i transitioned mtf a long time ago and am pretty lucky to pass pretty well. i feel like i’ve basically “made it”recently though i started having like reverse agp where i find it rly hot to think of myself as a guy during sex. i also feel like it would be cool to have guy friends the way that guys do. also to explore the world like backpacking and camping and like just roll out of bed and go abt my day without caring abt looking put together. like all the guys ik at my uni are so free. it’s kind of gotten to the point where im wondering why i ever transitioned.i’ve kind of been spiraling ever since this started cause what the fucki’m not sure what to do now or what this means
>>43841010i feel all these ways but im a cis woman lol. performing the female social role kinda sucks
>>43841010I have this too but then I remembered when I was actually a cis male I was never able to achieve this
>>43841379do you feel happy as a woman though
>>43841731no I hate myselfbut if I detrooned id hate myself even morepoint is the “ideal” of either gender is always going to seem appealing but I already know its completely unachievable to me, I was born to be miserable
>>43841731No, I just hate my tits so much, I'm always suffering from fluctuating between being a girl and being a sissy boy
>>43841010you know you can just be a tomboy and do that stuff right?thinking of yourself as a trap during sex is hot though desu
