>6'5>23 y/o>25.0 bmi (fat)>norwood 3 vertex (already on fin)>pre-hrt, pre-everythinghow do i cope?? i find myself having fun and feeling like a girl, but everytime i see my reflection i'm reminded of the body i live in. i look like a disgusting fat chud. i'm grossed out by myself all the time and i feel like a deformed freak.the idea of being john50 kills me inside.how do i transition? i want to start hrt but i have really bad anxiety and talking to anybody irl about anything regarding a transition would kill me.
>>43851362are you a virgin? Have to been successfully able to slay a cis woman yet? If so don't transition.
>>43851449im a virgin but i havent killed any cis women
>>43851457okay, I mean fuck a cis women not kill her btw.At your age it's over so you really have nothing to lose by trooning out. You can't live an enjoyable cis life.
>>43851482ik i was just being a cuntas for trooning out, how does one even get started? i know essentially nothing in terms of actually transitioning. like i know it's a long-haul thing but i have no idea where to get started.i want to start hrt but im fat and want to lose that weight first, i dont think ill have any issue putting on woman weight. i just cant imagine actually being her yet. i feel so far away and i have no irls to talk to about this stuff with.
>>43851506if you want to start just get DIY hrt. Buy Monero from Kraken and go to Hera HRT or Symphony Labs. I honestly don't know if I want to be a women or not. I know that I want to be anything but the failure of a cis dude I was before where I was only guaranteed loneliness in the future. Wherever HRT takes my I'll go.
>>43851533im kind of the same desu. i hate the direction my body's grown (couldnt put my finger on it until recently that it's probably dysphoria) and even if i dont pass i still think hrt will make me feel more comfortable in my body.im just not sure if i want boobs, because i do NOT intend on coming out for years at least!! im prepared to be a closeted boymoder for the foreseeable future.does diy affect your hormones when you get them prescribed? like will it affect the bloodwork when i eventually go to the doctors?
>>43851362t.>6'5>23 y/o>26.1 bmi (chubby fem distro)>norwood 1 (recovering from much worse after long time on minox)>4y hrt, pre-surg (ffs/srs)(most embarrassing cringe happiest saddest fulfilling years of my life)DO IT ANON DO IT STOP REPPING.you might see ppl here say that you should detrans or give up.DONT LISTEN.They will never understand!!!! U have to do it for yourself.Even if you resign to boymoding (what i did for the first few years)It's possible to make it!I apparently semipass (i thought i was being hugboxxed but no it's genuine and apparently happens behind my back :0)So u can make it!My gf is also>6'5>25 y/o>idk her bmi>starting minox>4y hrtWe both are semipassoids pre-ffs in chud areas. It's not over yet u just gotta start today i promise it will be worth it.
>>43851362>>6'5stop reading.
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>>43851506>wants to lose weight first before starting hrt>norwood 3
>>43855082why do people do this
>>43851362>idea of being john50 kills me insideGet on it fast the before it kills you for real. I was same hair at 20 and it was het or rope. I was also on fin and min, since hrt 5 months back im like nor 2.5 now
