>be me>be 22 >be a guy>6'3" behemoth (lanky)>Conservative family and state>Sexual awakening at 11 was deviant art tg captions>AGP since then (I'm a degenerate) >Enjoyed gender bender manga all my life (late night binging since age 14)>Enjoy gender bender as a theme in games and tv>Wish my hair was longer>Did past life regression hoping to prove reincarnation is real (you know why, didn't work)>My body hair is really starting to gross me out, it never did that beforeGuys what does this mean? Can I stop this before it gets out of hand? I can't not be cis I'd be ruined
so, even if you 100% cant accept that ur “trans”you are dysphoric. Get on hrt ASAP or it will get worse.Id be happy to discuss why its not as unthinkable as u think it is, and what confronting it might entail
I'm sorry but it is most likely not going to stop
>>43853023They will tell you to troon. Get real help somewhere else. They're doomed and want you to be too.
>>43853073HRT would make me a social pariah in my own home. Still live with parents who are anti trans (strangely ok with gays) and honestly if possible I would prefer to make all of this go away, idk if there's therapy or something I can do. This didn't bother me until recently
>>43853124move to a woke city. its not going away.
>>43853133How can I be sure I'm actually trans? Could just be a weird fetish. I don't think I'd actually wear skirts or anything and anyway I'm 6'3" so what would be the point
>>43853163this board has a really weird conception of transness. its not a fetish dont worry about thatOn “whats the point?”… u need to understand that the future u had envisioned for urself just isnt possible. If u try growing up to be a man the feelings will come back and get worse and worse.so the reason why i say what i do is, u need to get used to ur new reality, basically. your life already changed and u need to catch up
>>43853191They'd come back worse and worse if I was trans, but I don't know if I am or not. I don't really want to wear girl clothes I don't think. A lot of the fantasy is just sexual shit which makes me question how serious it is
>>43853023Literally me except -1 year and also I've been consciously dysphoric since like 16.Yeah trooning out almost certainly wouldn't work for us. I've considered upgrading to manmoder, but idk if that would be worth getting disowned over since I'm most likely just gonna drink myself to death or rope either way. I can give you alcohol and escapist agp fiction reccs I guess.>>43853082lmao"real help" doesn't exist, and we're the doomed ones
>>43853163you should talk to a therapist about this
>>43853240i second this.therapy and maybe look for a trans/lgbt support group later (as cringe as im sure that sounds to u)
>>43853237Forgot to mention I used to read gender swap fanfiction in my teens. Yeah I'd basically be disowned if I actually acted on any of this. Both alcohol and escapist recs welcome :[
>>43853273I am seeing a therapist (recurrent MDD, on wellbutrin) but I didn't realize the practice was 'faith-based' until a few weeks in so he's probably a no go
>>43853279“Its a fetish” isnt a get out of jail free card. You will still have worsening dysphoria and desire to transition. It will take over ur thoughts.
>>43853279What type of drinks do you typically like?Ever tried CYOAs?
>>43853294im glad u have the good sense not to bring it up w him, good call. But ueah any mon faith based counselor will hive u resources and listen to u process it… and u need to….
>>43853305Usually just whatever everyone else in the room is having. Sort of, yeah. I played mirror's curse already because I just love digging myself deeper into this hole
>>43853023sorry, youre life sucks because you have the tranny curse and literally nothing will fix or cure it. you have two options:1. be unhappy as a cis person, maybe kill yourself or transition in your 50s as a gross ugly senior tranny who looks like a fetishist or maybe manage to hide it all the way to the end2. transition and be unhappy because you lost all your family and friends or because you don't pass / are ugly1% of trannies thread the needle with accepting families and looking cute, most lead pretty decent lives if you are in a safish western country but far from perfect and subject to a lot of internal bad feelings and social discrimination
>>43853342I'm 6'3" in what universe do I pass
>>43853366you might never be able to “pass” in the sense of: look exactly like a cis woman.But u can almost def. Get to a place wherre you are always treated/recognized as a woman.
>>43853336Come on you gotta give me something to work with. Wine? Beer? Liquor?That game looks interesting and I might give it a try, but not the kind of CYOA I was talking about. I meant the static image ones from /tg/
>>43853366hey im taller than you and older than you. im just here to second everything everyone else told you. and also all the agp fetish stuff is nonsense. you either stop the damage now or you wait till later and regret it. >I'm 6'3" in what universe do I passtbr, you dont. but you will pass even less if you wait, lose options every year, and these choices may have expensive consequences
>>43853389Not a huge drinker but if I need to pick up an unhealthy habit to cope alcoholmaxxing sounds good right now. I haven't seen those though I'll check them out>>43853383Why though? It doesn't bother me all that much for people to see me as a guy. At least not right now.
>>43853440“At least not right now” is the kicker
>>43853440>Why though? It doesn't bother me all that much for people to see me as a guy. At least not right now.I mean if you don't want to troon then don't troon. if its not so bad and just low level GD (I wish I was a girl but am okay with just living as a man) than the opportunity cost of transition might not make it worth it. I do think when you do that it has a high likelyhood becomes a weird fetish that might take over your life in other ways, but hey it might work out. we dont know everything about you, some people cope by just becoming huge perverts and masturbating twice a day. I think that's more gross but everyone's different.you can have GD but not severe enough you want to take on all the real suffering being trans entails. passability IS a factor in that. being 6 3 is stressful as a trans person, no matter what the transpositive people want to say here. but you theoretically could get to the point where its just an insecurity and you pass anyway
>>43853496lmao who are the “transpositive” here i think i’m the only one…
>>43853457This all sounds pretty extreme, I really don't think it's as bad in my case as in some other people. I also don't really see myself as a woman? I feel like a guy who sometimes has weird thoughts
>>43853440Wine is a nice way to ease into it. Vino Verde is usually tasty if you're looking for bottles under $15, Portuguese wine is very underrated so you can get good stuff pretty affordably.CYOAs are a whole thing on their own btw, it's not just TSF stuff (but there is a ton of TSF stuff)>https://imgchest.com/p/9p4nlwj57nq
>>43853023I cant tell you what you are but its pretty consistent with trans women.For me I felt like I knew when I accepted that all I had to do was just, tell myself I was a woman. Then I saw the fishing line that connected so much of my experiences together.Ever RP as a woman? Ever try to sound more girly on the mic? Ever correct anyone when they say "she?" Man, I loved RP WoW servers. You go female model and everyone genders you as such. I sucked at RP, but I loved being a woman.
