Time to stop drinking copium and turn back to drinking more alcohol. I can no longer deny that my friends are only humoring and pitying me. No real men will ever see poons as men. They probably just see a confused fragile autistic girl who needs coddling, maybe a "one of the boys" girl at best. Ik ik I'm retarded for taking this long to fully realize with how much they've slipped up. I should've never stopped isolating and repping.
I feel this bro I'm on pills Abt it. You still have a chance but I think I wish MAID was legal here so I could die. I'm the same of being autistic ftm,like diagnosed as a child level autism . You still have a chance to transition and I don't think you should give up, but I understand it feeling like this right now that you should and none of it would be worth it. Stay safe with the drinking ok? I'm sure your friends respect you, and if they don't they were shit friends anyways and you don't need them. Strangers usually dont have a conscious either and their brains are rotted, their opinions of you don't matter if it helps.
>>43850263You're not a mind reader stop assuming people are thinking about you and do your job.-troon
>>43850370that's part of the issue they definitely are true friends I'm just the first trans person they've ever known and they're from conservative areas. they are truly great friends tho
>>43850433fair lol thanks but I don't think you have to be mind reader to have pattern recognition. I don't assume people are "thinking about me" it's more that when I interact it's either subtle slips or straight up referring to me like a woman. I don't really believe it's possible for the majority of cis people to be normal about non passing trannies.
>>43850263maybe its true that no pooner will ever be a man, but you can be one step closer to the real thing by quitting all this bitching onlineno offense
>>43850872you say that like this is a regular activity of mine when I've made like 3 vent posts ever. true tho, but how do you actually man tf up when you've ruined your own life by pooning? I don't really talk about shit to people I know either cuz they'll just see you as a lil bitch whining+I would rather pretend the problem isn't there if i can't fix it.I'm too fembrained to be a real man and too malebrained to be anywhere near normal if I repped again.
>>43851075ruining your life at least once seems pretty malebrained i think you will make it anon
>>43850263Kind of a bad idea to get drunk about it tb h but yeah, you're basically right, your friends are good friends and trying to be as solid to you as they can by playing along though so don't hold it against them. They mean well and you can't force them to see a 4'10" grill as a man, it just doesn't work like that.
>>43850263That's true but you might just need to make different friends without telling them you're trans and see if you pass that way
>>43853747trvke, the problem OP is that they knew you before, it’s not that you’re short
>>43850370Same, I go therapy and take meds but I just wish the doctors would be finally honest with me and said "I can't help you" and offered MAID. Maybe then my close ones would accept that I was never meant to be alive. Unfortunetely its illegal in my country. I am miserable every day. I hate being ftm.
>>43853747I haven't been able to transition early enough so I'll probably never truly pass, but I did find out these guys have never known trannies before, which is honestly preferable, so I'll just try to get be patient cuz they are really good friends I don't wanna just cut them off for such a selfish reason. it was my own mistake to take part in the humiliation ritual of scocial transition before med transition.I also can't make IRL friends, so my passing relies on voice and mannerisms. and I do not even attempt to pass at work because I want to keep my job.
>>43850263Speak for yourself, buddy.
>>43853747I have never been misgendered in game VCs, even TF2 lol. so I think a lot of it is just cuz they know my age and know I'm trans. they also know my boywife with a much deeper voice and cis people tend to assume I must be "the girl one" recently he straight up told them he's "the girl one" I really hope it actually helps and doesn't just make them think less of him too.
>>43856365cope. if cis people know you're trans, 99% of them will see you as your birth sex
>>43856410ok. they simply dont know and i live life stealth lul
>>43856365Isn't that exactly what li'l poonpoon is doing? I don't see any generalizing statements in OP.
>>43856410>birth sexWhat if you don't have this?
>>43856347>social transition before med transitionYikes, yeah this was a mistake no offense.
>>43856754no offense taken. I was very young and nieve when I came out. young enough that I was able to pass but, not anymore. it's kinda hard to go back the closest atp when I have a couple friends who have known me since then.
>>43856808Yeah for sure, I get it can be a one way street, just, RIP
Why dont you just accept being a girl, even a confused fragile autistic girl? Like its ok to be that. You could even go a step farther and concede that your "dysphoria" is just general anxiety probably from trauma and decades of regret/shame/social dysfunction, etc. Yeah its still bad its a lot better than being dead or coping like this. Like every indicator is telling you are not, in fact, male and that liberals have lied to you about gender/sex, the entire thing is a sham. The reason why you are still miserable despite everything is because gender = sex and postmodern philosophy has lied to you
