I will learn to accept that I am a cis man
Today's music rec: Still Beauty by zakè & marine eyeshttps://pitp.bandcamp.com/album/still-beauty
>>43818021So a normal gay?It's starting to trend again.
replying to people from yesterday's thread cause it got archived before I woke up, and also cause I can't sleep >>43806426>why? just to live a "normal" life? whats the point of being normal if youre not happy? if youre not able to do or be any of the things that you truly want?Because there is nothing for me to gain by transitioning. I'm actively making my life worse by not allowing myself to be the man I'm supposed to be. Happiness was never part of the equation>>43806464>I tried that most of my life. Didn't work. But my life is a joke anyways so now I get to go out as some joke of a girl most people see as a hon. At least it's one of the few things that's on my terms.I wish you all the best in your transition >>43806838>I believe i wont be cute even if i were to take estrogen therefore i wont even try.I don't think you're right to believe that, but don't forget that you will certainly never look cute if you stay on testosterone tho>>43806872>what boges do you toke cis manWhat?
>>43818291Nope. I'm actually cishet, although in denial of it
I wish i werent cisgender and male
>>43818413>Because there is nothing for me to gain by transitioning.being a girl is something to gain :)>the man I'm supposed to beaccording to who? why should they get to dictate who your live your life as?>Happiness was never part of the equationif youre not living your life according to what makes you happy and makes you feel fulfilled, what are you even doing? get your priorities in order. live for something you actually value.
>>43819171>being a girl is something to gain :) Being a girl is not something you can gain. It's something you either are or aren't, and I definitely never was one>according to who? why should they get to dictate who your live your life as?According to myself, because I don't believe I am able to live anything but the life of a cis man>what are you even doing? get your priorities in order. live for something you actually value.I'm just barely doing what I'm supposed to be doing at this age, floating along, and hoping it'll all make sense one day looking back. Unfortunately there's no priorities for me to get in order cause there is nothing I value about my life, nor am I able to even conceive of anything that I might valueSry for dooming
>>43819375>Being a girl is not something you can gain. It's something you either are or aren't, and I definitely never was onethis is something you believe. not something that is universally and incontrovertibly true. this belief of yours can change.hoping the best for you, sis. even if you end up not passing or ugly or whatever, transitioning into a woman is a path that could bring you joy.
>>43819400This is not something I believe in. It is that way. After all, you can't turn someone who's trans into someone who's cis and vice versa. Trans women have something to "gain" by being women, because they already are women. That isn't the case for me tho
>>43819126so close yet so far
>>43819126Repping really does lead to retardation
>>43818021You are literally me op
>>43822555I'm sorry. Have you managed to make any progress in learning to accept that you're a cis man?
>>43822577I think so but I wont lie its hard me even being here is like a relapse
>>43822583Are you doing anything irl to make progress accepting it?
>>43822874Well the only thing I can do is ignore coming on here and to not think about it at all my day to day is very detatched from how I feel
>>43822884You sound like a repper ngl, or are you on hrt?