>>43853440If you have to cope and can get weed, weed is way better than alcohol.Weed tolerance climbs slower. Destroys your body slower. Cheap as fuuuuuck.Only downside is once your a proper stoner it takes a long time for you to piss clean.
>>43853561this image made me cry so much
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>>43853638that made me feel better because it was so silly but I'm still sad that I dont get a nice peaceful life full of love
>>43853023it never goes away anoni tried to rep from the time i was like 14 until eventually starting hrt at 20every day you delay will be one you regret
Hey welcome to the club. I suggest you do a porn cleanse, cut the bullshit and sincerely attempt being a woman for a bit in whatever capacity you can find. Don't be a pussy. Even if it's online only, just try it out.Maybe vrchat if you have a headset, failing that talk to randos online while saying I am a trans woman.Give it a month. You'll know by the end. Don't pussy out a week in, you have to push past the discomfort because you either will want more of it, or realize the only thing it does is make you feel weird and uncomfortable.If you are trans, move to Seattle. Your height and build don't matter. There are hons way worse than you. At 22 it's not over yet, you can do a lot to at least be a presentable tranny, and in a blue area like that you're mostly safe.Tl:dr just fucking try it and then you'll feel sure
>>43853668that's why you're supposed to zone out and disassociate while self-inserting
>>43853023I encourage you to read this essay. If you don't want to read the whole thing, at least read the "Middle Age" and "Older Adult" sections. I agree with he other anons here that this won't ever go away. Good luck with it all, transitioning and becoming clocky can still be a good life.https://www.avitale.com/essays-details/?name=the-gender-variant-phenomenon--a-developmental-review-5
>>43853023>>6'3" behemoth (lanky)date me plz
>>43853023Welcome to life on hard mode champ
>>43854470):
Hrt + a mastectomy + ffs + removing all body hair = gigachad prettyboymoding for life
>>43853023cry me a river dog youre just describing the average boymoder transgender woman living situation + dysphoria
>>43853236>I don't really want to wear girl clothesoh my god that is not what being a tranny is ABOUT
>>43853023you're a classic agp, you'll be john 50 in no time if you don't embrace it, oh and never repress or do "manly" shit, it will only make you more miserable
>>43853124Just be gay it seems like your parents would like that. You don't need to be a female you just could be gay
>>43853023The more you feed into these thoughts the stronger they become. Stop consuming gender bender doujin retardation. When the troon thoughts arrive, simply observe them and then move on. Don't fight them, don't linger on them, just find something else to do with your life. You will never pass at 6'3".
>>43855156why do chileans get their own flag
>>43857226>>43857226>>43857226Obviously I won’t pass at 6’3”. The question wasn’t whether I should transition or not it was whether there was a way to get rid of these thoughts for good. Quitting all the gender stuff cold turkey might be worth trying. I actually do have hobbies beyond being a degenerate so maybe they will help
Pull a Boomer sissyStay weird and biGoon your manclitty to the idea of yourself as femmeMarry a Queer-friendly bi womanPlapMarriageKidsHave dope roleplay sex where you dress up as a sissy
>>43857942Nah I have a vasectomy in my future hopefully, can you imagine if this comes back up and makes me ropemaxx at like age 50 leaving a distraught wife and kids lmao.
As a 6’3 tranny who had tranny thoughts in my early 20s who waited til 35 to troon. Now I don’t pass after 2 FFS rounds+ orchie + 2.5y HRT , I have found peace at a cost and should have listened to the voice in my head saying I won’t pass, had to learn the hard way
>>43858006I mean realistically what would you have done differently
start hrt asap. if you find it's not for you then you can just stop but in the long run you'll either start hrt (but older and more masculinised) or you'll kys. there's no escape.t. started at 22 after repping since ~14
>>43858105Always figured I’d ropemaxx by 30 desu, mostly unrelated. The problem is1) I’m more distressed by the fact I’m having the thoughts than I am about my body2) Life will become ropefuel if I start HRT. I have a future, applying to grad school while supported by parents. This would nuke everything
>>43858162Lmao if you can believe it the desu was a typo I never say that
>>43853023https://www.avitale.com/essays-details/?name=the-gender-variant-phenomenon--a-developmental-review-5take your HRT, retard
>>43857286its argentina i think
>>43858301youre so right thats my bad
>>43858197Shit yeah the childhood and adolescence bit describes me about 50/50. I remember pretending to be a girl on Omegle text at like 13 now thinking back.Fuck dude it’s over this can’t be real
the safest way of doing stuff would be to get start process of getting hrt if you live in a country that requires you to go thru 6 months of evaluation for it or to just stock pile on it if you live in usa before the bans will get worse because getting hrt is a easy but long process and simultaneously book a appointment at a sexologist who deals with trannies and simply talk about the whole thing to them honestly, they will give you a helping hand in deciding what you want to do moving on and as for the parents you probably can hide it for a long while before they will notice worse case scenario you will have to listen to a lot of metal in front of them
