLEASE take your pills nona before it's too late
>>43811224>I'm repping forever since I'm an ugly acne riddled skinny chud and they will NEEEEEVER EVER find out I desperately wish I was a woman.Just transition in private? I don't get this mindset, wouldn't you be happier knowing you've tried atleast? If I doesn't work no one else has to know, if it does and you like it then come out?, at this stage literally the only person stopping you is yourself, and for what? If you think you're gonna be miserable forever at least afford yourself the comfort of having tried. Picrel is you probably
