For the better part of a decade I have been kind of a chud from browsing 4chan, watching YouTube commentary and being friends with chuds. I'm not friends with any of those people anymore and this is the only board I used nowadays but it's something I enjoy, I really hate moralfaggotry and caring about politics. But an unfortunate consequence of being a chud is it's making my transition extremely difficult. It doesn't matter if I'm trans adjacent or are friends with and enjoy being around LGBTQ people who aren't annoying and retarded, it still feels like I'm indoctrinating myself into a cult or giving into satanic desires or castrating myself or whatever. How can I keep my sense of humor and self while still coming to terms with who I am, what my gender identity is and that I probably should be on HRT?
