18, male here. Recently I graduated highschool. Things aren't too bad materially. I made my resume, and Im hoping to either land a job and or get into a junior college. The issue being I still am repressing, and thus miserable. I remember recently my mom did say that if I was just a gay male, she would have been fine with me having long hair, shaving my face and dressing feminine. Though since she knows Im a tranny, Im banned from all that. And I get the daily reminders of how geneticly gifted in being handsome and masculine I am while saying I was groomed into it. Even if I recall all of it being suggested at most with me being the one to initially accept it. I still can't do much about it due to me being Mexican and under strict obligations to follow her lane, and other crap. But I wonder one thing. I can't keep going like this, can I? I've already been at the point of turning the lights off in the shower and contemplating killing myself. It has to stop eventually, right?
>>43840464>I still can't do much about it due to me being Mexican and under strict obligations to follow her lane, and other crapsounds like it sucks nona, what other crap do you mean?
>>43840464The feeling usually doesn't go away. You need to get away from her if you ever want to pursue this. Idk what any of those obligations are, but you should probably just forget them
>>43840489She basically handles my immediete family's official stuff, including my dad. Phone bills, DMV, IDs, bank accounts and medical healthcare. So I can't really get out easy, especially when 3 out of her 4 kids are adults and she still does this
>>43840534For Mexicans, that can be worse than death. Atleast socially it is. Mostly since that can be conflated with abandonment, which would be a complete act of malice on by behalf. So bad even my extended family could bring shame onto me
>>43840564are you able to get on diy hrt? asking since you said your mother controls your bank account. if you cant buy it i can buy it for you and send it over if you want help i can give my discord
>>43840464where are you from
>>43840607Well, go for a dishonorable discharge. Take the titty pills and get disowned. If anybody tries to shit on you for that, it quite literally in no way was your fault
>>43841244209, United States
>>43841380>209ahh its you again, i wish i could help though atp i should probably just consider mailing you vials
>>43841380I thought you were actually in Mexico at first and that just moving away wasn’t an option for you.What’s stopping you from just estranging yourself from every one of them and going somewhere else?
>>43841380>209>mexicanWould you date a 25 year old masculine mixed Hispanic Otaku twink top guy if so I can save you OP
>>43841446I perfer girls
>>43841474>I prefer girls Ur probably ugly and indio anyway My advice is to kys op
>>43841427I have considered just going on the diypill, however my mom or dad usually get my mail before me. And because of an incident when I was a youngshit 14 year old when my mom found a package of bras I bought, it's now a rule I have to open my mail infront of her. Besides idk how to mine crypto, and I have no personal PO box or Amazon locker
>>43841500i have a few extra pharma vials i could just give you for free but you should set up a po box or amazon locker
>>43841527She would definetly know since the closest Amazon locker is a bit of a walk, and the closest PO is like 1 to 3 miles away. I can't drive, and even if I took the walk, she'd know since she has known me my whole life and can tell when I lie. So no, it would not really work out well. Im very sorry to say so
>>43841555do you have any friends or neighbors close to your that could receive the package for you then you go pick it up?
>>43840464you sound a lot like me, wish you luck nonamexican't t. ranny
>>43841563Nope. Closest friend I had from high school lived like 30 minutes away if I walked. Besides he was broke asf too lol
>>43841627what if i mail you something you would probably order but put the vials inside of it? like a bottle of moisturizer or something, would your mom still get schizo and check it thoroughly?
>>43841641Point is, it would be unreasonably difficult to diy in any shape. So it wouldn't be worth the effort
