Never had sex, never went on a date, never had a relationship.I'm 2.5 years on HRT now, live in Germany, 1.85m tall, 20 years and still boymode cause I'm too scared. I pass most of the time regardless, which is confusing. Maybe it's because I'm middle eastern and our women are already seen as hypermasculinize by default? My face and voice pass, but my height and weight (77kg) make me extremly dysphoric, stopping me to girlmode. Atleast my shoulders are somewhat small for my frame.Idk, I'm just tired. Will I ever find love? Will there ever be a man who will love me and see me for who I am, will there be someone who won't be ashamed of me? How do I find my soulmate :(. Idc if he's cis/trans, bi/straight/ect. - I just want to be loved, I just want to find my person.I want to be skinny. I want to be thin and fragile so it makes up for my height, does that make sense?I'm in college right now and I feel like a fucking clown. I feel like I will forever die alone and that love is just not meant for me.I'm sorry this is stupid.
>>43818197Depends on what you're going for. Women? Men? T4t?
>>43818255I've only been attracted to men so far
Too tall
>>43818456I know. I feel massive…
>>43818296Look im a chud and i dont even know why i came here but none of what you said disqualifies you from being attractive to males. If you are what you described i'd probably find you attractive even with the tallness. Talk to open minded people at your college and dont be afraid to show interest in people
>>43818497Thank you for your insight, this was helpful. Do you think it could be because I have autism or because of my shyness? I have been told by multiple people that I'm attractive but I was still never approached or had a man show interest in me. Sometimes guys in class will stare at me, but that's about it. What can I do to make myself more approachable or less awkward? I do struggle with social clues a lot and struggle with extreme shyness
You're not too tall for me but you mite b too solid.
>>43818561From my own experience it cause either they just look at you or they do find you attractive but they're being pussies. If were the latter approaching for a short convo would be huge basically. That way you can gauge their interest and go from there. Autism and shyness I do sympathise with but unfortunately in this day and age you gotta do stuff yourself now
>>43818594Okay, thank you again!!!I should really try to be more open and talk more.
