Finally starting to do something to kill my internet addiction, I removed the internet from my phone and have been getting a bunch of physical media to replace its everyday use, leaving only my laptop for it.But like desu I can tell this is gonna run into the exact same problem that every single other self improvement project Ive done runs into in that I just dont like myself at all. I've kicked an eating disorder, ended multiple drug addictions, stopped self harming, got on meds, have been getting a social group, have gotten a proper job, have been reading high brow academic texts, have been getting real hobbies and honestly mentally I feel about the same as I did when I was a drugged stoner 24/7 without a job if not a little worse. I still find no drive to take a shower whatsoever and only take them to avoid social consequences because I dont view myself as worth taking care of.I feel like Im a true HRT repper desu because one of these days Im gonna just outright run out of maladaptive coping mechanisms with how quickly Im burning through them and then turn to positive coping mechanisms and when that doesnt work Im prolly just gonna kill myself desu.
>>43822602Positive coping mechanisms work if you don't let your vulgar reactionary pessimistic thoughts win
