Hello I need some help. I will briefly give you the data:>cis straight man, early 30s>avoidant personality disorder, depression>the final avoidant goal is to look like a "sissy kpop idol" and to not grow as a person in any way>which means very youthful (17 to early or max mid 20s), pretty and for that cutesiness to remain for a decent amount of time>this will fulfill my feminization fantasies and allow me to reach goon-paradise and feel as if time isn't passing, so i will never feel like an old male loser or as if death is approaching (immortal youthful peter pan syndrome idea, world of sexual desire and freedom from otherness)>look early 30s (duh)>i know there's a lot of methods to reverse the age your appearance (see hollywood stars, kpop idols)conflict:>think getting cosmetic or surgical procedures without dysphoria or deformities is satanic (see: transhumanist, superficial, bloody, demonic, selfish, narcissistic, cold, fake, anti-christian, impure)conflict:>it seems unrealistic given i don't look younger than my age and time is tickingconflict:>i don't have the moneyconflict: >i feel superficial making this goal the center of my life, i feel like a weirdo sociopath and it takes a toll on my mental healthconflict: >i don't know if i really want thisconflict: >i feel as if it isolates me from normal people and it gives me anxietyAlternative endings:>somehow get a lot of money and try to date women >maybe start a family >social circle of friends, maybe go play soccer with some people on the weekends and meet friends my age and try to blend in while pretending to be well adjustedconflict:>it's kind of hard, I'm far behind
>>43833147good girl, keep gooning sissyyou like having your ass wrecked for actual men
>>43833171it's actually more of a slow descend into femininity and men are barely involved, although if men desire me it reinforces the sissy aspect
>>43833147this sissy thinks too hardshe needs to focus on growing boobs, and seducing men like she wanted as a little girl
>>43833147it's time to make a choice and live with the consequencesorit's time to let it go and see if it comes back to you
>>43833147cism late 30s avpd depresso here>>i don't know if i really want thisid say try getting help that allows you to see if regular life works too. of course if you have actual gd, treat that appropriately
>>43833147you have been hawking this thread, constantly refreshing iti wonder why? was it because your affirmations couldnt come sooner sissy?you know what you are supposed to be your whole life, and now you are refusing to give up your pretense of being a man?
>>43833147>i know there's a lot of methods to reverse the age your appearance (see hollywood stars, kpop idols)>think getting cosmetic or surgical procedures without dysphoria or deformities is satanicyou can slow or even nearly stop apparent aging and even repair aging damage with proper skincarehere's a basic regimen morning: face cleanser, moisturizer, sunscreenevening: cleanser, mask every other day, retinol, moisturizerthere are plenty of additional options like vitamin c oil or pore reducerstake care of yourself slut
considering modern society is obsessed with looks, I guarantee you will have a better life if you do become hotter
OP what is your discord I am in a similar situation and would like to have a conversation.
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