I don't believe I'm trans, but still on HRT for 9 months. I think I feel uncomfortable when looking at my boobs. I feel like I fake my euphoria and dysphoria and cut myself when I'm "dysphoric" not only for relief, but also to prove to myself that what I'm feeling is real also I'm severely malebrained and cutting is fembrained. Today I cried when my friend used he him pronouns for me in discord, havent come out to him yet. Why do I feel like this was fake? If it is fake why am I faking it? I've always wanted to be a trans woman and get way more envy from luckshits and youngshits than cis women. wtf do I do?
>>43825709literally me, except I know for certain that I'm faking everything and I don't know how to stop
>>43825709one must imagine sisyphus happy
>>43826502ngl im too stupid to get what you mean
>>43827948>>43825709this is the most truetrans shit ever.nothing will stop the spiralyou're just a very existentialist high IQ womandon't stop you dumb bitch
>>43825709>cut myself when I'm "dysphoric" not only for relief, but also to prove to myself that what I'm feeling is realthats why everyone cuts. this is not some unique shit.your hole post is literally every trans fem at some point
why does everyone have boobs except me>t. 1 yr hrt and still goes swimming shirtless >>43825709the imposter syndrome is real asf tho, i feel the same way constantly, always feel like I'm faketrans like my dysphoria isn't strong enough and yet i still feel compelled to transition. getting envy from trannies more makes sense cuz it's more achievable in ur mind. idk i don't even rly cry that much from misgendering like my dysphoria is fr not that strong i don't cut ive never been suicidal idk what's my deal, I'm sorry ur dealing w it too tho, it's awful feeling fake, and not knowing why or how to stop it
