i've wasted my life, and i think those patterns are too deep in me to change. i get taunted with what i want, what i could've had, nearly every day, because there's people who get to live their lives everywhere. it's painted on their faces and on their skin. they don't have to watch from the outside like i do, they just live in absolute reality. they're so much more than me and it hurts.i threw away everything good i had, could've had, and i think i'm going to do it again. my relationship is failing because of me, and i don't know how to fix it. because i got used to being stagnant, to not changing anything, to assuming things happen to me rather than me happening to them
oh my god can you die already
>>43837126imagine winning the race lottery and still being like this
the maid guy is RUINING the trannies of this board
>>43837255if you pay me>>43837283dysgenic Anglo/Celtic doesn't sound like winning the lottery to me>>43837313it's not him specifically, it's what he represents
>>43837337>it's not him specifically, it's what he representswhat about it is bothering you?
>>43837337if u have blue eyes you’re prettier than at least 90% of the world and I can’t take your complaints seriously
>>43837376it's just the fantasy of being saved, like it always has been. for someone to assign value to me and lift me up from whatever hole i've dug myself.and i guess in part being self sacrificial, to have my fears about myself proven and then disregarded by actually being useful in some way>>4383739070% of white people in the UK have blue eyes, it's not special
>>43837126kys
>>43837126post what you look like so i can judge you
>>43838944>>43839310
>>43839379You'll be okay
>>43839379Although I am curious. Why do you look like "that." Your covered in marks. And you like lumpy and defeated. You look strung out. Are you a junkie?
>>43839886nope, my skin quality is just trash. the chapped lips are from accutane, the red mark on my cheek was from resting my hand on it
